Over the past couple of months shit has hit the fan. The only good thing is Mijo and Laila made up. The wedding plans are moving along. Me and Manda tried to make amends with Autumn but shit just didn’t work out. Her and Ty even broke up since they were arguing so much. Ty decided to move to V.A and start over. He wanted to be closer to the boys. He even met someone new but he’s taking it slow with her. They aren’t official or anything. Her name is Jordy she’s mad cool and funny. She actually works for me and is the manager of the clothing store that I own. As for me and Chris everything has been great we’re in the process of moving in together and being a real family for our son. I love both of them so much. They mean the world to me. Chris wanted to get a house close to mama J and I was fine with that. He even made up his mind and decided what he wanted to do with his life. He decided to play ball. That means he would be away a lot but I was willing to travel for him. He was in the process of tryouts to see which team wanted him. Me and Manda were closer than ever and her and Keeis were trying to start a family. Nyeka and Nino are more of the go with the flow type of couple. They don’t plan things it’s like whatever happens happens and I envy them for that.
Chris and I were out continuing our search for a house and I honestly just wanted this shit to be over with. Hopefully this house was the one. We pulled up to this house more like a mansion if you ask me. It was a cream color with burgundy shudders. It was beautiful on the outside and when we went inside it was even better it had 6 bedrooms and 6 in a half bathrooms. There was a movie room, a basketball court in the basement, a huge kitchen and a work out facility. We went in the back of the house and there was a swimming pool and Jacuzzi This house was everything. Chris knew I loved it because he staring at me and smiling.
" Can we get it ? Please " I asked him excitedly.
" Anything for you and my son babe " He smirked " Where do I sign ? " He asked the lady and she pulled out the papers and he signed away.
" I love you so much " I told him.
" I love you too " He said hugging me. I can’t see myself without him ever again.
" Let’s go before I’m late to meet Laila for this bridesmaids fitting " I said smiling up at him. He dropped me off and went to his mothers house to take our son shopping. He was so good to him. My little boy was so spoiled.
" Hey " I said to Manda Nyeka Laila and Jordy.
" About time bitch. Where were you ? " Manda asked me.
" Me and Chris found a house so we had to sign the papers " I said cheesing.
" Oh my god I’m so happy for you " Laila said.
" I’m so happy " I said sitting down.
" You definitley deserve it " Nyeka told me
" Awwww thanks " I smiled.
" Your dresses are ready " Some lady said us. We all got up and tried on our dresses. I was so happy that we were all happy. We all deserve it.
Ty and I were finally in Virginia. I was so nervous to see everyone and Ty was so excited to see his friends. I wanted him to be happy so I came for him. We made our way to nino’s house since we were staying there. I only spoke to Laila and Nyeka but that was barely so I really didn’t know what to expect from anyone. Ty told me Gabby and Chris were back together and I’m honestly happy for her. I haven’t met their son yet I only saw a picture that Chris sent to Ty’s phone recently. It was kind of nice being out of L.A since all I do is work and go home to Ty. I don’t really have friends. Amina stopped speaking to me since I told her I wouldn’t help her get Chris back but fuck it.
” nervous ? ” Ty asked me.
” Yes ” I sighed
"don’t worry babe everything’s going to be fine. Come on we’re here ” he said. We both got out the car. The house was nice. We knocked on the door.
” MY NIGGGAAAAA !!!! ” Niño yelled and gave Ty a hug ” wassup autumn ” he said giving me a hug ” come in come in ” he said helping us with our bags.
” Babe we have to buy more stuff for this BBQ ” Nyeka said texting on the phone ” oh and I just finished texting everybody about it ” she said looking up ” Oh hey Ty and Autumn ” she said smiling and hugging us.
” Hey girl ” I smiled
” You look good ” she said giving me a compliment.
” thanks so do you ” I told her.
” BBQ ? ” Ty question.
” Yeah we just planned it. We thought that would be better so you guys can see everyone ” Niño shrugged.
” iight cool. Hopefully no shit pops off ” Ty said shaking his head.
” Chris and Keeis got that situation handled ” Niño said looking at me
” So where we staying cause I’m tired ” Autumn asked Nyeka. Nyeka went upstairs and showed me the room.
” So how is everyone ” I asked Nyeka as I unpacked my stuff.
” Do you really care this time around ? ” she questioned.
” I just want things back to normal again ” I sighed
” Well ok,everyone is good except Mijo and Laila ” she told me
” Yeah, Laila told me last night that’s crazy. I hope everything goes well tomorrow ” I said shaking my head.
” Well if you don’t start nothing with them they won’t start nothing with you. Well Gabby at least. Manda on the other hand ” Nyeka shrugged.
” Yeah that’s the main person I’m worried about ” I told her.
” It’s going to be fine just get some rest ” Nyeka said walking out the room.
I was getting CJ ready while Gabby was in the shower. Gabbys mom dropped him off this morning. I wanted me and him to match so we both had on army cargo shorts , red converse, a white v-neck and a jean jacket. It was like 1 o clock and we were about to head to this BBQ. Gabby came downstairs in these floral short shorts and a white tank top with sandals. I sat there and stared at her while CJ played with his toys. She was getting our sons bag ready and her bag ready. It was funny cause she kept sucking her teeth every time she didn’t find something. She finally felt me staring and turned to look at me.
” What ? ” she smirked
” Nothing just enjoying the view ” I smirked back.
"Do you know where CJ sippy cup is and my wallet ” she asked me.
” Your wallet is in the kitchen and the Sippy cup is right here ” I said holding it up with a smile.
” you ain’t cute ” she laughed while taking the cup from me.
” You didn’t say that last night ” I laughed and she stuck her tongue at me. About 5 minutes later she came out the kitchen.
” Ok I’m ready ” she said carrying CJs bag and her purse. I got up and CJ was hugging her leg cause he wanted her to carry him. I grabbed the stuff out of her hand and she picked him up ” my baby ” she said kissing him all over his face as we walked to my car. He was just giggling. I took him from her and put him in his car seat.
” dada I wuv yew ” he said touching my face with his little hands.
” love you too baby boy ” I said kissing him on the forehead.
I got in the car and Gabby was looking at me with a dumb ass smile on her face and I just laughed. As we drove I was holding her hand and I kissed it. We got there and everyone was already there Manda was sitting far away from everyone. We walked towards everybody and Gabby was holding one of CJs hands as I held the other.
” remember what I said ” I whispered in her ear and she rolled her eyes and smirked.
” Yes daddy ” she said shaking her head
” Yoooooo ” I said to Ty.
” My fucking nigga ” he said hugging me.
” waddup Ella ” he said hugging Gabby
” hey Ty Ty ” she said hugging him back.
" This our son " i said proudly.
" Say hi to uncle Tyga " Gabby told CJ.
" Wassup little Chris " Ty said squatting down.
" Tiger " He said hugging him.
" so everythings good between you two " Ty asked us.
" Yeah finally " I said pushing Gabby playfully.
" Keep playing with me " She laughed.
" let me go talk to Manda " Gabby said walking away. Keeis, Nino and Mijo walked over.
" You speak to your baby moms " I laughed at Mijo.
" Nahhh " Mijo said shaking his head.
" That’s why she grilling you OD right now " Ty laughed.
" She doesn’t get it mane " He sighed.
" Maybe because you haven’t even told her anything dumb ass " Keeis Laughed.
" and look at these two " Nino said looking at Gabby and Manda.
" As long as shit ain’t popping off it’s cool " Ty shrugged as my son played with his chain.
" Mijo come get your daughter " Nyeka yelled to him. He walked over there and got her then walked back. There was a little tent layed out for CJ and kiara so they could play with their toys. So we let them play in there. I sat down and ate a burger.
" Hey Chris " Autumn said.
" Whats up man " I said getting up and hugging her.
" Y’all son is so cute. He looks like you but has Gabbys eyes " She smiled.
" Thanks " I smiled.
" Hows everything though ? " I asked her.
" Good " She said. I watched as her eyes traveled to Gabby and Manda laughing.
" Deep down Gabby misses you don’t even stress that " I told her.
" I treated her so bad though I guess I couldn’t get over you know " She sighed.
" Are you over it now ? " I asked.
" Yeah the past is the past you know. But I’m really happy for you guys " She said.
" Chris your son is hungry " Laila yelled.
" Stop fucking yelling " I laughed.
" I got it " Gabby said picking him up. She walked over to the other table and sat down with CJ and Manda.
" I’ll talk to you later " I said walking over to Gabby. I sat behind her as she leaned into me with CJ on her lap as she helped him eat.
" Yummy dada " CJ said licking his fingers. I just smiled. He was everything to me.
" How was that conversation ? " Manda asked me. Keeis came and sat down next to her.
" It was chill. She was just asking how everything was and shit. She seems sincere if you ask me " I said moving Gabby’s hair behind her ear.
" I bet " Manda said rolling her eyes.
" Babe can you just try like get over it already " Keeis told her " Y’all were friends for mad long. You don’t throw years of friendship away over a fight. Let it go. Deep down I know you miss her. Neither of you are fooling anybody " He said shaking his head.
" Mama I want juice " CJ said to Gabby and she handed him his sippy cup.
" It’s funny how she’s here and all of a sudden everybody wants to feel sorry for her " Manda yelled getting up " You messed up this friendship not me not Gabby " She yelled in Autumns direction " You miss us but you have yet to approach us. You approach our boyfriends you coward " Manda said walking away.
" Babe " Keeis yelled but she kept walking.
" Let me go check on her " Gabby sighed getting up and handing me CJ. She stared at Autumn and I thought she was going to say something but then she looked at me and her son then walked away. Deep down I know she’s the only one that can fix that friendship and she knows it too.
Too much was going on right now. Manda was pissed. She felt like everyone was on Autumn’s side. I just wanted to have a good day without drama. My son is here I don’t need him to be around a negative enviornment. Manda just needs to be mature about the situation and Autumn just needs to speak up cause everyone else is hearing her but us. I refuse to argue with anyone around my son.
I walked outside the park and Manda was sitting on a bench. One thing about her when she was mad you have to wait till she talked first. So we just sat there in silence. Till I started laughing out of nowhere.
" Fuck is so funny " She said side eyeing me.
" How angry you are " I laughed.
" Fuck you Gabby " She laughed " It took everything in me not to go and slap the shit out of her " She said shaking her head.
" Keeis dick anger management classes must be working " I laughed harder and she pushed me.
" Shut up " She smirked.
" So what are we going to do ? " I said sighing.
" Why can’t she just approach us. I don’t fucking understand. She stopped fucking with us and then everyone defending her is pissing me off " she told me.
" It’s not like you’re the easiest person to talk to look at what just happened " I said rolling my eyes.
" It could been alot worse trust me " She said.
" Ok M killa " I laughed again.
" I hate you bitch " She laughed " I’m suppose to be mad and you joking and shit " She sighed.
" We need to move on man. We were all close. I think its time to put this in the past and take things slow " I said talking to her serious now.
" Ok but we not approaching her first I don’t give a fuck " She said taking a deep breathe.
" deal " I said.
" I guess we should go back and I know Keeis is mad with his bitch ass " She said laughing. We got up and walked back everyone was watching us as we got closer to them. Keeis was grilling the shit out of Manda " If looks could kill " She said laughing loud.
" You stupid bitch " I laughed. I went over and sat on Chris lap.
" You good ? " He asked me.
" Yeah " I said kissing him. We looked over at Manda and Keeis. They were cool, she was making him laugh. Autumn was just talking to Ty. Now Laila and Mijo were over there in the corner arguing. All of us looked at them as they got louder and louder.
" I need fucking space. I’m trying to tell you how I feel and it’s like you not fucking listening " Mijo yelled.
" You need space why ? " She yelled back at him.
" I feel suffococated " He said more calmer.
" Fuck is that suppose to mean " Laila yelled louder.
" I need space for a little while. Lower your voice " He told her.
" No, Fuck You Mijo fuck this relationship and fuck this " She yelled throwing the engagement ring at him and running off. Nyeka ran after her. We were all in shock as Mijo picked up a garbage can and threw it. Shit went way too far. My son and kiara started crying. Since they got woken up.
" Babe lets take them to our house " I told Chris.
" Our house ? " he smirked.
" Babe " I smiled a little.
" Just take the car so I can look after my bro. I’ll take a cab home " He told me and I nodded my head because I knew Mijo needed him.
" Manda tell Laila I’m taking Kiara " I said to her.
" alright " she said walking off.
" Behave " I yelled after and she mouthed ok to me.
Nyeka and I were slaving away in my kitchen. Today we were having our dinner party. Mijo told me he texted Chris about it. None of us have heard from either of them for like 4 days. I hope everythings ok. Hopefully they show up. I guess she’s just been busy with work and Chris told Mijo he was sick. Tonights menu consisted of mac and cheese, chicken, collard greens, lasgana, rice, salad and chocolate cake for dessert. I’ve been dealing with so much shit. Mijo has been kind of distant with me and I don’t know if it’s because of the wedding or something else. I just hope he still wants this. I love him more than anything. He means so much to me. I tried talking to him but all he says is nothing is wrong and tries to changed the subject all the time. It’s annoying like why can’t he just communicate with me. I don’t want nobody to know about our problems either. We’re suppose to be this perfect couple I don’t need people judging us. I know if I continued to hold things in I’m going to break down.
Mijo had took our daughter to the park since he didn’t want to be in the house. They were at the park for like 4 hours till he finally came back in the house. He went straight to the bathroom to get our daughter ready for dinner. I didn’t have time to deal with his attitude especially when I didn’t know why he was acting like this. Keeis, Manda, Nino and Mama J came around 6 o clock. Mama J told us Chris was coming so we were just waiting on him and hopefully Gabby would come to. We were all just sitting around hungry as fuck. When we heard car pull into the driveway. Mijo opened the door and there stood, Gabby, Chris and CJ. Gabby and Chris were holding hands and we were all shocked.
" Seriously ? " Manda yelled.
" You guys are back together ? " Nyeka squealed. Gabby was just smiling from ear to ear.
" Tell us you fuckers " I laughed. I watched Chris lean down and kiss Gabby on the lips.
" That explains why we haven’t heard from you bitch " Manda laughed.
" Well we had some buisness to handle " Chris smirked.
" Niggas was sexing for 4 days straight " Keeis laughed.
" Bitch you could of called me " Manda said to Gabby.
" Sorry baby " Gabby giggled.
" Alright Chris I’m happy for y’all but niggas is hungry " Mijo laughed.
Mijo didn’t even help me serve the food. This is his house too. Me and him need to have a serious talk. He didn’t even sit next to me at dinner. I don’t know what the fuck his problem is but if he loves me he needs to communicate his feelings. I knew everything was too perfect. Everybody else had problems and we didn’t. I guess it’s our turn now.
We all finished eating and the guys cleaned up while us girls were in the living room. Kiara and CJ were knocked out so we put them upstairs. We opened up some wine and just kicked back for a couple of hours.
" I’m hype to see Ty tomorrow man " Nino said.
" Where he staying at ? " Chris asked him.
" He staying with me and Nyeka since we got room and there ain’t no beef " Nino said shaking his head.
" He could of stood here " I said.
" Nah we don’t got room " Mijo said with a attitude. Gabby looked at us and I could tell she thought something was up. I don’t even know whats up. He’s pushing me away and it sucks.
Dinner was cool everybody was chilling and shit. Niggas left at like 9. I was happy my bro got his girl back. They meant to be and I know they see that. I had Laila to deal with though. I been distancing myself from her because I need space. I feel suffocated. I’m always with her and I never have time for myself. Maybe I’m going about it the wrong way but I don’t want to tell her and hurt her feelings. I love her, I really do. Sometimes I feel like everything is moving so fast and I barely have time to breathe. For the past two days I been sleeping in the guest room because I need to think. I know she’s stressing. Me snapping on her from time to time isn’t helping either.
I was just laying around watching the basketball game in the living room while Laila was in the shower. She was dropping hints for me to join her but I wasn’t in the mood. She walked in the room in her robe and stood in front of the t.v.
" Can you move ? " I asked her.
" What’s wrong with you ? " She asked me.
" Nothing " I said simply and she sucked her teeth.
" Your lying " She said. I didn’t say anything though " Why can’t you just talking to me ? what did I do ? " she said sadly like she was about to cry, fuck
" Nothings wrong just let it go " I said annoyed.
" Why are you acting like this ? " She asked. I felt myself getting annoyed.
" Can you shut up already ? damn " I snapped. She started crying and got up to leave the room. I felt bad. But don’t keep asking me shit. We’ll talk when I feel like it. I went upstairs and grabbed a bag. I need space. I texted Chris and asked him if I could stay at his place since I had the key. He said it was cool and that he was staying at Gabby’s tonight. I kind of figured that he would be. Laila watched me closely.
" Why are you doing this ?" She sobbed.
" I need space. You’re suffocating me " I said clenching my jaw.
" Space ? what about your daughter " She said angrily.
" I’ll pick her up tomorrow " I said walking towards the door. She picked up a book and threw it at me it hit me in the back of the head.
" I don’t deserve this shit I did nothing to you " she yelled. I was pissed it took everything in me not to throw something back at this bitch.
" You crossed the fucking line " I yelled pissed causing her to jump. I heard her yell " fuck you Mijo " yeah yeah whatever and with that I was out the door.
Me and Manda were in the shower. I was leaning against the wall as she rubbed the soap all over me and washed it off. She was so beautiful. When all the soap was off she got on her knees and put my dick in her mouth. She slurped, sucked and licked. Over and over again until I came in her mouth.
" Yum " She smirked standing back up. I grabbed her face and started kissing her passionately. I lifted her up never stopping the kiss. She wrapped her legs around me as my dick slid into her. She moaned against my mouth as my hands tangled into her hair. I went slow and deep as I grinded my hips into her. She was so wet. I started kissing on her neck leaving hickeys everywhere. Her moans turned into screams since I picked up the pace. " Don’t stop baby " She said as she reached her climax. I kept going faster and faster till I finally came inside her.
" I love you " I said kissing her softly.
" I love you too " She blushed.
We got out the shower and dried ourselves. We laid in the bed naked. I rolled two blunts one for her and one for me.
" We should go out on a date tomorrow night. If you want " I told her. I want to show her how special she is by taking her somewhere fancy. We’ve been on like 3 dates but nothing fancy. I want to go all out for her you know. She deserves it. She’s my ride or die.
" Really ? That’s so sweet " She said kissing me.
" Yeah so dress fancy " I said bringing the blunt to my lips. While my other hand rested on her thigh.
Gabby was on the phone with Laila I guess something happened with her and my brother which is fucking weird. They were like the perfect couple. Gabby was sitting in between my legs and I could her Laila crying histerically. Mijo was at my house. One thing about him if he was pissed you had to give him time. I’ll find out his side of the story tomorrow. I was getting bored and shit. They were on the phone for like a hour. Gabby was trying to console her and shit. I started kissing on her neck. I could see her biting on her lip. So I made my way down to her clit since she was only in her booty shorts. I started rubbing it in a circular motion. I could see her mouth pop open and her breathing become harder.
" Laila I’ma going see you tomorrow ok try and get some rest " She said into the phone as she bit down on her lip again " ok love you bye " She said hanging up " shit " she moaned throwing her head back.
" I don’t like being bored baby " I said kissing the corner of her mouth " So I though I’d play with you " I said smirking. I felt her legs tense up.
" Fuck mmmmm baby " She moaned as she caught an orgasm " I hate you " she giggled.
" Taste yourself " I told her holding up my two fingers to her mouth " suck my fingers " She opened her mouth and suck slow " Love you " I laughed.
" Bitch " She said shaking her head.
" So what she say ? " I sighed.
" He’s been acting weird basically and before he left he said that he was feeling suffocated " Gabby shrugged.
" Maybe he just feels like things are moving too fast for them " I told her.
" Maybe but there’s a way to communicate. He doesn’t have to ignore her " Gabby said rolling her eyes. My phone started vibrating. It was Mijo. Gabby started giggling.
" Yo " I said picking up. He was yelling into the phone saying all types of shit. He told me she threw a book at him and he had a knot on the back of his head. He was beyond pissed " Nigga she threw a book at you " I said laughing. He started cursing me out. I watched Gabby as she got on her knees in front of me. She pulled my dick out of my boxers and put my whole dick in her mouth. Shit. She began jerking it as she licked the tip. I wasn’t even listening to my brother but he was loud as fuck. I put one of my hands in Gabby’s hair " Damn " I said but Mijo wasn’t even paying attention.
" Yo I’ma stop by my place tomorrow don’t fuck up my shit. We will talk then put some ice on the back of your head nigga " I said with that we hung up. Gabby continued sucking my dick like a pro. No gagging just sucking all of me. My breathing started picking up and I felt myself release in her mouth. She swallowed every last drop and placed my dick back in my boxers. I sat there panting trying to catch my breath.
" You were saying ? " She said giggling. I threw my phone to the side and threw her down on the bed and started tickling her.
" You think you cute " I said. She was laughing mad hard.
" Oh my fucking god stop " She said. I stopped and she crawled back and laid in between my legs.
" That was sexy though I give you that " I said kissing her cheek.
" Laila threw a book at Mijo ? " she asked me.
" Yeah he’s beyond pissed. He’s livid " I said shaking my head.
" I guess we’ll deal with that shit tomorrow " She said rolling her eyes causing me to laugh.
" I love you ma " I told her.
" I love you too zaddy " She smiled and kissed me.
The next morning I woke up around 2. Gabby woke up early to drop CJ off at her moms house since she wanted him to stay the night. I went downstairs after I showered and got dressed. I walked into the kitchen and Laila, Nyeka and Manda were there with Gabby sitting in the living room.
" Morning sleepy head " Gabby said getting up and walking to me. She was wearing this tight brown maxi dress. Looking fucking sexy.
" Good afternoon " I smiled and bent down to kiss her " waddup y’all " I said.
" Hey " They all said at the same time.
" Where’s my niece ? " I asked Laila.
" With her father " she sighed.
" Cool " I said walking into the kitchen with Gabby. She tripped me and started laughing. So i pushed her playfully.
" You want me to make you a sandwhich or something ? " she asked me.
" Nah I’ll do it " I said walking to the refrigerator. I felt her eyes on me as I took the stuff out " what ? " I said licking my lips.
" You just so sexy " She said seductively causing me to laugh.
" I know " I said. She rolled her eyes.
" Asshole " She smiled.
" So what’s going on in there ? " I asked as I made my sandwhich.
" I have a headache from just listening to her but I have to be there for her. She was always there for me you know " Gabby sighed.
" I feel you " I said biting into my sandwhich.
" So what you about to do ? " She asked me.
" Go to my crib, get some clothes, talk to my bro and come back here to you baby " I said kissing her cheek.
" Okay " She smiled.
I drove down to my house and went straight upstairs. Kiara was knocked on Mijo’s chest and Mijo was just laying there looking up at the ceiling.
" Finally " He said.
" So wassup ? " I said sitting down " Your baby moms at my girl crib spilling her heart out and shit " I told him " What happened when you went to get Kiara ? " I asked him.
" Nothing I just went in and out the house " He said shrugging.
" So ? What the fuck happened between y’all " I asked.
" I feel smuthered bro " He said getting straight to the point " I can’t take a piss without her asking me where I was at. I go to the store and she’s calling me every 5 minutes. It’s fucking annoying. Why can’t she just let me breathe. I love her I’m not going anywhere but I need space for now. Yesterday she threw that book at me and it took everything in me not to flip out on her son. You know how I get I black the fuck out. This is our first big fight and she can’t handle it. She was never so clingy in the beginning. She trying to rush the wedding and shit. Why can’t she just go with the flow. I just don’t understand her " He sighed. I kind of understood where he was coming from.
" But walking out isn’t helping the situation. You got a good girl there. The most y’all can do is communicate with eachother " I told him.
" I guess " He said staring at the ceiling " It’s crazy cause you usually asking me for advice " he said laughing.
" word " I laughed with him " You have to think about your daughter too remember that " I told him. " So you don’t want to leave her right ? " I asked him.
" Nah but that book shit " He said clenching his jaw and I started cracking up " It’s not funny you bitch " He said throwing a pillow at me.
" Ahh man. Let me pack some clothes " I said getting up.
" You not staying ? " he asked me.
" Nigga you gay and No I’m going back to my wifey something you need to do " I smirked.
" Bitch ass nigga " He laughed " Oh and don’t forget Ty coming tonight. We suppose to chill with him tomorrow " He said and I nodded my head.
I was with the girls all day trying to calm Laila down. When they finally left I was relieved. Manda brought up Ty and Autumn coming tomorrow. Meanwhile I didn’t really care I had a son to take care of. If she was cordial then I would be too. Manda on the other hand didn’t want to be put in the situation at all unless I was there. I couldn’t blame her though. I was just waiting for Chris to come back. I loved his company and I loved how good things were going between us. He’s here practically every night. I heard his car in the driveway and got happy. He opened the door and walked in. He threw himself on the couch and put his head on my lap.
" I missed you " I smiled.
" Did you now ? " He said smiling up at me " Gimmie a kiss " He told me and I bent down to kiss him.
" I ordered you pizza " I said and I watched him jump up and run to the kitchen like he’s never ate before.
" Thanks baby " He said taking a big ass bite.
" You so greedy " I laughed leaning on the counter.
" You ready to see Autumn " He asked me.
" It is what it is " I said rolling my eyes.
" Promise me you won’t start no shit Gabby " He said with a serious face.
Man L.A was so boring without my homies here. Everything’s changed man. It’s been like 3 months since they left and shit. They keep telling me to come out there for a week and chill but the thing is I would but I don’t wanna leave Autumn here by herself. She could come with me though but that’s like drama waiting to happen. She speaks to Nyeka and Laila from time to time. But the thing is I can tell she wants her friendship with Gabby and Manda back again.
I was just kicking back and relaxing on the couch watching a movie. Autumn had just got home from work and started cooking and shit. I wanted to bring up the topic of her coming with me to Virginia in 3 days. I got up and walked into the kitchen and watched her. Everything about her was so beautiful sometimes I felt like I didn’t deserve her. She made me happy.
” What ? ” she laughed snapping me out of my thoughts.
” I love you ” I smirked then hugged her from behind.
” I love you too babe ” She giggled as I kissed her neck.
” So I spoke to Chris and them ” I told her.
” and ? ” She asked me.
” They want me to go to V.A for a week ” I said.
” So go babe I know you miss them ” She smiled.
” I want you to come with me ” I said watching her face.
” Im not sure that’s a good idea ” She sighed.
” Why not ? ” I asked.
” Gabby and Manda hate me that’s why ” She said stirring the pasta sauce.
” No they don’t come on I’m pretty sure things between you and Gabby will be fine once y’all talk. It’s Manda that might be an issue but Nyeka and Laila talk to you. Don’t you wanna see them ? ” I asked
” I guess ” she said looking at me.
” Go for me please ? ” I said leaving a trail of kisses on her neck. She always liked that shit.
” MMMM okay baby ” She moaned.
” Good girl ” I smirked.
I’m going to need to pray for us in V.A cause I don’t know what the fuck is going to happen.
Yesterday morning and night was everything I thought it would be. I woke up to this beautiful girl in my arms. She was finally mines again. Sex was even better than I remembered. I had to text my mom and tell her we’ll pick up our son today. She was fine with it of course she loved spending time with him. I was watching Gabby sleep and she had a smile on her face. It was cute. My phone buzzed and it was Ty telling me him and Autumn will be in V.A Friday. Today was Tuesday and I knew I had to tell Gabby but that was that last thing on my kind right now. I got out of bed and decided to cook Gabby some breakfast she deserves it. When I went back into the room to wake her she was coming out the bathroom.
” Morning beautiful ” I smiled leaning against the doorway of my room. She had on one of my t shirts.
” Morning baby ” She smiled walking over to me. I leaned down and kissed her passionately.
” I made you breakfast ” I said cheesing.
” Really ? ” I nodded my head and grabbed her hand as we walked to the kitchen ” aww thank you ” She blushed as she sat down. I made her an omelette with bacon and cheese. Nothing to big but I knew she would appreciate it. After we finished eating we got dressed so we could go get our son and take him to the Aquarium . It was Gabbys idea. I walked into my moms house holding Gabby’s hand.
” Ma, where you at ? ” I yelled.
” In the kitchen like always sweetie ” She yelled back. Me and Gabby walked into the Kitchen. My mom turned around with her eyes wide.
” Are you guys back together ? ” My mom asked but she already knew the answer.
” Yup but don’t tell no one we want it to be a surprise ” Gabby smiled.
" Well it’s about time " My mom said. I just laughed.
” Where’s CJ ? ” I asked her and when I looked down he was right next to me.
” Dada ” he smiled hugging my leg.
” Hey baby ” Gabby said to him.
” Mommy !!! ” he said excitedly. Gabby picked him up and kissed him all over his face and he started to giggle loudly.
” First family picture lets go ” my mom said to us. I put my arm around Gabbys waist.
” Look at Grandma ” I told Chris jr. And he put his little arms around Gabbys neck and we posed while my mom took multiple picture with her Nikon camera.
” I have to develop these ASAP ” My mom smiled.
” Make extra copies ” Gabby told her and she said ok.
We left my moms house and headed to the Aquarium . CJ was so excited. We got there and it was OD fun. It was nice to be a family and do shit together with no arguments. I missed being with Gabby and just laughing. Our son was everything to us. I can see that she’s changed and I just know things will be different this time around. It has to work I’m going to make it work. I love her.
" Well that was fun " Gabby said as we got in the car. CJ was knocked out with his stuffed dolphin in his car seat.
" It was " I said kissing her hand while driving.
" We should do stuff like this twice a week " She smiled.
" That’s cool with me and then everyday in between we can fuck " I smirk.
" You so nasty " She blushed.
" You love it though " I laughed.
" I do love it especially when it’s rough " She winked. I stared at her and licked my lips. If our son wasn’t in this car I’d make her ride this dick.
" I gotta tell you something " I said looking at the road.
" What is it ? " She asked.
" Ty coming friday " I said glancing at her.
" By himself or with Autumn " She asked looking at me.
" With his fiance " I said pulling into Gabby’s driveway.
" Oh well that’s nice I guess " She said simply.
" Promise me you’ll be cival babe. No drama. Be grown about the situation and just talk " I said clenching my Jaw. I don’t need no bullshit. I haven’t seen my homie in a long time. I just want him to have a good time. Gabby needs to understand that.
" I’ll try but as for Manda I can’t promise you anything " She told me. I already knew Keeis was going to handle that because it was a bigger situation. I grabbed CJ out his car seat and we went in the house. She wanted me to stay over and I agreed.
I was chilling with Nyeka and Laila at my house. We were just talking about random shit and eating. Of course they wanted to bring up Autumn. I can’t go a day without here that bitch name. Gabby already know what it is and now they do to. I’m ready to move on but it’s going to be hard. We actually fought and shit got way too serious between us. Laila told me she was coming with Ty in three days. Well isn’t that great. She better keep it cute or our problems will be worse. She better not try to come here like shit is cool until me her and Gabby actually sit down and talk. That’s if she’s woman enough to do that.
" I’m thinking about having a little dinner on thursday " Laila said.
" That would be cool. Have you heard from Gabby ? " I asked her.
" No, I tried calling her but I got her voicemail " Laila said.
" Yeah me too. I haven’t heard from her since Monday morning " Nyeka said.
" That’s weird. I hope she’s alright " I said.
" She’s probably busy " Laila said. I guess since she has been working on her new store a lot I’m sure I’ll here from her soon.
" So you ready to see Autumn " Nyeka laughed.
" I don’t really care " I shrugged.
" Are we going to be mature " Laila said side eyeing me.
" It is what it is as long as she don’t start no shit I’ll be fine " I said rolling my eyes.
" Anyways back to this dinner I shall help you cook " Nyeka told Laila.
" I wonder when Gabby and Chris are going to make up " Laila sighed.
" I don’t know. They’re both playing games to be honest " I said shaking my head.
" We all want them together hopefully it happens soon. Especially since they have a son " Nyeka said which was true.
I was sleeping cause I didn’t get home till late last night. I groaned and looked at the clock it said 10:30am. What the fuck ? who the fuck is banging on my door like the fucking police. I get up and I’m just in my boxers. So I throw on a shirt and some sweats. I open the door and there’s Gabby looking pissed off. Oh here the fuck we go. I stare at her angrily because she woke me up out of my got damn sleep.
" What the fuck is wrong with you ? " I ask her.
" I’ve been out here for 20 minutes nigga where the fuck is my son ? " She yells. Fuck I was suppose to pick him up from my mom at 8. I leave Gabby at the door and check my phone. I have a text from my mom. It says " I know you’re still sleep just come get him when you’re ready " I take a deep sigh.
" He’s still with my mom calm the fuck down. I just woke up " I say turning to her.
" You can’t do nothing right. What the fuck " She says rudely.
" Shut the fuck up " I yell. She was pissing me off.
We had a going back and fourth match for like 30 minutes. She was telling me I ain’t shit and I never will be. I kept telling her to shut the fuck up. It was quite entertaining how mad she was. Everytime I would laugh she would push me. I knew this shit was going to happen soon. She’s fed up with my bullshit. Can I blame her ? no.
" You done ? " I said interupting her. But she kept going and going and going.
" I hate you so much. I swear to god " She screamed.
" Lies " I laughed.
" I want nothing to do with you " She yelled again.
" You’re lying " I laughed harder.
" I never ever want to be with you again " She said through her teeth.
" How many lies you plan on telling in the next 20 minutes ? " I smirked. I stepped closer to her closing the space between us " Look me in the eye and say all that shit " I said with my lips inches away from hers.
He was testing me. So far he was winning I wasn’t meaning any of this shit I just said. He just gets me so fucking angry. I told him to do one simple thing and he didn’t do it. Fucking bitch ass nigga. He was so close to me and I just wanted to fuck him honestly. The way our bodies were so close to eachother. I missed it. Take me Chris just take me.
" You know you missed this fucking dick Gabby ? Thats why you’re so upset with me" He says smirking and changing the subject causing me to gulp hard. I’m suppose to be mad at him.
" Fuck You nigga " I yell.
" Fuck me ? You wanna fuck me ? " He whispers into my ear.
" No, well yes. Why are you doing this " I ask him.
" Truth is Gabby. I know you wanna fuck me I can see it in your eyes when look at me and honestly I want to fuck you too. I miss being deep inside that pussy " He says to me seductively and I feel myself getting wet by the minute. " Tell me you want me to fuck you " he says pushing my body with his against the wall.
" No " I say but instantly regret it. I watch as he clenches his jaw.
" You wanna be difficult baby " He said smashing his lips onto mines. I need it I want it. Our tongues explore each others mouths as his hands explore my body. The kiss is rough but passionate and my body wants all of him. I’ve been wanting this ever since I saw him.
" Fuck me Chris. Fuck me " I moan against his lips. With one swift move he lifts me up and carries me to his bedroom. Our kisses never stopping.
He sits on the bed with me on top of him. He stops and we stare into each others eyes.
" Strip for me " he tells me as he pulls off his shirt. I get distracted " Now " he says to me. I get up and I unbutton my shirt slowly as he watches me. I pull off the shirt and reveal my red laced bra. I then get to my shorts and with one swift move I’m in my thong and bra. I unhook my bra and he licks his lips causing me to smirk at him. I take off my thong and toss it to the side. He stands up and stares at me. I button pull down his sweat pants and watch as they drop to the floor leaving him in nothing but his boxers. I drop to my knees and pull his boxers down. I stare at his stiff hard dick and force all of him in my mouth.
" Fuck " he groans as I suck the tip, jerk him off and deep throat his dick over and over again. I lick up and down his shaft as his breathing picks up. He has his hands tangled in my hair. I start to move faster and I feel his dick twitch in my mouth and I swallow every last drop. I get back to my feet and watch him lay on the bed " Ride my face " he says licking his lips. Without hesitation I climb slowly on top of him and sit on his face. His tongue meets my clit as I begin riding his face in a circular motion. It feels so good and I honestly missed this. Nobody makes my body feel the way he does. Shit is so amazing. I feel his two long fingers enter me going in and out. My moans are loud as I feel myself about to cum. My legs start to shake and I slow down. I climb off his face and I sit on his stomach. I look back and his dick is hard " Ride that shit, show me you missed it Gabby " He says aggressively. I lift myself up and slowly go down onto his dick. Feeling all of him every inch. I moan loudly as he groans. I start off slow " faster " he says slapping my ass. I circle my hips then bounce up and down on his dick fast. My moans are so loud. He feels so good deep inside me. He lifts himself up so that we’re face to face and I continue to ride his as I wrap my arms around his neck " Fuck I missed you so much " he tells me before our lips crash together. Our tongues explore each others mouths as I ride and grind all over him. I feel his dick twitch inside me as he release. I bite his bottom lip as he grips my ass.
" All fours " he tells me as I slowly get off of him. " I’m going to fuck you do hard you’re going to scream " He tells me as I get in the doggy style position. Next thing I know he slams his dick into me with so much aggression. I scream out in pleasure as he pounds into me over and over.
" Harder " I moan and he picks up the speed. He grabs my hair and yank it as I throw my ass back. My moans turn in to screams.
" Tell me who’s pussy is this " He says slapping my ass hard.
" it’s yours it’s always been yours " I yell. We both cum at the same time.
" You not tired are you ? " He says licking his lips and I shake my head no. " Let me get it from the side " He smirks. I turn on my side as he goes behind me placing one of his hands around my neck. He slides his dick into me and I moan loudly " You’re so tight " He groans. He goes slow but he makes deep strokes. " I love you " He whispers into my ear and I never thought he would say it ever again.
" I love you too " I say back. He continues to go slow and deep until I tell him to go faster. His hand choking me slightly and it feels so good. I moan loudly and I feel myself wanting to release.
" Wait for me baby " He groans in my ear. His dick twitches inside me and I can’t hold it but instantly we release at the same time. He keeps his dick inside me as he holds me close. " You can never stay mad at me " He laughs.
" Neither can you " I giggle.
" Man whatever " He says pulling out of me.
" Don’t front " I smile to myself.
" You’re beautiful and I’m happy you still have this " he says kissing my ear where his initial is.
" I want to be with you " I tell him.
" You think we ready for that ? " He asks me kissing my neck.
" Yes " I turn and look into his eyes " I can’t see myself with nobody but you " I sigh.
" I’ve never stopped loving you even through the bullshit gabby " He says.
" So be with me. Let’s be the family put son deserves " I say touching his face. He licks his lips and stares into my eyes like he’s trying to read my thoughts.
" Will you be my girlfriend again Gabby " He smiles his goofy smile.
I was chilling with Laila at her house and we were discussing the Autumn situation. Laila feels that we should all talk to her but it’s not up to me. At the end of the day I don’t have a problem with her and neither does Laila. Manda is the main person with an issue and they actually fought. In my opinion Gabby is the only one that can get through to Manda if she wants shit to go back to normal. Gabby tried to be Autumns friend again before after everything went down between her and Ty but I guess Autumn was still holding that grudge. Manda took Gabby’s side and I respect her for that. So basically we need to see how Gabby feels about this and hopefully she’ll be okay with it.
It’s been a couple of days since Lailas party. Chris and Gabby are still playing games with eachother and Chris is honestly pissing me off. I don’t know why he’s bringing random girls around when he has a fucking son he should be taking care of. If he loves Gabby why not just make shit work out. This whole situation is dumb and it makes shit awkward for everyone else. We were all over there drama because everytime we hang out it’s Chris starting shit with Gabby it’s ridiculous it’s like he doesn’t care about her feelings.
Me and Laila were just sitting back watching TV. Nino, Chris and Mijo had just came back from playing basketball. Laila had wedding books all over the place cause she started planning her wedding 3 months ago.
" What up ugly " Chris said to me.
" Hi bitch " I said rolling my eyes.
" Somebodies mad " He laughed.
" Yeah I am and I’m mad at you to be honest " I shrugged.
" Why me ? the fuck I do to you ? " He said confused.
" It’s about how you treat Gabby " I said with an attitude.
" Fuck out of here " He snapped.
" Yo babe chill out that situation has nothing to do with you " Nino said to me.
" She loves him and he’s playing games with her. Always arguing with her for no reason. Like what the fuck. She doesn’t deserve that shit " I yelled.
" She has a point Chris " Laila said agreeing with me.
" What happens between me and Gabby is between me and her. Mind y’all buisness " He said rudely and leaving.
" They gonna be fine he’s just being stubborn " Mijo said.
" Whatever I’m just looking out for my friend " I sighed.
Everybody needs to honestly leave me the fuck alone. I know what the fuck I’m doing and I don’t need to be nagged by everybody. Yeah I been starting shit with her but I’m not doing it to push her away. Maybe it’ll back fire on me maybe it won’t but let whatever is happening between me and my girl be between us. Shit, did I just say my girl ? it would be nice to call her that again. She’s perfect for me regardless of everything we’ve been through. Am I able to trust her with my heart again ? That’s the only thing I’m afraid of. Maybe I should just be positive for once and see how things go. We should honestly just talk shit out or maybe fuck because I want to give her this dick bad. Deep down I know she wants it too.
I was driving back to my moms house to chill with my son since Gabby was dropping him off. My mom wanted him to stay the night then I’ll pick him up in the morning. I made my way over there and there was traffic because of some parade that was going on. I finally got there and my mom was in the kitchen cooking. Gabby didn’t get there yet. I feel like I’m making her hate me and that’s the last thing I want. Everyone’s right I need to stop this and just let my feelings take over.
" Hey momma " I said hugging her.
" Hi sweetie " She smiled hugging me back " Gabby should be here in like 5 minutes " She told me and I nodded my head.
" Ma, What do you think is going to happen between me and Gabby " I ask her.
" Well if you keep acting the way you do there will be no you and her. She told me she doesn’t know what to do " she said.
" I don’t know what I’m doing anymore. I guess I just wanted her to feel how I felt when she left me " I said.
" And you’re only hurting yourself. I can see Gabby wants to be with you. That look in her eyes when she sees you. I remember when I first met her she still has that same look. Just give her a chance and stop pushing her away. You won’t know till you try " My mom was right. I need to get my shit together because deep down I want this. I want her. I want a family. I was sitting down in the living eating a sandwhich when Gabby walks in holding CJ’s hand.
" DADA !!! " CJ yells and I instantly smile as he wobbles over to me.
" Wassup mini me " I say lifting him up and kissing him on the cheek. Gabby doesn’t even say anything to me, she just walks straight into the kitchen to talk to my mother so I follow her rude ass. I guess I deserve it.
" Hey mama J " She says kissing my mother on the cheek.
" Hey hun " My mom smiles.
" NANA " CJ says excitedly.
" How’s my grand baby " My mom says taking him from my arms.
" You brought his stuff ? " I asked Gabby.
" Yup it’s in the car " She says.
" Give me your keys I’ll go get it " I tell her.
" No that’s fine I’ll get myself " She says walking past me. I follow her again " You don’t have to follow me " She says rudely.
" I know but I like when you’re mad it’s cute " I say grabbing the bags from her hand.
" You’re annoying " She says rolling her eyes.
" I’m sorry " I sigh.
" For what ? " She asks shocked.
" For being a dick " I tell her.
" OH " She says looking down at her nails.
" Oh ? " I laugh.
" I don’t know what to say Chris " She sighs.
" You forgive me ? " I smile.
" I don’t know. How long till you go right back to being an ass again ? " She says.
" Well I can’t answer that " I tell her.
" I can try to forgive you I guess " She smirks.
" Good girl " I wink " You staying for dinner ? " I ask.
" No, I can’t I promised Manda I’d hang out with her like old times " She sighs.
" oh okay. I guess I’ll see you tomorrow then " I say opening my arms. She moves foward slowly until I grab her causing her to laugh. We hug and She lets go.
" Bye " She smiles as she get in her car.
I want shit to work out so bad but he gets me so mad. I wish I knew what he was thinking. One minute he’s that sweet cute guy I met and the next he’s an absolute jerk. I just want things to go back to the way they were. I love him and there’s no doubt in my mind about that. I want him to be with me and only me. Fuck these other girls. Hopefully he realizes I’ve changed sooner or later because I don’t know how much more I can take. It’s draining emotionally the way he acts sometimes.
I had so much shit on my mind but I wasn’t going to let it ruin my evening. Nyeka and Laila insisted I talk to Manda since Autumn has been hitting them up. I have my own issues with Autumn but Manda just doesn’t like her. We can try to rekindle our friendship but it’s not up to me. I don’t make decisions for Manda. Manda is stubborn and she knows it. So if Autumn is sitting here telling Laila she wants to be friends again with us I don’t even know. All three of us use to be so close regardless of everything but shit changed. She changed, not me and not Manda.
I made my way to Manda’s house to just chill and kick back. We were going to drink wine and I was going to throw in the Autumn situation while she was feeling nice. I honestly didn’t know how she was going to take it but everyone kept saying she’ll probably take it better if it comes from me. Manda is stubborn as shit and she always has been. I got to Manda’s house and sat down in the living room. While she brought the pizza, buffalo wings and wine to where I was.
" What took you so long ? " She asked me sitting down.
" I was talking to Chris " I sighed.
" Talking or arguing ? " She said raising her eyebrow.
" Talking. He apologized for being a dick " I told her.
" Wow " was all she said.
" How are you and Keeis " I asked her.
" We’re actually good " She smiled.
" Stop blushing bitch " I laughed.
" I can’t help it he makes me so happy " She said sipping her wine.
" You guys are cute, Y’all just alike in a way " I smiled.
" Yeah he means so much to me " She sighed.
" I need to talk to you about something and I don’t know how you’re going to take it " I said to her.
" What is it ? Just say it " She told me.
" Autumn has been hitting up Laila and Laila said that she wants to be friends us again " I said taking a big ass gulp of my wine.
" Fuck out of here " She snapped. " That bitch played both of us and now she wants to be our friend because she don’t got nobody. NO. I’m not with it. She stopping talking to you for no reason and started acting funny with me for what ? " She said rolling her eyes.
" My thing is we were all so close " I said to her.
" How she hitting up Laila though. If she wants to be our friend she would come to us and try to talk to us. Instead of sending messages like a pussy " Manda said angrily.
" I agree " I shrugged because Manda did have a point. Don’t send messages like we in third grade.
" I don’t have the time for her bullshit. All she wants is for people to feel sorry for her. She never takes the situation head on " Manda said eating.
" Maybe she’s scared " I said.
" No Gabby don’t you dare feel sorry for her. You apologized for what you did and she shitted on you. Nah fuck that " Manda said.
" Ok I’m down with whatever you want to do " I told her.
" When she’s woman enough to approach us then maybe till then can we just have fun " She sighed.
All the girls were getting ready at my house since it was my birthday. Mama J was baby sitting tonight for me and Gabby. I was ready to have fun with the crew just like old times. Autumn had texted me happy birthday which was shocking and I honestly never expected that. I feel bad for her she’s living with Ty whos shes engaged to but has no friends to share her excitement with. Her, Manda and Gabby were so close hopefully I can get them all to talk again but knowing Mandas stubborn ass she’s going to be difficult. Gabby I’m unsure about. Today was about me and I was going to push that to the back of my mind for now. Tonight I wanted to live young, wild and free. Just forget about all my responsibilties and drink. I deserved this night and so did everyone else.
Gabby had dyed her hair blonde and she looked sexy with it in her hot pink tight short dress that was cut out on the sides. Manda hand on a mini skirt with a corset, Neyeka had on leggings and a button up shirt that was tied at the bottom and I had on a long sleeve purple dress that dipped low in the back. Me and my girls were looking sexy AF. We made our way into the club and all eyes were on us. We didn’t go to the boys first though. We headed straight to the bar.
" SHOTS !!!! " Gabby yelled over the music.
" Four shots of patron please and keep them coming " Nyeka yelled to the bartender.
" Happy Birthday Bitch. We love you " Manda yelled. We clinked our glasses together and surrendered to the alcohol. After four shots of patron each we decided to head over to the boys.
" Hey baby " I said hugging Mijo from behind my future husband.
" The love of my life " He laughed " You started drinking without me I see " He smiled down at me.
" Kiss me " I told him and he moved his head down as our lips met.
" I love you " He said against my lips.
" I love you too " I smiled.
Everybody was vibing. Chris wasn’t even at my party yet but Gabby was still having a good time. I know she misses being with him but shit like that takes time. They been through a lot of shit you know. All of a sudden Chris walks in with his arm around some chick and I just knew this was going to be bad. I looked at Gabby who looked at Chris and rolled her eyes. I just hope they don’t start no shit on my day. I watched as some random dude sat next to Gabby and made conversation with her. She was smiling and shit. I was honestly greatful to whoever this nigga was but that’s when I see Jay come out of nowhere. Oh my fucking god. I don’t even want to deal with this situation so I grab Mijo and we just start to dance all over eachother.
Today was honestly a good day so far until I see Chris walk into Laila’s party with that bitch from the mall. He’s doing this shit on purpose I feel it. He’s testing me to see how jealous I get but little does he know two can play that game. I was so happy Jay was in V.A and he always has my back. At first his cousin approached me and said how about we start a little show. That caused me to laugh because it was like he read my mind. Jay came up to me smoothly and from the corner of my eye I see Chris clench his jaw as Jay kisses me on the cheek.
" What’s a beautiful girl like you sitting by yourself ? " Jay whispers into my ear causing me to laugh " I like your new hair by the way baby girl " He says touching it.
" Thanks " I smile. Throughout the night me and Jay hold our conversation but deep down I wish it was Chris that I was talking to but he was busy grinding and kissing all over that hoe. I honestly wanted to run out of here and cry. I don’t understand why he’s doing this. He wants me to fight for him but he’s making it hard by being this immature. Jay is the only reason I haven’t left this party.
" I’ma go to the bathroom " I whisper to Jay in his ear. I get up and I could tell I’m feeling tipsy already. I go into the bathroom and peed. When I come out the stall Chris is standing there with a silly ass smirk on his face.
" Enjoying yourself babe ? " He smirks.
" Actually I am " I smile washing my hands. He moves closer to me.
" You ain’t fooling nobody wanna know why because you already told me you and Jay were just friends ma. So you trying to make me jealous since I brought shawty here but it’s not working baby girl " He laughs. bitch ass nigga.
" I don’t care who you’re here with to be honest nigga " I laugh.
" I think I might take her home tonight. I haven’t gotten any for like three weeks " He tells me and I instantly get annoyed. What the fuck is his problem.
" Ok that’s nice " I say drying my hands.
" Gabby Gabby Gabby " He says " Your hair is nice " He tells me.
" You want to know what’s funny ? " I say staring at him and he cocks his head to one side waiting for me to continue. I move closer to him and grab his dick causing him to jump a little " If I wanted you I could honestly fucking have you so truth is you ain’t fooling nobody " I lean in close as if I’m about to kiss him and his eyes are begging for me to do it but i refuse to kiss him since he’s been all over that trick tonight. I instantly let go of his dick and back away as I walk to the door " You enjoy the rest of your night " I smile and wave as I exit the bathroom.
" Everything ok ? " Laila asks me. I tell her what happened and she starts laughing hard as Chris walks out the bathroom. One thing about him he’s good at hiding his emotions. He sits down and pulls that girl onto his lap as she begins kissing on his neck. I’d be lying if I say that shit didn’t piss me off.
" Y’all both need to stop with the games " Nyeka says coming out of nowhere. I sigh as Mandas drunk ass comes over to us and puts her arm around Laila and I.
" You guys lets dance " She slurs
We start dancing all over eachother and basically give the boys a show. I notice Chris glancing my way a couple of times but the girl pulls his face back to her and they start making out. UGHHHHHHHHHHH. I continue to dance and just allow myself to have fun. I should of known things will be this way. You gotta walk before you can run but hopefully things will get better soon before I explode on him.
Tonight was ok besides Chris and his fuckery. I honestly had fun with my girls just like old times. Even though someone was missing. Jay went back to his hotel and I took a cab home since I’ve been drinking. I just wanted to lay in my bed and rest until later today then pick up my son and spend time with him. I miss him and I know he misses me.
The party was dope and Gabby was real smooth for doing what she did. I was kicking back with the guys at Mijos crib for a little while with shawty. She was outside talking on her phone with somebody and I honestly didn’t give a fuck. She was basically a distraction. I was using her to hide my feelings and I don’t know if this is a good thing or a bad thing.
" Yo nigga when Jay walked through that door I thought you was going to flip the fuck out " Mijo said laughing.
" Nahhhhhh " I slurred " Gabby dumb she told me they were friends she failed at trying to make me jealous " I said shaking my head.
" Y’all playing games man this ain’t high school " Nino laughed.
" It’s all about my son man " I told him.
" Nigga stop lying. You know damn well you still love her. Me and Mijo see through this bullshit " Keeis laughed.
" Whatever " I shrugged.
" Whatever nothing. Y’all need to stop playing and be real with eachother. Y’all only hurting ya selfs man " Mijo said with his preaching ass.
" I can’t let her get off that easy man. She hurt me twice " I say getting in my feelings.
" How do you know things won’t be different. Y’all got a kid now " Keeis said.
" Word, Maybe she wants this just as bad as you want it " Nino said agreeing with Keeis and Mijo. In all honesty I want it all back. The way we were together before the bullshit we made eachother happy but like I said I can’t let her off the hook. I want to fuck with her for a day or two more. Get her pissed off.
" Can we go ? I’m tired " This girl said coming in the room and interupting my thoughts.
" Your ass can take a cab though " Keeis said rudely causing me to laugh.
" Yeah I’ma drive you home " I said getting up.
" I wanna stay with you tonight baby " She smirked. Mijo was pretending that he was coughing and said " hoe " but she didn’t hear him.
" Nah ma I can’t do that " I said patting my pockets for my keys. She was mad but I didn’t care I don’t need extra bullshit on top of what I’m going through with Gabby. I drove her home and she slammed my door hard. I shook my head and just drove home. I got in my house took a shower and just layed down. I had so much shit on my mind but one thing was clear …
I was waiting outside for Chris to come and pick CJ and I up. I had to take his carseat out my car so that we could put it in Chris car for now. I waited for like 5 minutes and it was too hot outside and this nigga was taking forever. CJ was getting cranking and whining so I went back inside. I had on these short shorts and tank top with sandals. CJ had on a tank top and shorts since it was like 100 degrees outside. Ugh at this country weather. About 30 minutes laters theres a knock on the door. I open and there he is looking oh so sexy. SHIT. Hes wearing a tank top and jean shorts with jordans.
" My bad " He says coming in my house and scooping up CJ from the floor and toss him in the air.
" Whatever " I say.
" Somebody has and attitude " He says shaking his head while CJ puts his little arms around his neck.
" And no fucks are given " I say grabbing the baby bag and car.
" Chill out damn " He mumbles but I ignore him as I walk to the car.
" Can you open the door. It’s hot " I say waiting. I catch him staring at my ass. He opens the door and I set up the car seat. I climb in the passenger seat and put my seat belt on as I wait for him to finish putting CJ in the car seat. He closes the door and walks around to the drivers side and gets in. Thank god the AC is on.
" So you gonna stop with the attitude or you plan on being difficult all day because you know you can stay your little ass here and I can spend time with my son. It’s that simple " He says rudely.
" I don’t have an attitude. I was just annoyed that you said be outside in 5 minutes and you had us waiting out there in this heat " I sigh
" And I said my bad right ? " He said starting the car.
" Okay it doesn’t need to be an argument " I say rolling my eyes. I have on sunglasses but I see him side eye me before he’s off down the street.
We go to the mall and I help him buy everything he needs. I want him and CJ to spend time together and it would honestly be nice to sleep in for once lord knows I’m exhausted and I need a little break. Don’t get me wrong I love my son but sometimes I need time for me you know. Chris is carrying CJ throughout the mall and so many girls are staring at him. I can’t help but feel jealous but he’s not mine. He can do what he wants. He bumps into some girl he went to Junior high school with and they start to have a conversation so I just sit down. I over hear them talking.
" Your baby is so cute he looks just like you " She smiles at Chris.
" Yeah I know thanks " He smirks at her.
" So what’s been going on ? " She asks him.
" Nothing finished college just trying to figure out what ima do next " He tells her.
" You look sexier " She tells him seductively.
" Thanks ma, you look good too " He flirts
" You still with your baby moms or you single ? " She asks him.
" That’s complicated and I guess I am single. What about you ? " He says licking his lips.
" SIngle. Here take my number " She says grabbing his phone and put her number in. I feel myself heating up so I get up and walk into victoria secret. The nerve of that nigga. I can’t even. After about 5 minutes I look at the lingerie section and I see a red corset with matching underwear. It’s so sexy so I grab it. I feel his presence behind me and I turn around with the lingerie in my hand.
" Why didn’t you say you were coming in here " He asks me.
" You were busy I didn’t wanna interupt " I say walking to the cash register.
" What you getting that for ? " He asks me raising his eyebrow but I just shrug. I’m still mad but I refuse to let it show. We decided to go eat something and I knew our son was hungry so I fed him. We had light conversation and he asked me questions about CJ. He insisted that I go back to his house with him to help him set stuff up. He want CJ to stay with him today and I agreed to it. We fix up CJ’s room since he lives in a 2 bedroom house. I was surprised because he painted it " I painted it last night " He told me.
" It’s nice " I say.
" You okay ? you been acting weird all day " He sighs.
" Yeah I’m ok. I’m just exhausted " I tell him and it’s true.
" Well you can have time to yourself. I’m here to help and I notice you look tired " He tells me.
" Yeah since we finished here. I’m going to leave. Call me if you need me " I tell him. I kiss CJ goodbye and leave out the house. I’m driving and Laila calls me talking about her party tomorrow. I tell her I’m going then I text Chris and He said that he’s going to leave CJ with mama J because he’s expected to be there too.
I woke up at like 1 in the afternoon. I couldn’t sleep last night. I had too much shit going on in my head. I felt bad for coming at Gabby the way I did. I should of just read her letters and responded to her texts but I was being stubborn. Could you blame me though ? she left me. I have a son though and I’m greatful that she took him. Most girls wouldn’t be able to do it on their own but she did. The thing about Gabby she’s always been independent. Our past may be fucked up but I want to look ahead to the future. I need answers and I need time with my son to build a relationship. I lost a year and I refuse to lose anymore time. He’s the most important thing in my life right now. I want to give him the world. As for Amina that shit is done and I’m deadass. She kept a big ass secret from me and she was being selfish. I don’t need a girl like that in my life at all. I honestly don’t know what’s going to happen between Gabby and I but we are a family. We need to be mature and put our son first. We have to communicate with eachother without yelling. We need to at least be cordial.
I got in the shower and got dressed. I called my mom and asked her for Gabby’s address so I could make things right. No arguing or yelling. Just talking. Her house was about 5 miles from me. I drove and just cleared my mind. I stopped in front of her house and I was impressed. She was doing good. I knew she had graduated school because I heard Laila talking about it once. I was just amazed that she accomplished so much while going through so much stuff. I hesitated as I walked to the door. I took a deep breathe and knocked on the door. I took in my surroundings and looked around. I looked back at the door and rang the door bell this time. The door opened slowly and there she was looking at me with sad eyes. She had on leggings and a tank top. I placed my hands in my pocket and I watched her move to the side as she let me in. I looked around awkwardly and saw CJ sitting on the floor playing with his toys. He didn’t even notice I was standing there. I turned around and watched Gabby walk into the kitchen. Her ass got bigger but I needed to focus. I followed her into the kitchen.
" Hey " I said breaking the silence between us and leaning on the counter.
" Hey " She said low as she washed the dishes.
" I just wanted to apologize for getting so angry and yelling at you. I was just caught off guard with everything. You can’t blame me for being upset " I sighed. I watched her as she turned off the sink and dried her hands. She walked into the living and sat down on the couch. I followed her and sat down next to her. I looked down at my son and he stared at me. He started nibbling on his bottom lip.
" I don’t blame you for being upset. I know this is all my fault and I will honestly take the blame for everything " She said looking down at her hands.
" It’s not you fault Gabby. I should of put the bullshit aside and just read your letters or answered your text. It was my fault and I’m sorry " I said picking up her chin so she could look at me.
" I wish things could of been different and I feel bad that you weren’t there to see him be born or to see him walk for the first time or to see him speak for the first time " She said staring at me.
" Well we got now and the future " I said giving her a small smile " I just want him to know who I am " I sighed.
" Come here baby " She said calling for CJ to come to her. He wobbled over to her and she picked him up and placed him on her lap. He tilted his head to the side and stared at me " This is your daddy " She told him in a sweet voice. He looked at her then looked at me. I smiled at him and he started to clap.
" Da " He said struggling with the word.
" Da Da " Gabby told him.
" Da Da " He smiled as he crawled on to my lap " Da Da " He said hugging me. I hugged him back and Gabby started crying.
" Why you crying ? " I asked her.
" I seriously dreamed about this day " She said to me.
" Ma Ma " CJ said smiling. She watched as our son played with my chain that I had around my neck. He was talking a language only he knew and it was funny. He tried putting my chain in his mouth but I told him no and he listened.
" Can I ask you something ? " I asked her. She looked at me and waited for me to continue " Where’s Jay ? " I asked.
" I never left with him Chris. I went straight to Miami and after about a month of being there I found out I was pregnant. I didn’t want to hurt you anymore so I thought it would be better if I left both of you alone and got myself together. We have built a friendship though " She told me.
" Wow " was all I could say. I honestly thought she chose that nigga over me. This changes so much. I hated her for no reason " So where does this leave us ? " I asked her.
" I honestly don’t know. We have a kid and I want us to be a family but I don’t know where to start " She said.
" I guess we’ll go slow and see where things lead " I said.
" Okay and no more bullshit. I’m so over it " She told me and I knew she was serious. We talked about everything. She told me about her buisness and how well it was doing. I told her about my dilemma and she just told me to do what I loved the most. I had a feeling shit was going to work out between us this time since we both agreed to take it slow. I care about her and making our family work. I’m letting nothing come between us this time and she told me she’s willing to fight for me. I respect her on so many levels. She asked me about Amina and I told her straight up that shit was done between me and her. We not together right now but I know eventually we will be if that’s what we both want.
I had no idea he was going to come over. I was feeling so many emotions before he came and I honestly felt bad. He made everything better by coming over. I can see that he’s matured a lot and I like this new Chris. I watched as him and CJ bonded. They were so much a like and it was the cutest thing. Regardless of the past we are a family and we need to make things right not for us but for our son. I did still love him and I knew he still loved me. Maybe things will work out between us but I’m happy he’s more focused on getting his relationship with his son right first. CJ should come first. We talked about everything and anything for like two hours and it was nice to have a civilized conversation with him. I needed to go to the supermarket because we were running low on food. So I got up from the couch and put my sneakers on.
" Where you going ? " Chris asked me.
" I have to go to the supermarket father " I laughed while searching through my bag for my car keys.
" Still sarcastic " He said tickling CJ " Your mother is sarcastic " He said to him and CJ was just laughing really hard.
" Shut up. You can stay here with him, I trust you " I said to him.
" Ight cool, thanks " He smiled up at me. We stared at eachother for a minute and I got lost in his eyes until he looked away and licked his lips " So is there going to be days where I can take him to my house and he can sleep over ? " he asked me.
" Well yeah but you need to buy shit like a car seat, crib, baby food etc " I told him.
" I’ll do that tomorrow but can you come with me ? I don’t know what to get " He laughed.
" Okay but I’ll be back and you’re staying for dinner " I said as I walked over and kissed CJ on the cheek then kissed Chris on the forehead.
I went to the supermarket and bought so much shit. I decided I was going to make Chris favorite, lasagna. I drove back to my house and Chris was on the couch laying down watching T.V while CJ was laying on his chest. He usually naps at this time so I wasn’t surprised he was sleep.
" Can you help get the bags out my car ? " I asked Chris.
" Where should I put him ? " Chris asked me.
" His room is upstairs. Put him in his crib since I have a baby monitor down here " I said. I watched him carry CJ upstairs while I went back out to my car. I was too busy grabbing bags to notice him behind me. I heard him laugh as I bumped into him.
" You should let me decorate his room " he told me.
" I guess " I said trying to collect myself since I dropped a bag.
" Clumsy ass " He mumbled.
" Fuck you " I said. I heard him mumble some slick shit but I ignored it. We finally finished bringing all the bags in as he watched me put all the stuff away.
" Damn did you buy the whole store " He laughed. I was struggling to put something in the top cabinet since I’m short. So he came behind me and took it from my hand. He placed it on the top shelf. He was all over me and I was getting turned on.
" Thanks and No. I just don’t like going to the supermarket every week " I told him and he sat back down.
" So what you cooking me ? " he asked.
" Food bitch " I said laughing.
" Your little ass better stop " He told me.
" Or what ? " I said lifting one of my eyebrows. All he did was smirk and I started to blush so I turned around so he couldn’t see me.
" I’ll be in the living room " He laughed. Ugh
I cooked lasagna with salad and garlic bread. CJ starting crying and Chris brought him down stairs. He placed him in his high chair as we all sat down to eat. I was going to feed CJ first before I ate but Chris wanted to do it so I let him. When we finished eating Chris insisted on cleaning everything up. I sat in the living and watched T.V as CJ was in his play pen and started playing with his toys. When Chris was finished he decided to sit his big tall ass on me. I was suffocating and he was laughing.
" Get off " I said trying to breathe. I pinched his ass and he finally got off me.
" Why you had to pinch my ass for ? " He said laughing.
" That’s the only way I could get you off of me " I laughed.
" You could of touched something else …. " He trailed off but I didn’t say anything. Ugh he’s teasing me and sooner or later I’m not going to be able to take it. We sat and watched T.V for an hour eventually CJ fell asleep. It was like 10 o clock and I watched as Chris got up.
" I should go. It’s getting late " He said.
" Okay " I said walking him to the door.
" I had fun " He turned and smiled at me.
" Me too " I smiled back. He opened his arms and I got on my tippy toes and wrapped my arms around his neck. We hugged for what seemed like forever. His arms felt so right around me and I honestly didn’t want him to let go.
" What time should I picy y’all up tomorrow ? " He asked me while pulling away from the hug.
" Is 1 okay ? " I asked him and he nodded his head.
" Goodnight ma " He smiled backing up and turning around. I watched as he got in his car and drove away.
Everything has been going so good for me lately. I have a store in Miami and I have a store in L.A. I plan on opening a store in New York soon. Buisness is great. Me and my son are honestly great. Laila, Manda, Nyeka and I are still close. I’m glad to have supportive friends like them honestly. It was my baby’s first birthday. I was having a party for him. I knew Chris was in town and I was honestly tired of our child being a secret. I invited Mama J to the party and I told Laila, Nyeka and Manda to bring Keeis, Nino and Mijo with them also. This needed to be done. Everything might be great and shit but I feel so selfish. My son may be happy but he needs his father. Every little boy needs their father. I didn’t know if Chris moved here or not but there was a rumor going around that he did. I didn’t know how everyone was going to take it. I felt like everyone was going to hate me and think that I was keeping him a secret. When I did try to tell Chris numerous times.
A couple of guest started to arrive at my house. My house was big and I was seriously in love with it. It was like 2 miles away from Laila and 3 miles away from Mama J. It was a white house with 4 bedrooms, 5 baths, a pool and a park. My son was so spoiled. I nicknamed him CJ ( lol ) because calling him Chris was just too much. My son was sitting on my lap and I was feeding him some food. He had just started walking about 2 months ago, he was a quick learner. After he finished eating I let him go play with his little friends. Everybody came walking in together Mama J, Keeis, Mijo, Laila ( with her baby kiara ), Manda, Nyeka and Nino. They all had gifts in their hands. I said hi to all of them and hugged them. The girls have seen my baby before. I moved here like two months ago.
" It’s so nice to see you. It’s been too long " Mama J said.
" I know I’ve missed you " I smiled putting my arm around her.
" Damn Gabby you look good " Keeis said and Manda slapped him upside the head.
" Thanks " I laughed.
" Chris would of came but the way he is set up " Mijo laughed.
" It’s ok I guess " I told him.
" So where’s the little angel " Mama J asked me. I made them all sit in the living room since the party was outside. I went to get my son. He hid behind my leg as we walked back in.
" Don’t be shy little homie " Keeis said. Manda nodded her head at me to let me know it was going to be ok. I was so fucking scared.
" Come here baby " I said picking him up. I sat down and placed him on my lap " Say hi. It’s ok " He turned slowly and Mama J looked like she saw a ghost. Mijo and Keeis’s eyes were wide as fuck. Nino didn’t understand he was type lost. He had freckles just like Chris and the same eye color. He just had my nose.
" Oh my god " Mama J spoke.
" What the " Mijo trailed off.
" Are you kidding me ? " Keeis said.
" You guys, let her talk this is hard for her too " Manda said.
" Mawmy " CJ said as he looked up at me and saw a tear fall from my eye.
" I know I should have said something. This has been so hard for me I tried telling Chris. I called and wrote him letters and he never responded to me. Please don’t hate me " I sighed.
" But why didn’t you tell us ? " Mijo sighed " We would of made him listen " He said.
" I just feel like it wasn’t for you guys to tell " I said wiping my tears.
" So you’ve been doing this on your own ? " Mama J asked me.
" Yes. I never went to New York with Jay. I found out I was pregnant like a month after I left to Miami " I told them.
" This is crazy. Who else knew ? " Keeis said rubbing his hand over his face.
" Well Autumn and Amina " Nyeka said.
" And that bitch didn’t tell her man " Mijo said angrily " Excuse my language " He said.
" All that matters is we know now and I’m here to help you sweety with whatever you need. You’re so mature for putting your son first and finally telling us. I see why you invited us " Mama J said sitting down next to me.
" This is your Grandma CJ " I smiled a little.
" Gwanma " He said looking at me then Mama J.
" Yes baby " She said opening her arms. He reached out for her and put his arms around her neck it was so cute. I started to cry even more.
" Damn Gabby and all this time I thought you left my brother for that nigga " Mijo said.
" Word me too " Keeis said.
" Come to uncle Mijo little man " Mijo said picking him up and throwing him in the air causing him to laugh loud. Keeis then grabbed him and started tickling him. He was laughing so hard.
" You did good though Gabby. Most girls would of either had an abortion or put the baby up for adoption and I’m honestly glad you didn’t. You have to tell him and I mean tomorrow. He has to know. I’ll be by your side all the way through " Mama J said rubbing my back.
" Thank you " I told her.
I moved to V.A about two weeks ago but I was lowkey with it. Only my mom and Keeis knew. I made shit official with Amina like 8 months ago but I’m not ready to live with her yet you know. I don’t want to rush things because so far things have been perfect between us. She was down here with me for now. She got here yesterday. Do I love her ? I honestly don’t know. She tells me she loves me all the time but I want to be sure if I’m going to say it back you feel me ? She was staying in Pennsylvania because that’s where her job was. We agreed to go back and fourth to see eachother and shit. I knew Gabby was living here and I wanted to avoid her as much as possible or so I thought.
Me and Amina was out to dinner. Since she always wanted to go on dates and do this lovey dovey shit. I didn’t mind but sometimes it was nice to just sit back and stay home. I was eating my food and shit when my mom had called me which was weird cause she usually calls me at a certain time. I got up from the table and walked outside. She was telling me to come over tomorrow to see her because she was cooking a big meal for everybody. I told her I would but before we hung up and promise not to be angry. I didn’t know why she wanted me to promise but I did anyway. I went back into the resturant and continued eating and shit with my girl.
After dinner we went back to my crib and just relaxed. I was laying on my stomach and she was on top of me giving me a back massage. I needed it. I was basically in basketball training for the NBA. So many teams wanted to draft me but I was still undecided on what I wanted to do. I love painting and I loved basketball it was a hard choice. Amina wanted me to play ball of course. She said I was so good at it.
" Damn that feels good " I sighed closing my eyes.
" mmmhm I bet " She said kissing my neck.
" Don’t start " I smirked.
" Ok " She giggled.
" Have you spoken to Autumn ? " I asked her. Her and Ty were engaged but only the guys and amina knew since she wasn’t fucking with nobody else.
" Yeah earlier " She said.
" You ready to have a bomb ass home cooked meal " I asked.
" I don’t think your mom likes me " She sighed.
" Why you say that " I asked turning on my back.
" I don’t know it’s like she tries to avoid me and we never really have a conversation " She said.
" You bugging my mom is mad nice. Try harder " I told her with a warm smile.
" Ok I guess I will for you " She said kissing me.
The next night.
I was driving to my moms house with amina. I had on a v-neck black shirt with khaki jeans, a red snapback and red chucks. Amina just wore a dress. Everytime my mom cooks she goes all out. I was ready to eat some good as food. I could tell Amina was nervous because her and the girls don’t get along. Everytime she’s around there would always be an argument. That’s why me and my boys chill alone without them. We don’t got time for that bullshit. We got there and Keeis, Mijo and Nino were in the living chilling. Mijo had my niece on his lap. I’m guessing the girls were in the kitchen.
" What up yellow nigga " Mijo said.
" Ain’t shit man " I said dapping all of them.
" Should I go in the kitchen ? " Amina asked.
" Only if you want to babe " I said sitting down. She nodded her head and walked into the kitchen.
" You in a good mood today man ? " Nino asked me.
" Yeah why ? " I said tickling my niece.
" Just making sure " He shrugged.
We just sat there and talked about different shit. They were being weird though like something was up but I just shrugged it off. After about an hour Manda came in the living room and told us dinner was ready.
" Don’t start eating yet ? " My mom said slapping my hand.
" Why not ? " I asked her.
" We have two more guest coming " She told me.
" Who ? " I asked confused. Maybe it was Autumn and Ty.
" You’ll see " She smiled.
Suddenly the door bell rang and I watched as Manda got up. About 2 minutes later I saw her. She was wear a tight black dress that fit her curves perfectly. She had who I’m guessing was her and Jay’s son. He had his arms around his neck. I think he was sleeping. From what I could see he had a little curly afro and was light skin. He had on khaki pants a jean jacket and baby jordans. I watched her as she skimmed the room. We made eye contact and she quickly looked away. I felt Amina grab my hand.
" Sorry I’m late. I had to dress him while he was sleeping " She said to my mother.
" It’s ok honey " My mom said.
" I guess I should wake him up " She said sitting down. She shook him lightly and he was about to cry but when he looked at her he stopped. It was honestly the cutest thing. I couldn’t keep my eyes off of them and Amina couldn’t keep her eyes off of me. He slowly looked around at his surroundings and I looked at every feature on his face. The first thing I noticed were the freckles then the brown eyes and the lips. He had her nose but he looked exactly like me. I remembered the day he was born because it was the day before Autumn and Manda’s fight. I did the math in my head like three times. I remembered the last time we had sex and everything. I felt my blood start to fucking boil. I watched as he started to play with Gabbys hair. Everyone was looking at me. I felt my face get hot and I must’ve turned red.
" Chris " My mom said. I didn’t say anything. Gabby looked at me and that’s when I knew he was my son. I could read her like a fucking book. I was beyond pissed at this point.
" What’s his name ? " I said staring at Gabby and clenching my jaw but she didn’t answer me " What’s his name ? " I said through my teeth.
" Christopher Maurice Brown JR but I call him CJ " She said taking a deep breath. I started to laugh without humor. I was so angry. I was ready to flip this fucking table over.
" Are you fucking kidding me ? " I yelled causing everyone to jump. I watched as CJ hid behind Gabby’s hair. I didn’t mean to scare him after all it’s not his fault his mother kept this shit from me.
" Chris let her explain " My mom begged.
" NO ! she had my fucking son and didn’t fucking tell me. All of you fucking knew and didn’t fucking tell me " I said grilling everyone.
" Bro chill we found out yesterday " Mijo said. I looked at Amina and she was just looking down but I had a feeling this bitch knew. All the girls knew but I can’t blame them I know were their loyalties lie but Amina. I got something for her ass.
" Chris " Gabby sobbed.
" Don’t fucking talk. Now you want to fucking talk after I find out this shit " I yelled in her direction.
" Chris calm down " Keeis told.
" No fuck that I have every right to be fucking upset right now. How old is he ? " I asked her angrily.
" He just turned 1 years old yesterday " She said looking like she was about to cry.
" You made me miss out on a fucking year of my sons life you bitch " I yelled again.
" I tired to tell you. I wrote you letters and everything. You never got back to me " She said as a tear fell. Shit she was right but I was too pissed off to calm down.
" You left with another nigga and expect me to fucking respond to you " I said.
" But … " I cut her off.
" No fuck you bitch I don’t give a fuck about anything you have to say right now. You did this. You fucked up this relationship. You took my fucking son away from me. I can never get that year back. Shit is always about you " I said banging on the table. My son started to cry. Last thing I wanted was for him to be scared of me.
" I think I should go. I’m so sorry Momma J " She cried. She got up and I followed her to her fucking car. Mijo tried to pull me back but I snatched my arm. She was putting CJ in his car seat as I walked up to her.
" Run away that’s what the fuck you’re good at. You always run away from your fucking problems like a coward. You always run away from me " I yelled to her. She was hurting but I didn’t give a fuck. I was blocking her from getting in the car.
" I’m sorry, I’m so so sorry " She cried.
" Sorry isn’t going to make shit right " I said kicking her car and making a dent. Mijo grabbed me away so she could get into her car. She got in fast and I watch her drive a way. I sped walk to my car " Get the fuck in the car " I yelled to Amina. I heard my mom calling for me but I just wanted to be alone. We got back to the house and Amina kept asking me if I was ok. She was looking so fucking guilty " You knew didn’t you " I said side eyeing her.
" Chris … " She said trailing off.
" Tell me the fucking truth " I yelled causing her to jump.
" Autumn told me the day she gave birth but I didn’t want her to come between us " She pleaded.
" You selfish bitch. You fucking knew I had a fucking son but cared more about this relationship than me having a relationship with my son " I said angrily.
" Chris I’m sorry " She said beginning to cry.
" No fuck you and get the fuck out my house. Take your ass back to PA and I never want to see you again. This relationship is done " I told her. She wouldn’t move it was like she was stuck on stupid " GET THE FUCK OUT " I yelled. She quickly grabbed all of her stuff and left. I didn’t want nothing to do with her. I could imagine all the things she was keeping from me.
All I cared about right now was being in my sons life.
I had overheard Manda and Nyeka talking about Gabby giving birth while we were in class they thought I wasn’t paying attention but I really was. I knew Chris didn’t know but I was honestly ready to tell him that she gave birth to his baby yesterday. It was only right. I told Amina but she didn’t say anything and she said she wouldn’t tell Chris. I knew Ty was going to be over at the boys house today. So I was going to make my way over there later today after I was done taking my last final.
Manda and I don’t talk. I don’t talk to Nyeka and Laila either. That’s because their grimey everytime we would be together they would gang up on me and shit. Friends don’t do that to friends and I’ve been nothing but loyal to Manda. I’ll admit I get jealous of Gabby sometimes but it’s always been that way. We never stopped speaking though. I shouldn’t have taken what was going on between me and Manda out on her. But what can I do ? what’s done is done.
I made my way over to where Ty was and when I walked in Manda, Nyeka, Laila, Mijo, Ty, Keeis, Chris, Amina and nino were there chilling. I’m guessing Mijo and Laila’s baby were with Laila’s mom. All the guys and Amina said hi to me but all the girls just focused on the TV. They knew we were having problems. I decided to jump right into it because I didn’t give a fuck.
" So did Gabby give birth ? " I asked sitting down and staring at Manda. She cut her eyes at me.
" Wait what ? " Chris said.
" Autumn shut the fuck up " Laila said.
" Nah what did she name her baby ? " I asked.
" What baby ? " Chris asked me.
" Gabby gave birth yesterday to a baby boy " I told him. I watched him clench his Jaw.
" Woahhhhhhhhh deadass ? " Mijo asked Laila. Laila just nodded her head. I looked over at Manda and she was shaking. I knew she was pissed. Amina was just looking down the whole time and Nyeka was grilling me.
" You mean to tell she was pregnant with Jay’s baby ? " Chris asked.
" You see Chris the thing is …… " I stopped mid sentence because Manda got up and punched me in the mouth. Amina got up but Nyeka pushed her back down on the couch " You bitch " I said pushing her to the floor. I got on top of her and started slapping her and pulling her hair. Then she finally got on top of me and started punching me hard. My mouth was bleeding and Manda had scratches her face. We were wrestling back and fourth. It was an even fight. Eventually Keeis grabbed Manda and Ty grabbed me. Nyeka started charging for me but Nino pulled her back. This shit could of got serious real quick but it didn’t.
" Everytime I see you bitch we will fight and I don’t give a fuck. You a fake ass friend b. Fuck you " Manda yelled.
" I don’t give a fuck. Fuck all of y’all " I yelled.
" Bitch you think she’s going to have your back ? " Laila said pointing to Amina.
" Leave me out of it " Amina said shaking her head.
" Or what ? " Laila said but Amina stood quite.
" Fuck this and fuck each and everyone of you. I’m out " Autumn said walking out the door.
Damn this drama was ridiculous. I knew Manda and Autumn weren’t fucking with eachother I just didn’t know it was going to get this crazy. As for Gabby I didn’t even know she was pregnant. I did the math and it didn’t seem to add up but it was Jay’s baby not mine right ? So why should I even care. I went in my room with Amina after everything calmed down. The thing about Amina is she doesn’t like confrontation she stays quite. I don’t know if that’s a good thing or a bad thing. I need a girl that can defend herself you know. Maybe she can and I’m willing to wait and find out.
" Did Autumn tell you about that shit before ? " I asked amina. She just shrugged.
" Don’t put me in this. I don’t even want to be involved in everyone elses drama " She sighed.
" I didn’t think they would fight " I told her.
" It is what it is " She said laying down.
" What you worried about then ? " I asked her.
" Me and You " She said licking her lips.
" Oh " I smirked. I climbed on top of her and kissed her. Maybe I am willing to be with her. After all Gabby seemed to have moved on with Jay.
You ever wonder how different things could be if certain events never happened? Like what if I never cheated on Chris would we still be together and happy? What if I never betrayed autumn ? What if I stood in L.A ? What if I just pop up and tell Chris he’s the father of this baby I’m carrying ? What if I never met Chris ? I have so many what ifs and no answers. It’s my fault I’m in this position and that’s fine I’ll take the blame for everything. Chris is happy with someone new and that’s all I ever wanted right ? I thought about going to L.A and just making things different and fighting for Chris but why would I do that after everything I put him through. I feel like I’m being selfish but then again. My baby boy needs a father and if I don’t fight I’m being selfish to him. I’m confident I can do this on my own it’s just I don’t want my baby to grow up without a father. I’m over thinking and it’s clear what I should do but something’s holding me back. I don’t know what it is or maybe it’s because I’m pregnant and fighting for Chris just doesn’t seem right at this time. I know eventually I’m going to get my man back. I will fight for him this time and when that time comes things will be different. Deep down I know he still loves me. It’s over shadowed by his happiness right now though.
I was in the kitchen cooking and waiting for Jay to come through. He had texted me and told me he just got to his hotel, that he should be over in a few. I decided to just make rice, beans and chicken nothing too special. I was hungry so I started munching on cookies. About an hour later Jay finally came through. He walked in and hugged me tight but not too tight. It was nice to see a familiar face and someone that can make me laugh. I was actually happy to see him.
" You mad small with that big belly " he laughed.
" Shut up " I said rolling my eyes.
" I’m hungry though and I know you cooked " He smirked walking into the kitchen. I served him and myself a plate and sat down across from him. We started eating and he could tell I had a lot on my mind.
" You shouldn’t be stressing yourself out you know that shits not good for the baby " He sighed.
" I know I’m trying to be calm and happy. It’s just hard you know " I told him.
" Well I’m hear to help you get your mind off shit but eventually you gotta cut the bullshit and tell that nigga regardless. He has a right to know. Make him listen. You keep saying you tried but you really didn’t ma " Jay said. One thing about him he always kept it real and no matter what he was right. " I know you can do it on your own but I know you don’t want to. You want him to be there " he said staring at me " Just handle it after you give birth ma " he smiled.
" Ok so how you going to help me get my mind off this ? " I asked him.
" You going to be VIP at my show tonight baby girl " He said. We finished eating and he waiting in the living room while I got ready. I felt so fat none of my clothes fit. So I wore a dress and some sandals. He drove us to his show and I was surprised by how many people were there it was crazy. I knew he was famous but damn. Girls started screaming for him and paparrazi was asking who I was as he led me into the bulding. We got to his dressing room and just chilled for a little while.
" Well damn mr. famous " I giggled.
" It’s crazy as shit out there " He smiled.
" I’m happy for you, seriously. Like you deserve all good things " I smiled.
" You deserve good things too and trust me everything is going to get better. You have my word " He told me. Hopefully he was right. Deep down I am happy and this unborn baby is the only reason why but I just miss Chris. We sat around and talked about random shit until it was show time I sat on the side of the stage and watched him do his thing it was amazing. He had the crowd hype, bitches throwing panties and bras. It was so ratchet. I am so happy that me and Jay built this friendship. He was someone I trusted. He never sugar coated shit. I have so much respect for him and I am glad he’s accomplishing his dream. The show finally finished and I was exhausted. He drove me back home and I sat in his car for a little bit " Did you have a good time ? " He asked me.
" Yeah I did. Thank you I seriously needed this " I smiled.
" Hopefully next time I see you that baby will be born " He said touching my stomach.
" Yeah and I’ll have my old figure back " I laughed.
" You’re still beautiful Gabby " He said touching my face.
" Thank you " That was exactly what I needed because I didn’t feel beautiful at all.
" Can I get one last kiss to see if any feelings are there " He said moving closer to me. I took a big gulp. One kiss couldn’t hurt. I feel like I owed it to him. He continued to move in and our lips met. It wasn’t anything serious and when he pulled away he started smiling.
" What ? " I said.
" Feelings are still there but I get more of a friend vibe " He laughed causing me to laugh.
" We are friends dummy " I said rolling my eyes.
" Well I’ll see you soon and I’ll call you sooner " He winked.
" You’re so corny " I laughed while getting out the car.
Today was just what I needed but back to reality.
My baby kiara was 3 months old now and she was the most precious and beautiful baby I’ve ever seen. It was hard leaving her with mijo but I wanted to spend time with the girls also and I honestly missed gabby. Mijo was fine with it of course he said I deserved a vacation. He was so good to me and I honestly felt like the luckiest girl in the world. I couldn’t wait to be his wife and just be together forever. I never thought we would make it this far but he’s different. We have little disagreements here and there but who doesn’t ?
Nyeka, Manda and I landed at Miami international airport. Autumn didn’t come because her and gabby don’t talk. She started living with Ty and we barely see her. I refuse to kiss her ass and everyone else feels the same way. Chris and Amina are always together but he still hasn’t made it official. We waited around for Gabby to come pick us up and shit. She pulled up in her white range rover. Looking very pregnant. She was so short so it was cute. Her belly was huge. She walked over to us and hugged us all tight.
" I missed you guys so much " she told us.
" We missed you too " I told her.
" Can we go eat I’m starving " Manda said.
" Yeah let’s go " she said. We put our bags in the trunk and got in. She drove to some Mexican restaurant . We sat down and ordered our food then had conversation.
" How is everything with you guys ? " she asked us.
" Everything good. Me and Nino are doing great as well " Nyeka smiled.
" Well you know me and Keeis are good. Even though he’s a pain in my ass " Manda laughed.
" Me and Mijo are perfect. The baby is perfect. Everything is perfect " I smiled to myself.
" Aww I’m happy to here that " Gabby smiled at us.
" What about you ? " I asked her.
" You know everything is good. I’m honestly not going to stress myself out anymore. My baby needs to be healthy you know. I guess you can say I’m finally at a good place in my life. There’s times where I miss him but something’s telling me everything will work out " She said.
" You guys will be together again. I feel it " Nyeka told her.
" And have you spoken to Autumn ? " Gabby asked Manda.
" Nope " She said rolling her eyes.
" She’s practically best friends with Amina " I shrugged.
" Anyways Ms. I’m 8 months Prego. Are you ready to give birth " Nyeka said.
" Oh my god yes I am " she sighed " like my feet and back hurt all the time " she told us.
" Girl I do not miss that feeling and mijo over here talking about he wants more kids " I said shaking my head.
" Thank god I got my degree last week. School life is over and now it’s time to look ahead to the future " Gabby said.
" So you really moving to Virginia ? Cause so is everyone else. " I told her.
" I mean yeah I am and things are going to be so hectic at first " She sighed.
" Me and Mijo already found a house. The house next to it is for sale but it’s a three bed room " I told her and showed her pics of it.
" I’ll have my mom check it out " she told me and I nodded my head.
" Me and Keeis moving in together we found a cute house and so did Nyeka and Nino " Manda said.
" we’re all going to be together again " nyeka said happy.
" when are you moving though ? " I asked Gabby.
" When I’m settled and ready " she told us. We ate and just hung out for the rest of the day.
We went back to her house and just rested. We stood with her for two weeks till it was time for us to go. She was finally made 9 months the day we were leaving and I was sad I was going to miss it. But her mom was here so she wouldn’t be alone if the baby was ready to come out. I felt bad because she didn’t even have a baby shower it sucked. How come I got everything and she didn’t. Me and the girls bought her gifts it was like a little get together between us. I was happy she was in a good place though with everything. She was determined to get Chris back I could see it in her eyes but right now wasn’t the time to fight for him and everyone understood that. I was glad that eventually we would all be living next to each other again like old times.
The girls had left about a week ago and I honestly had a good time with them. My mom was here helping me with everything. I got a bigger condo for now and set up a nursery since I still didn’t find a house in virginia. My mom was going to look at the house Laila suggested when she got back to V.A. I was honestly ready to just move to the country and live peacefully but I kind of want to open up a store here in Miami first. I wrote Chris another letter but I still got no response an honestly it was pissing me off.
I was just laying on the couch watching T.V with my mom when all of a sudden my water brakes. Me and my mom started panicking. We got my bags and rushed to the car. I texted Laila and told her to tell all the girls. I was in so much pain and they placed me into a room as soon as I got to the hospital. My mom was recording the whole thing and I honestly hated her for it. After about 12 hours he was ready to come out I was pushing so hard and I just wanted it to be over. It hurt way too much.
" One more push Gabby. He’s almost out " The doctor told me. I gave the last push everything I had and he was finally here. His cries filled the room.
" Would you like to hold your son ? " the nurse asked me. I nodded my head. She placed him in my arms and I started crying he looked just like Chris everything about him. He had little freckles and everything.
" He’s so beautiful " My mom said " what are you going to name him ? " she asked me. I didn’t even need to think about it honestly. His name was going to be …
It’s been like two weeks since Laila’s baby shower. She should be giving birth soon and we were all so fucking excited. Shit with Manda and Autumn was cool for now but knowing Manda she was keeping her distance. Autumn and Amina were always together now and that shit was weird to me but fuck it. I’m laid back when it comes to the bullshit but when shit pops off I get crazy. Nino left to hang out with the guys today so I decided to have a little get together with the girls. I was going to cook some good ass food and everything. Autumn insisted on inviting Amina over but I didn’t care I had nothing against the girl yet. I was slaving away in the kitchen. I actually enjoyed cooking. Manda went to go pick up Laila and shit. Amina got here before them so it was just me, Autumn and her in the house. I continued cooking and observing them while they talked and laughed up a storm. I was finish with the dinner after about an hour. So I set the table and placed the food on the table. I went to wash my hands and face since it was hot because of the oven. Laila and Manda finally came so we all sat at the table to eat.
" Damn I love your food " Manda laughed.
" Word this shit is so good and my baby loves it too " Laila said rubbing her stomach.
" Yeah thanks for cooking Nyeka " Amina said.
" No problem " I smiled trying to be nice.
" Laila the baby looks like its ready to pop the fuck out " Autumn giggled.
" Girl my back has been killing me I’m so ready for her to come out " Laila sighed. Her belly was so big " I told Mijo to keep his phone with him just in case and shit cause you never know " She told us.
" Yeah that’s true " Amina said. This bitch tries too hard.
" How’s engagement life ? " Manda asked her.
" It’s wonderful. It really hasn’t even kicked in yet but I’m so happy " She smiled.
" I hope to be like you and Mijo one day " Amina said. I saw Manda roll her eyes and I couldn’t help but laugh " What ? " she asked.
" You want to marry Chris ? " I blurted out.
" I mean I don’t know " She shrugged. Me, Manda and Laila just looked at eachother.
" Oh my god y’all should of heard Gabby when I told her Mijo proposed " Laila laughed " She started screaming and shit " She told us.
" I can imagine her loud ass " Autumn laughed. I looked over at Amina and she looked uncomfortable. O well. We finished eating and we all went to the living room to watch T.V and talk shit. We were honestly having a good time.
" So hows you and Chris " Autumn asked Amina. She was the only one that gave a fuck to be honest.
" We’re good I just want him to stop holding back and it’s like Gabby is always brought up " She sighed.
" Oh how ? " I asked being nosey.
" Well she texted him the other day but he deleted it. He told me he wants to move on so I told him to change his number if he’s willing to move on with me and he did yesterday " She told us. I went from calm to annoyed in 2.5 seconds.
" So you told him to change his number ? " Manda said with an attitude.
" It’s for the best " She said.
" How would you know what’s for the best though " Laila asked her.
" Did he get a letter from her ? " I asked.
" Yeah " She shrugged.
" Why is this even a convo about Gabby " Autumn asked and Manda looked at her like she was fucking crazy.
" Bitch what ? " Manda said her angrily.
" You asked her about her and Chris don’t make it about Chris and Gabby " Autumn said rolling her eyes.
" I’ll ask whatever the fuck I want to be honest " Manda told her.
" Whatever Amanda " Autumn said with a dirty look.
" Guys chill out " Laila told them.
" Gabby and Chris are over. Fuck that dead relationship " Amina said out of nowhere and she instantly regretted it.
" See that’s that shit I don’t like and that’s why he’s still not with you " I laughed " Dead relationship my ass " I said. I had to walk away because my anger was real.
" See that was wrong Amina I’m sorry that these people can’t be civilized " Autumn said. That’s when I turned back around and walked into the living room.
" You just met this bitch and you defending her over us ? " Manda said getting up.
" Because y’all wrong leave her the fuck alone " Autumn yelled.
" Damn Autumn you changed " Laila said shaking her head.
" I haven’t changed. Why is Gabby always the center of attention she caused this not Amina. Manda you can go run and tell her that like the little snitch you are " Autumn said. Manda walked straight up to her and got in her face.
" Say something else I swear to god I will fuck you up " Manda said. Autumn sucked her teeth and Manda pushed her down to the floor. I had to grab Manda quick while Amina stopped Autumn from charging at Manda.
" I didn’t mean to cause this " Amina said.
" It’s not your fault " Autumn told her.
" We not friends and we never were bitch. Either I’m moving out or you are " Manda yelled.
" Fine I’ll move in with Ty. I don’t give a fuck bitch " Autumn said back at her.
" Um… you guys " Laila said causing us all to look at her " I think my water just broke " She said. We all stared at her wide eyed and started to panic " Call Mijo Now " She yelled at us. We called him and got in my car and drove straight to the fucking hospital he told us he would meet us there. Thank god he picked up the phone. I texted Gabby and told her about Laila and she told me to keep her posted.
Fuck Fuck Fuck. Laila’s water just broke and I was fucking stuck in traffic. I hope she doesn’t give birth before I get there I was nervous as shit so I had Chris drive. We were finally out of traffic and we got to the hospital fast. Chris was driving reckless as fuck but i didn’t care I just wanted to be with my two girls. Everybody waited in the waiting room as I ran to the room. Laila was in she was in so much pain and I wanted it to end. She kept yelling for drugs and I honestly couldn’t stop laughing her. She was telling me she hated me and shit but I knew she was lying. She was only saying it because she was in pain. She was saying how this was all my fault and she was never fucking me again. I should of recorded this shit but when I tried to pull out my camera she gave me a death stare so I put it away. They gave her a needle that calmed her down for a little while until she was ready to give birth. After about 16 hours of waiting. The shit finally began.
" Push baby push " I told her. She was screaming out in pain as she pushed hard.
" I see the head keep pushing " the doctor told her. She continued pushing and screaming and yelling. I was honestly getting a headache " One more big push come on Laila you can do it " She did one final push and our daughter came out crying. I started crying. I don’t give a fuck if I looked like a bitch. This was my daughter. The only other person I loved as much as my mother, my brother and Laila. They wiped the blood off and all that other shit that they do " Would you like to hold your daughter " They asked Laila and she nodded her head yes. They placed her in her arms and it was such a beautiful sight to see. They were both so beautiful.
" What are we naming her ? " I asked Laila while our daughter was holding on to my finger.
" Kiara Aaliyah Bradford " She smiled.
" Beautiful " I smiled.
" I love you, both of you " She smiled with tears of joy.
" I love you and Kiara more than anything in this world " I said kissing both of them. They took the baby and eventually Laila went to sleep. She needed her rest. I knew she was exhausted. I went to the waiting room and everyone stood up when I got there.
" Y’all want to see her ? " I asked them. They all said yeah and we walked to the glass. She was there just sleeping and looking peaceful as ever.
" My niece is beautiful " Chris said putting his arm around me.
" You have a beautiful family man " Keeis told me.
" She’s so cute " Manda smiled.
" I’m so happy man like ya don’t even understand " I laughed.
" Man we can tell " Ty told me.
4 days later
Laila and the baby were finally coming home today. I went to the hospital to pick them up and I was honestly excited to start my new family. I helped Laila into the car and the baby was in the car seat. I had to buy a family car so I bought a audi Q8. Laila loved this car when I bought it. She knew why I bought it. My ferrari wasn’t going to be good for the baby at all. I pulled up into the driveway of our home. Laila got out as I grabbed the car seat.
" Welcome home Kiara " I said as we walked into the house.
Laila had finally given birth and I was so happy for her and Mijo. I honestly wish I was there to witness it all but the way my situation was set up. Why does everything with me have to be so complicated all the time. Maybe it’s because I make it complicated this could all be settled if I just went back to L.A but I tried reaching out to Chris I even wrote him another letter I mailed it two days ago. If he doesn’t write back then fuck it he obviously doesn’t care and I am willing to do this shit on my own. I don’t need to rely on any nigga. I’m independent. It just hurts because I did try I really did I even texted him and still no response. He probably wants me to fight for him and shit but right now is not the time. Especially when I’m pregnant this baby has to be my first priority. I was five months now and I’m having a boy. I was so happy when they told me. Laila was coming down when I was about 8 months and shit with Nyeka and Manda. They had told me what had happen with Autumn and I honestly don’t know what to think. It is what it is though. If she tells Ty fuck it. I know the difference between a real friend and a fake one. I tried calling her and shit but she always send me to voicemail. If she wants to be like that then hey. I kind of always knew our friendship wouldn’t go back to normal but I refuse to kiss anyones ass. I have bigger things to worry about. I was so ready to be done with school you don’t even know. Shit was stressful and I was always tired. Jay was suppose to visit me next week since he was going to be down here. We just friends don’t worry people. Deep down I honestly missed Chris and I knew this was going to fucking happen.
I laid down and looked down at stomach. I was already showing. I just rubbed my stomach and thought about everything that happened. Everything that was going to happen.
" I’m sorry daddy’s not here. It’s just you and me " I said as a tear fell.
We were all getting ready with Laila for this baby shower. Laila had on a long pink summer type dress and it looked really cute on her. She was so happy and this day was all about her and Mijo. We had Amina come over so she can get ready with us. She was a cool girl and the boys wanted us to make her feel included since Chris really liked her. So we decided to be nice for once but in the back of my mind I’m still rooting for Chris and Gabby. So I don’t think she should get to comfortable. Me and Autumn haven’t been getting along lately and it’s like she actually has a friendship with Amina I’m not even mad. She’s been real iffy lately and I don’t like that shit. She changed she puts her man before her friends and people she just met before her friends. Nyeka, Laila and I have a feeling she’s going spill the details on Gabby and her situation. If I find out she did I’m fucking her up on sight. I don’t give a fuck if she’s my best friend if you promise something you better keep that promise.
We were on our way to the baby shower in my car and we all looked cute. When we got there, there were so many people and gifts. Laila’s family was huge and mama J and the rest of Mijos family came down also. Everything looked perfect. Gabby bought them the biggest gift and I saw another box there from her. It must’ve got here today. Laila was making her way around the room with mijo and they both had smiles plastered on their face. I sat down with Keeis, Ty, Autumn, Nyeka, Nino, Amina and Chris.
" This turned out nice. Y’all did a good job " Amina told us.
" We tried " Autumn smiled.
" Come with me to get some food " Amina said to Autumn " You want food Chris ? She asked him.
" of course his ass does " Keeis laughed. They walked away and me and Nyeka looked at each other and rolled out eyes.
" The tension is real " Nino laughed
" Whatever " I mumbled. Chris raised his eyebrow at Keeis and Keeis just shrugged.
" You good ? " Keeis whispered in my ear.
" I’ll talk to you later about it " I whispered back.
" Yo I found some liquor in the back but don’t tell Laila " Mijo laughed while giving us cups. We started drinking and chatting. We started playing little games and shit it was funny as hell. Laila wanted to start opening gifts so we all sat around her and watched.
" I wanna open Gabby’s gift first baby " She told Mijo. He dragged one box at a time and sat next to her as she ripped it open. Gabby got her an expensive ass stroller and a big ass crib.
" Oh my god " She said.
" Gabby couldn’t be her with us today but shout out to her regardless " Mijo smiled as well all took pictures and shit. She opened all her gifts and the baby was set for like months. You could tell she was loved and she honestly deserved it. I know Gabby wishes she was here and it sucked that she wasn’t. Nyeka, Laila and I stepped outside so we could call her and speak to her for a little while. The phone rang twice before she picked.
" Hello " She answered.
" Hey bitch " We all said at the same time and started laughing.
" Y’all some fools " She laughed.
" Thank you so much for the gifts Gabby. I swear to god I love you " Laila told her.
" I love you too and I’m sorry I’m not there " She sighed.
" Don’t worry I understand trust me " Laila told her.
" So how is it ? " She asked us.
" It’s fun " I said to her.
" Don’t lie theres mad tension " Nyeka laughed.
" Why ? " Gabby asked.
" Because of your fake ass best friend " I snapped.
" Wait what ? " Gabby asked her.
" Autumn is getting on my fucking nerves. She sitting there all buddy buddy with Chris knew bitch and She’s like oh I don’t know how long I can keep this a secret from Ty. Bitch is pissing me off " I said with an attitude.
" Oh " was all Gabby said
" Yeah so if Chris finds out you know who to blame " I told her.
" Well I wrote him a letter but I don’t know if he got it yet or he just doesn’t care but don’t say anything " She said with sadness in her voice.
" Well you have me and Manda and Nyeka. We’re loyal as fuck " Laila said to her.
" I know and I miss you guys. Promise to visit me soon please ? " She said.
" We promise " Nyeka told her.
" Well go back to the baby shower I’ll talk to you guys later " She said and we hung up.
I was so fucking happy. Today has honestly been one of the best days of my life. Laila was fucking glowing, she was ectastic and seeing her smile so much meant everything. We got so many gifts and so much love today it was crazy. Our baby was set for like a year. We didn’t have to buy shit. I thought it was cool that Gabby got us a crib and stroller like she was deadass dope for that. What goes on between her and my brother is between them. I have no hard feelings against her and deep down I know eventually they will get back together. I feel it.
I was waiting for Laila to come back in the room. I was sitting down and talking to her father. Her father knew what I was planning and he approved of it. I was greatful because honestly I couldn’t see myself with no one else. Laila is everything she’s beautiful, loyal, respectful, sweet, funny and just freaky. She’s honestly perfect in my eyes. I can see myself being with her forever she’s just so important to me. I watched as Laila walked back in with Nyeka and Manda. I grabbed her hand and brought her to the front.
" Can I have everyone’s attention please " I said as I helped Laila’s pregnant ass sit down.
" What’s going on ? " Laila asked me.
" Just listen " I told her. The whole room got quite and I started sweating OD. I was nervous as fuck " I just want to thank all of you for being apart of this and sharing this special day with Laila and I " I took a deep breath " This isn’t just a baby shower and I just wanted to express my love for Laila. Baby you are everything to me " I said facing her " I love you so much and you are honestly the most beautiful person I’ve ever met. I’m forever greatful for Gabby hooking us up because I honestly want to spend the rest of my life with you. Remember what you said to me when I first asked you to be my girl " I asked her.
" To be true and give me all of you " She smiled as the tears started to fall.
" I promise to stay true and give you all of me " I said grabbing her hand and getting on one knee " Will you do me the honor in marrying me ? " I asked her.
" Yes Yes Yes " She cried as I slid the diamond ring on to her finger. She grabbed my face and kissed me passionately. I almost forgot we was in the room with other people.
" I love you it’s you and me forever " I told her.
" I love you too so much forever and always " She blushed. We were greeted with hugs and kisses from all our family members and this was honestly one of the best moments of my life. The baby shower continued going on and I was started chilling with the boys.
" Man that was so dope " Keeis told me.
" Thanks cuz " I smiled.
" I know y’all going to be together forever " Chris smiled.
" Yeah I feel it. I’ve never felt this way " I smiled to myself.
" I hope I have what you have one day " Chris sighed.
" Man you will it just takes time " I told him.
" Word we all want what you have eventually " Ty said.
What is love ? I honestly wonder if I met the woman I’m suppose to spend the rest of my life with already. Sometimes I sit and wonder what it would have been like if Gabby would of never cheated. Would we have what Mijo and Laila have ? God has a plan for me and I honestly don’t know what that plan is. Amina is a good girl maybe I should just be with her and let whatever happen, happen. I’m ready to move on with my life and see what else is out there. I can’t keep bringing my past into my future. If Gabby is meant for me she’ll find her way back but honestly it’s time for to fight for me I’m tired of fighting. Tired of trying to make something work with someone who keeps running away from me. I think I’m ready to be with Amina. Gabby was right I do deserve to be happy and deep down I want her to be happy too even if it’s with that Jay nigga. I guess all there is to do is move on with my life. My heart is telling me wait but my mind is saying let go. Honestly I’m going with my mind on this one because your heart isn’t always right.
The baby shower was fun and I was honestly happy for my brother he deserved to be happy. My brothers a good guy and I hope to be like him one day. I look up to that nigga in so many aspects of my life. He told me him and Laila wanted to be engaged for like a year before they make moves towards the wedding but they were going to start planning it now. All of us helped them bring the gifts to the house and shit. I eventually got tired and went home with Amina. I had a text message from Gabby asking me if I read the letter but I just deleted it. Amina suggested that I change my number and I guess she was right. After all I do want to move on.
" I had fun today " She smiled laying on my chest.
" Yeah me too " I told her.
" Chris " She said looking at me.
" Yeah " I said.
" I honestly want to be with you " She said biting on her bottom lip. I stared into her eyes and I could honestly see that was what she really wanted " We’ve been talking for two months and I feel like I’m ready for a relationship with you " She sighed.
" Just give me time. I know I want to be with you too but you have to give me time. I’m not even talking to no one else and you know that ma " I said to her.
" I know " She smiled.
" I’ll ask you when you least expect it " I smirked.
" Full of surprises huh " She giggled.
" Yeah you know that " I said.
" Kiss me " She said licking her lips. I grabbed her face and just started kissing her. It was passionate and slow as my hands roamed all over her body. Her hands caressed my face and I knew exactly how she was feeling. I knew she liked me alot and I honestly liked her alot in return.
Nyeka, Manda and I were planning were putting the final touches on Laila’s baby shower. She was due next month and it’s been about 4 months since Gabby moved to Miami. Manda and I went to see her last month. She told us she was pregnant but she made us promise not to say anything and she was 99.9 % sure it was Chris baby. She was only three months and I honestly felt bad for her. I don’t know how she could just up and leave. She left her whole life behind again but at least she’s finshing up school. She doesn’t want to be a jobless single mom. Gabby always ran away from her problems even when we were younger. I feel like she should tell Chris though and I’m pretty sure he would want to know. She shouldn’t hide this from him at all. He was talking to a new girl named Amina she was nice and we were all cool with her. Manda had told Gabby and Gabby didn’t say anything but we knew it hurt her. She can’t be sad though this could of all been prevented. Trying to keep that she was pregnant from Ty was hard and I honestly don’t know how long I can keep this secret. Chris still thinks she left to New York to be with Jay. He has no idea she’s in Miami pregnant and single like a dollar bill.
We were at the hall putting the final touches on everything. Gabby had mailed a big box for Laila and it looked like it could be a stroller or something. We were putting up ballons and streamers. Everything was pink and white since she was having a baby girl. Mijo and Laila were so happy you could tell they were deeply in love with eachother. He told us he was going to ask her to marry him at the baby shower which was even more exciting and sweet. I honestly hope me and Ty end up like them.
" Girl I am starving. Lets go to Laila’s house. She just texted me and said she’s alone because Mijo went out. She cooked us food " Manda said. We finished everything and drove to Laila’s house. When we got there she opened the door and let us in.
" Heyyyyy " She sang.
" Hey prego " I said.
" You guys hungry " She asked us while she pulled out plates. Her belly was so big.
" You know I am " Nyeka laughed.
" Gabby mailed you a big ass gift " Manda told Laila as she served us food.
" I wish she was here. I’ma go see her after I give birth and shit " She said. Her and Gabby grew really close. They talk everyday.
" It sucks that we promised not to say anything to the guys though. I feel bad " I sighed.
" She’s your best friend. You should be able to keep a secret " Manda said rolling her eyes.
" I have a feeling you’re going to be the one to snitch " Nyeka said while eating her food but I stood quite. Manda would always say shit like that. She is my best friend and I’m trying to do what’s right for her. It’s like she questions our friendship and it pisses me off but I don’t say anything.
" Speaking of the devil " Laila said holding up her phone and Gabby was calling her " Hey bitch " She said walking out of the room. I heard her laughing and stuff. She walked back in the room " Yeah they’re going to be best friends and cousins " Laila said talking about their babies " Gabby said hi " We all yelled hi and we heard her laugh " I miss you " Laila told her " Yeah I know " Laila sighed " I’ll see you after I give birth though. I need a break from L.A " Laila laughed a little " Ok. Love you too " She said and hung up.
" What she say " I asked.
" She had her first sonogram appointment today " Laila said and we all just sighed. I honestly wish she was still in L.A. We all got new text messages at the same time and it was the sonogram picture.
" Awwwwwwww " Nyeka said.
" It’s going to have Chris big ass head " Manda laughed.
" And his long ass toes " I laughed. We all started laughing and shit but stopped as soon as Mijo walked in with Chris and Amina. They weren’t official or anything yet. He was taking his time which was good.
" Hey girlies " Amina said sitting down next to me.
" Hey girl " We all said at the same time and started laughing.
" Yo, Laila you look like you ready to blow " Chris laughed.
" Nigga shut up " She laughed at him.
" Where did you guys go ? " Manda asked.
" Well we were at the mall and bumped into Mijo so we came back here with him since he said you guys were here " Amina explained. Chris sat down next to her and put his arm around her as she leaned into him. They were cute but they would never be as cute as Gabby and Chris.
" Gabby called you ? " Mijo asked Laila. I looked at Chris and he looked down at his hands.
" Yeah she mailed me a gift " Laila told him.
" Her ass should of came and gave it to you herself " Mijo said shaking his head.
" Well it’s the thought that counts and I plan on going to visit her so you will deal " She smiled.
" That’s cool " He said kissing her on the cheek.
" Where’s Ty ? " Amina asked me.
" Oh he should be on his way " I smiled.
Everything in Miami was so beautiful. My mom had me renting a one bedroom condo since she knew I was pregnant and I was only going to be here 6 more months. Of course she was against me not telling Chris everyone was but it was my choice. I understood what everyone was telling me though about him having the right to know. So I decided to write him a letter if he writes me back then cool, If he doesn’t then fuck it. Either way I’m keeping this baby even if I have to take care of it alone. I had 6 more months of college life left. I don’t know what I want to do after I finish. I honestly thought about moving to Virginia since that would be the best place to raise a child. My mom moved there last year with her new husband and I know once mama J finds out she would want to help me also. I can’t see myself raising a child in the city. This child was my first priority and I wanted what was best for the child. Jay knew I was pregnant because we built a friendship at first he thought it was his but I told him it wasn’t. He was sad but eventually he got over it.
I was still studying fashion merchandising with a minor in art. I could honestly see myself going far. I wanted to start my own clothing line and have stores all over. I had a great support system behind me which was good. University of Miami was different from USC, completely different but eventually I got use to it. My mom was helping me look for a house in virginia since I only had a little bit of time. I knew I would be giving birth here in my Miami. I was due June 1st but after that I was leaving. Today was my first sonogram and it was so sereal. I loved this baby more than anything and it wasn’t even here yet. I find out the sex next month and I kind of want a boy.
I was just resting in my apartment and studying. I mailed out the letter to chris like three days ago he should get it today. Want to know what the letter said ? Ok.
I know I shouldn’t even be writing you. I know you’ve moved on with your life and I’m honestly happy that you’re happy. You deserve to be happy in everything that you do whether it’s playing basketball or being an artist. I know you’ll suceed. I’m doing good if you care. But I need you to know that I am 3 months pregnant and the baby is yours. I know I should of told you sooner and I’m sorry. You’re probably tired of me apologizing to you already * sigh * I find out the sex of the baby next month. If you want to be apart of the babies life call me. If not I’m sorry for even bothering you.
I chilled with everybody for a little while and had a good time. I was honestly happy right now. There were days where I would think about her and shit. I just find it crazy how she chose him over me you know. I get that he was there for her when she needed someone but shit I loved her I mean I love her. I tried so hard not to think about her all the time. That’s why I haven’t asked Amina to be my girl because I want to be absolutely sure I’m ready to be with another female. Amina is a good girl she’s smart and sweet. She’s the total opposite of Gabby maybe she’s just what I need right now. She know’s everything I went through with Gabby because I told her. I wanted to be honest and she understood. I met Amina at school we have math class together. She would always look my way every time she saw me. I eventually approached her and we’ve been talking ever since.
We drove back to my apartment. I checked the mail and there was mad shit in the mailbox. I pulled it out and went upstairs with Amina. We went in my room and sat down on my bed. I seperated the my mail from the shit that wasn’t mine and asked Amina to put Keeis and Ty shit in the living room for me. I had like 6 letters I looked through all of them and only one of them sticked out. It was from her. I ran my hand over my face and just stared at it. I didn’t even realize Amina came back in the room.
" What’s wrong ? " She asked me. I showed her the envelope and she stared at it then stared at me " Oh " was all she said.
" Should I read it ? " I sighed.
" That’s up to you but I don’t think you should. Aren’t you ready to move on ? " She asked me. I nodded my head yeah and she grabbed the letter from me and I watched her rip it up into little pieces then throw it in the garbage " So move on Chris " She said coming back to the bed.
" I love that you just took control of that situation " I told her.
" Oh I need to be feisty for you to want to be with me ? " She laughed.
" Nah I like you just the way you are " I smirked.
I needed to be alone and think. Everything was so difficult at this point. I couldn’t sleep at all. I told Jay to just go home since I needed to think about everything. They were both sick of waiting and tired of sharing me. I spoke to the girls when I got home and of course they wanted me to choose Chris well except for Nyeka which was shocking. Laila told me to make a list of pros and cons. After all this thinking I eventually started to do it.
Good things about Chris:
Sweet when he wants to be
Faithful ( well when he was with me )
Bad things about Chris:
We argue about petty shit
He walks away before we can solve shit
I don’t know if he fully trust me
He gets mad fast
Good things about Jay:
treats me right
We never argue
he makes me happy
Bad things about Jay:
He’s too sweet
There weren’t really that many bad things about Jay though. Looking at the list it was pretty clear Jay was the better choice but it wasn’t that easy. I saw so confused about everything and nobody could understand how I was feeling. I felt sick to my stomach thinking about all of this. I practically ran to the bathroom and threw up. My stomach felt weird but I didn’t think nothing of it. I layed on my bed and just let my mind wonder. That’s when it hit me, I knew exactly what I wanted to do and it was the best decision for me. It may be selfish but it’s what’s best.
I woke up feeling good about my decision. I got in the shower, ate some food and packed up all my shit. I put my apartment on the market and everything this morning. I was having everything shipped to where I was going. I told the girls what I was doing and they were shocked of course but they knew it was for the best. Of course I was going to miss them but I told them they could visit me whenever and I knew they would especially Manda and Autumn. I finished packing my shit around like 6pm and grabbed four of my suit cases since my boxes where being shipped to my new apartment. My two cars where being shipped too. I went down stairs with my suitcases and got in a cab. I made my way to Chris house and I knew this was going to be the hardest thing ever saying goodbye to him again.The door was open like always and he was sitting on the couch watching a movie. He didn’t smile or say anything, it was like he was expecting the worst.
" Chris " I said and he didn’t saying anything. It was like he was waiting for me to continue " I love you so much but I have to say goodbye " I said as a tear fell from my face. I saw him close his eyes as a tear fell from his eye. It was like a whole was just punched through my chest when I saw that shit.
" I love you too but you obviously don’t love me enough to stay here with me " He said opening his eyes. I looked at his eyes and there was so many emotions hurt, anger and pain. He stood up and wiped the tear away.
" I am so sorry for hurting you again but you deserve better than me anyway and I know you’ll find better " I cried. I got on my tippy toes and kissed him deeply one last time.
" Don’t ask me to be your friend because I can’t do it " He said biting his lip and I nodded my head and hugged him. I backed away and left him. I honestly think I just made the biggest mistake of my life.
I got back into the cab and I honestly cried so hard. I was hyperventilating and shit. Me and Chris were never suppose to end up this way ever. I honestly felt like we were meant to be. We’re only 21 and who knows what the future will bring. I got to the airport and wiped my tears as I got out the cab. I saw Jay standing there all nervous and shit. He turned around and smiled at me.
" Ready to go ? " He asked me.
" I’m ready to go but not with you " I sighed.
" What do you mean ? and why do you have suit cases then ? " He asked.
" I’m leaving L.A and transferring to the University of Miami Florida " I told him.
" Why can’t you just be with me and did you tell him ? " He said.
" Jay you deserve so much better than me and I appreciate you caring about me and always being there when I needed you most but you’re about to do big things and I am so happy for you. I want you to be happy and have fun and live your life. I said bye to him and he probably thinks I’m going with you but I’m not " I said.
" You make me happy though Gabby " He said.
" I know and you make me happy but I need to be alone for now " I said staring straight ahead.
" Final boarding call for Miami, Florida " Someone said through the speaker.
" Well I’ll always be here for you " He told me.
" No matter how famous you get " I smiled a little and he nodded his head " Friends ? " I asked him.
" Friends " He said pulling me into a hug and letting me go. I was honestly happy he wanted to be friends with me. I pulled away from the hug and boarded my plane. I turned around and waved bye one last time.
I have to keep telling myself this is for the best
I think Chris should meet someone too, why does Gabby get to choose when she's the one the messed up in the first place. I think they should fight for each other love if that makes sense. They love each other.
I had like 2 days left to make a decision. The pressure was definitley on. So far everything with Chris was going smoothly. I haven’t seen Jay in two days because he flew to New York for some meeting. He came back this morning though, so I was going to spend time with him. There was a party later and we were going to go. Chris and the crew were going. I just hoped there was no drama at all. Chris was everything these past two days, we laughed, joked around and just enjoyed eachothers company. I saw the old Chris and I was happy to know he could still be himself around me no matter what we’ve been through. Sometimes I could see he was holding back and I couldn’t blame him. He was basically trusting me not to break his heart again. I could tell in his eyes this morning when I left him, he hated this whole situation he asked to be in. I could read him like a book. I knew it was killing him to pratically share me with another guy. I hated hurting him and I hated the thought of hurting him again. At the end of the day I have to follow my heart and do what’s best for me.
It was like 7 o clock and the party was starting at 8. Jay was picking me up so we could go out to eat then go to the party. I decided to wear a black tight dress that was cut out on the sides with some black YSL heels. I was sitting down and waiting till I heard a knock on the door. I opened it and it was Jay with a big ass boquet of pink roses. A smile instantly spread across my face.
" Is this for me ? " I said blushing.
" Nah, it’s for the Lady down the hall " He laughed.
" Fuck outta here " I laughed.
" Give me a kiss " He told me. I leaned in and kissed him. He pulled back from the kiss and walked inside my apartment then place the flowers on the living table " You look sexy as fuck, I mean you look beautiful " He smirked.
" Thank you " I giggled.
" Ready to go ? " He asked me.
" Yes I am " I said. We walk out of my apartment. I locked the door and we headed downstairs to his car. He opened my door and everything. He drove to the restaurant and when we got there he had reservations for us so we went straight in. We both sat down and I felt his eyes on me so I looked back at him and licked my lips " What ? " I laughed.
" I missed you and I feel like you to far from me " He sighed.
" So come over here and sit next to me " I smiled. He got up and sat on the seat next to me " Better ? " I said leaning into him.
" Yes " He said moving my face towards his and kissing me. We stopped the kiss and then ordered our food " I have to tell you something " He told me.
" What is it ? " I asked.
" Well you know how I went to New York and shit ? " I nodded my head yes " Well they want to sign me and they want me to move to New York ASAP and I was thinking if you choose me after this whole situation is done then you can come with me " He said.
" I don’t know " I sighed.
" Just think about it because I can honestly see us together forever. Remember how easy shit was for us in Europe. We were so happy " He sighed.
" I know " I said and it was true everything was always good between us. We never argued and we always had fun " If I choose you when would we leave ? " I asked him.
" Well you got two days left so that night " He told me and I nodded my head. Our food came and we ate and had a good ass conversation. Shit wasn’t always psychical with Jay and I liked that. I seriously grown to like him alot. The way he was so caring, sweet, romantic, honest and respectful, Just made me want to be around him even more. We finished eating at like 9:45pm, got up and headed to the party. I had to take a deep breathe before we went inside this party. I had a bad feeling about this and I don’t know why " You want a drink ? " Jay asked me and I nodded my head yes. He got me cranberry juice and grey goose. My favorite drink.
I started looking around as Jay sat close to me with his arm around me bopping his head to the music. I spotted Manda, Autumn, Nyeka, Ty, Nino, Keeis and Mijo. Laila’s pregnant ass must’ve been home resting. I got up and grabbed Jay’s hand as we went over to the crew. I knew Chris was here, he was probably somewhere being ratchet as fuck. I got to the crew and said hi to everyone, so did Jay. He was friendly with everyone which was cool. He was mature something Chris lacked sometimes. Jay was whispering shit in my ear causing me to laugh and shit. I looked up and I saw Chris dancing with some girl. She was grinding all over his dick and he was loving every minute of it. I saw him bring her to the corner and they were real close. I tried not to get jealous but I couldn’t help it. I tried to block him out and started flirting with Jay. I saw Chris looking at me from the corner of my eyes. I grabbed Jay’s face and kissed him. Of course he kissed me back.
" I’m ready to get you out of that dress " He whispered into my ear causing me to giggle.
" Oh really " I said before kissing his neck. I could feel Chris stares burning a whole through my face. Last thing I wanted to do was make him jealous or anything so I got up and went to talk to Manda and the rest of the girls for a little while. Jay saw one of his best friends and his cousins so he called them over and started having a conversation with them.
" shots shots shots " Autumn sang as a round of shots came to us. We threw them back like nothing. We got up and started dancing to some reggae song that was playing and shit. All the girls were grinding on each other like we always do. I looked over at Chris and he was talking to mijo while that girl was whispering shit in his ear. I also noticed Jay was grilling the shit out of him. After a while I went to the bathroom since I had to pee. I came out the stall and Chris was standing there smiling.
" What " I rolled my eyes.
" come here " he told me.
" Go to your bitch " I said drying my hands.
" Stop playing " he said moving extra close to me and kissing me on the cheek.
" You ain’t shit " I smiled shaking my head. I could never stay mad at him no matter how hard I tried.
" You missed me ? " he said grabbing my face and making me look at me. I nodded my head yes and he kissed me cheek then my neck then pecked my lips " Tell your man to stop grilling me before we have problem " he said gripping my ass and I knew he meant it.
" Focus on me and that’s it " I told him.
" Trust me I am " he said licking his lips and kissing me again.
We walked out the bathroom together and he had his arm around me. We were both laughing because he was being silly. Jay looked at me then shook his head and looked away. This whole situation sucked and I had three days left. I was standing by myself since Chris went to go get drinks and shit. That’s when Jay walked over to me.
" You good ? " He said pressing against my ass and wrapping his arms around my waist.
" Yeah " I said swaying my hips on him as we danced to the music.
I had went to the bar to get drinks for the crew with Mijo and shit. This bitch Yecenia came out of nowhere son. She tried scooting closer and closer to me. I was so annoyed with this bitch like what the fuck is her problem. Then to top it off this nigga Jay was here and he had a serious staring problem like he was a bitch or something. I looked up and saw him and Gabby dancing. Deep down I was tight but what could I do ? It was up to her and honestly i have no idea who she’s going to choose and I’m honestly tired of fucking waiting. I want to be with her and put the past in the past. I’m willing to do that because I honestly still love her. I’ve been trying to prove that to her every time we together. Me and Mijo went back to the crew. Jay had Gabby leaning against the wall when I went to hand her, her drink he backed up into me causing me to spill that shit on my shirt. He turned around and didn’t even say my bad. I clenched my jaw and looked at Gabby.
" Oh my god. I’m sorry " she told me.
" Its not your fault " I said clenching my jaw again. This nigga was aggravating the shit out of me. I took of my shirt and just threw it somewhere before walking away from them and Gabby’s eyes were all over me. I stood next to Mijo and just smirked.
" Yo did that nigga even apologize ? " he asked me.
" Nope " I said as I watched Yecenia walk towards me and Gabby had an angry look on her face when she saw her.
" Chris I miss you " she said leaning against me and whispering in my ear.
" Thats wassup " I told her.
" You know you want this " She said placing my hands on her ass. Gabby was grilling the shit out of me. I started laughing.
" Chill " I laughed and pushed her away gently.
" I don’t know why you tripping off of that stupid bitch " She screamed pointing at Gabby. Gabby started approaching her and Nyeka was right behind her.
" Who the fuck you pointing at ? " Gabby said getting in her face. I pushed Gabby away and got in between them.
" Babe let it go " I said staring at Gabby and she was calming down. Nyeka came out of nowhere though and pushed Yecenia on the floor. Her and Yecenia was going back and forth throwing punches till I took my eyes off Gabby. Gabby kicked Yecenia on the floor and then Manda and Autumn jumped in. She was getting fucked up bad. We stopped the girls and Yecenia ran outside but they ran after her. Shit was out of control. When we ran outside, Gabby slammed her face on a car and Nyeka was kicking her in the side. I grabbed Gabby before she could kick Yecenia in the face. " Gabby chill the fuck out " I yelled at her " chill " I said hugging her and I felt her little ass calming down as she hugged me back. These bitches always fighting man but this fight was crazy.
" Get off of her " Jay yelled. I turned around and looked at that nigga like he was crazy.
" Jay he was calming me down chill out " She told him.
" He’s the reason you’re in this bullshit. That’s his bitch get the fuck out of here. This nigga don’t deserve you. Fuck this nigga " He said through his teeth.
" Fuck you say nigga " I said stepping into his face. Gabby tried to grab me but I snatch my arm away. I been waiting to fuck this nigga up.
" You fucking heard me you all about this bullshit and drama. You let her go why the fuck you want her back now " He said shaking his head. I laughed in his face.
" You should be happy I let you have her temporarily bitch " I told him that’s when he punched me in my Jaw. I blacked out and we started fucking each other up. He was a challenge though he stood his ground. We were going blow for blow. Until I finally got the upper hand. I was punching him hard.
" Chris stop " Gabby yelled. Mijo eventually ran over to me and put me into a bear hug. I watched as Gabby ran to Jays aid and helped him up.
" Fuck you nigga " Jay yelled.
" I’m sick of this shit " I yelled " You need to make a decision im tired of fucking waiting " I said angrily.
" Chris " Gabby sobbed.
" I refuse to share you anymore " Jay told her " I’m leaving tomorrow night and if you choose me you’re coming too " He said. I had no idea what he was talking about though.
" Jay " She said sadly.
" I told you if you choose me I want you to move with me to New York and if you do choose me I don’t want you around him " Jay said to her.
" I’m done with this shit " I yelled at her " You have till tomorrow it’s either me or him. You know where to fucking find me " I said getting out of Mijo’s grip and walking away.
Jay had just left to chill with his cousins today since he stood over last night. We weren’t going out anymore tonight because his family wanted to spend time with him. I didn’t mind at all, family comes first you know. I beat that bitch ass last night and I had a feeling that shit wasn’t over with her at all. That bitch was psycho like what kind of bitches was Chris fucking with. I felt bad though about getting mad at him. I thought this was what he wanted. He said he was going to give me time but when he found out I was with Jay before I was with him he spazzed out on me. We were having a good night and that shit got ruined over some petty shit. I want to be able to keep it 100 with him and Jay always and it’s not for them to get jealous. I don’t know what I’m going to do but shit with Chris isn’t looking so good already. I just want the old Chris back and I know that’s asking for alot because I’m the one that made him change. If I could just see that the old him is still there then maybe just maybe shit with us will work out. Everything in the beginning was so perfect. I want that old thing back.
I was just in my house watching tv with nothing but a big tank top on bored out of my mind. I had nothing to do today everybody was busy and I wanted to call Chris but I knew he was mad at me. He was probably with some hoe anyway knowing him. I was texting Laila and she had told me she wanted me to be the god mother of the baby since she’s closest with me and I was the one that introduced her to Mijo. I was really happy about that. She became one of my best friends here in L.A. I was watching a scary movie when someone started knocking on my door. Which was weird because I wasn’t expect nobody. I got up and went to the door. I looked through the peep hole and it was Chris. I didn’t even know he knew where I lived. I opened the door slowly and he was standing there with his hands in his pockets. I stared at him for a couple of seconds.
" You going to let me in or ? " He asked staring back at me.
" Um yeah " I said moving out of the way.
" Your apartment is dope " He said looking around.
" Thanks " I smiled. He looked down at the scratches on my arm and clenched his jaw.
" You okay ? " He asked me.
" Yeah I am " I sighed while rubbing my arm.
" I came to apologize " He said looking down.
" For what ? " I asked.
" For trying to start an argument with you for something that I wanted you to agree to " He said sitting down on the couch.
" I know it’s hard but I just want a little time like a week or two. That way I can spend time with both of you. I know it’s not fair for you to be in this situation after everything I put you through trust me I know that Chris " I said.
" Just don’t have me waiting forever " He said laughing a little.
" I won’t " I said standing there awkwardly.
" So what were you doing before I came here " He asked me.
" Nothing in my room watching nightmare on elm street " I said and he started laughing.
" I know you scared of that shit so why you watching it " He smirked.
" Cause I’m bored. Do you want to watch it with me in my room ? " I asked him.
" Ight " He said getting up and following me into my room. Jay’s sneakers were there and I saw him glance at it but he didn’t say anything so I just grabbed them and threw them in the closet.
" Sorry " I said climbing on my bed and laying down on my stomach.
" Don’t worry about it " He said taking off his shoes and laying next to me " You painted that ? " He asked me pointing to a painting in my room.
" Yeah, you like it ? " I asked him.
" Yeah it’s nice " He said smiling.
" Maybe I’ll paint you something one day " I said moving closer to him.
" That would be dope " He said moving my hair out of my face and kissing my forehead. The right there was the old Chris and I felt butterflies. I pressed play and we continued watching the movie from where it left off. Scary ass movie. Everytime I jumped I would move closer and closer to him. He would laugh at me but this shit wasn’t funny. I was practically on top of him by now and his eyes were on me. I eventually looked at him.
" What ? " I giggled.
" Scary ass " He said laughing.
" Shut up " I said rolling my eyes.
" Make me " He smirked.
" How about you make me make you shut up nigga " I said seductively.
" You gonna let me taste you " He whispered causing me to drop the remote. Shit like this always got me. I didn’t say anything and he moved my face towards his and kissed me. We kissed slow at first and our kisses became hungrier and hungrier. It was like our bodies wanted eachother badly. He went in between my legs. I didn’t know how far we were going to go but my body was ready. I didn’t have any underwear on and I felt his hands creep to my middle. He moved his index finger in a circular motion on my clit. His long fingers always knew what they were doing. He leaned his head into the crook of my neck and left soft kisses. I pulled off his shirt and admired his body until his lips met mine again. Our tongues twirled around eachother and every now and then I would bite or suck on his bottom lip. He dipped to of his fingers into my pussy as they went in and out of me. I was moaning and my pussy was dripping. " I missed this pussy " He whispered in my ear " Take this shit off " He told me aggressively. I pulled off my shirt and I was completely naked. He stared at my body and licked his lips.
" You going to stare at me all day " I said biting on my bottom lip. I pulled him back down and began kissing him again. He kissed and licked on my neck then he went down to my tits. He sucked the right nipple as he caressed the left one and then he sucked the left nipple as he caressed the right one. He went down to my stomach and then he went down to thighs and placed my legs around his neck. He looked up at me as his lips were in front of my pussy. He stuck his tongue out and spread my pussy lips with his long ass tongue. He started licking and sucking on my pussy slow. My breathing was heavy and my moans were light as I caressed my boobs. I massged the top of his head as his two fingers entered me. His fingers and his tongue moved at the same pace. Jay never did it like this but it was good. Chris was just better at it and I honestly missed it. His tongue started going in a circular motion against my clit as he picked up his speed. " Fuck Chrisssssss keep going baby " I moaned. I felt my legs start to shake and so did he but he got up before I caught an orgasm.
" Lay on my face and make yourself cum " He said laying down next to me. Without hesitation I climbed on his face and started riding his tongue. I rolled my hips and grinded on his tongue. This shit felt so good. My legs start to shake again as Chris gripped my ass. I threw my head back and caught an orgasm. I felt his tongue lick and suck me all up. I climbed off his face and sat on his lap. I bent down and kissed him again. This time our kissing was rough. We both wanted it. It was like we needed it our life depended on it. I sucked on his neck leaving him a hickey then trail kisses from his chest to his stomach. I pulled down his sweatpants along with his boxers. His dick was stiff as fuck and it looked like it grew. I was just staring at it until he said something " Like what you see ? " He said smirking.
" mmmmm " I said before putting his whole dick in my mouth.
" Shit " He muttered. I licked up and down his shaft and sucked on the tip of his dick while I jerked it. I stared up at him and he was breathing heavy. I deepthroated his dick fast causing him to grunt. I felt his hands get tangled in my hair as his dick entered my throat. I started sucking the tip again and jerked him off fast as my other hand played with his balls. I could tell he was loving this shit. I felt his dick twitch in my hand as he released in my mouth. I swallowed every last drop.
" I want you inside me " I told him as I liked my lips. He watched me as I talked " You have condoms ? " I asked him. I had condoms but him and Jay weren’t the same size.
" I only got one babe " He told me as he grabbed it out of his wallet that was in his sweatpants.
" So lets make that one condom worth it then " I winked as I opened the condom and put it on his dick.
" Go lean against the wall " He told me. He watched me as I walked over to the wall and began playing with myself. He watched me until I made myself catch an orgasm
" You’re so beautiful " He told me as he walked towards me. He pressed his body on mind and leaned down to kiss me. He lifted me up against the wall and I wrapped my legs around him. He pulled back a little as he slid his dick into me slowly.
" Oh my god " I gasped.
" Shit you tight " He grunted into my ear as he continued to go all the way in. He started off slow and sensual. I could feel his dick in my stomach but it felt so good. He was kissing on my neck as my moans got louder and louder as his thrust got faster and faster. His dick game was so amazing. Everything about it. I felt his hand go around my neck as he stared into my eyes. He knew I loved the aggressiveness during sex. He knew my body so well. He started going extremely fast and my moans turned into screams.
" YES CHRISSSSSSSSSSSSSS " I yelled.
" Who’s pussy is this ? " He asked me aggressively as his thrust got deeper and deeper with each stroke. I didn’t say anything though " Answer me " He told me choking me slightly harder.
" It’s yours it’s always going to be yours it missed you " I moaned then bit on to my lip. He left his dick deep inside me as we made out. Then out of nowhere he started stroking me deep and fast. He carried me to the chair that was in my room and sat on it with me on top of him.
" Show me this pussy missed this dick " He said rougly. I started bouncing on his dick like my life depended on it. He was kissing all over my chest as he gripped my ass. Eventually I started rolling my hips and grinding on his dick something I knew he always loved " Damn baby just like that " He said staring into my eyes. Our bodies were sweating like crazy. I felt his dick twitch inside me as we both came at the same time. I leaned into him and wrapped my arms around his neck. His dick was still inside me but I was just trying to make the moment last. He started rubbing my back before grabbing my face and leaving tap kisses on my lips. He was being sweet. Shit like this was the reason why I was holding on.
I can’t believe I’m going to be a father. Everything about this shit was exciting. Laila moved in with me because I wanted to be there for her and the baby through everything. She’s only five months but her and that baby are my life. I’m going to take care of my responsiblities. I could seriously see myself marrying this girl. She rides for me like no other girl I been with. All my boys and my brother could see how much she means to me. Not to sound like a pussy but she got my heart.
Me and Laila were just kicking back as she sat in between my legs. She was studying while I was playing a video game. Chris had told me about Gabby getting into a fight with Yecenia and that she fucked her up. Shit, that was good for that rude bitch if you ask me. Laila told me about her wanting Gabby to be the godmother and I was cool with it. Afterall she’s the reason we met. I had paused the game and just thought about my brother Chris cause I want that nigga to be happy like I am and I know there’s only one girl that can do that. I don’t know where both of their heads are at right now.
" What’s wrong ? " Laila asked me.
" Nothing " I said.
" Stop lying " She said turning to face me and sitting indian style in between my legs.
" Do you think they’ll get back together ? " I asked her.
" You just want your brother to be happy huh " She said rubbing my face.
" Yeah and Gabby makes him happy " I told her.
" Eventually shit will work out it takes time and that’s exactly what they’re doing taking their time until they both know what they want babe " She sighed. She was right too.
" I just hope she picks chris " I laughed.
" Me too honestly " She laughed with me. She was starting to show and I saw her touch her stomach " I swear something just moved " She said grabbing my hand for me to feel it.
" WOW " I yelled with excitement " Hey baby " I said talking to her stomach and it moved again like it knew I was it’s father.
" I’m so lucky to have both of you " Laila told me.
" I love you " I said smiling and kissing her.
" I love you too " She said against my lips.
" Let’s get dress since we’re meeting everyone at the carnival " I told her.
We shower and got dressed. Laila wore a long summer dress with sandals and I just threw on a black v-neck some army cargos and jordans. I got in my ferrari with Laila and we drove to the carnival. I didn’t know if Chris was bringing anyone because he told us he was coming by himself. When we got there I saw him getting out his car then opening the passenger door to his lambo and Gabby got out of the car. They must of made up.
After Gabby and I had that great make up sex I told her to shower and pack a bag cause she was staying with me tonight. She showered and threw on these short ripped shorts and a cropped white tank top with her olympic 7s. We went back to my house to drop off her bag and so that I could change and shit. I decided on wearing a white v-neck with khaki pants and red vans. Everybody was meeting up at the carnival on the boardwalk at like 7. Nobody knew Gabby was coming with me shit I didn’t even know she was coming but I put the bullshit to the side because I want her and I want all of her. I’m not afraid to admit when I’m wrong. We got in my new Lamborgini and headed to the carnival. When we got there Mijo and Laila were the first two there.
" Well, Well, Well " Mijo laughed.
" Hey bitch " Laila said to Gabby then hugged her.
" This is a nice surprise " Mijo smirked.
" Man shut up " I laughed while putting my arm around Gabby.
" Where’s everybody else ? " Gabby asked and as soon as she asked that Keeis escalde pulled up.
" Speaking of the devils " Laila laughed.
" Your favorite bitch is here " Manda said loud as hell.
" Bitch shut the fuck up nobody here for you " Nyeka laughed.
" CLOCKED " Nino laughed.
" Let me be great bitch " Manda said sticking up her middle finger.
" Hey Gabby " Autumn said hugging her.
" The crew back at it again " Keeis said.
" We about to fuck the city up " Tyga laughed.
" Yeah yeah yeah now lets go " Laila said grabbing mijos hand.
We all went inside the carnival and just had mad fun. Gabby made me win her this big ass minnie mouse teddy bear from this basketball game. She was walking around with it and the shit was bigger than her. I don’t know how that shit was going to fit in my car. We went on all the rides. For a carnival this shit had dope ass rides. We overall were having a good night. I sat down and Gabby was sitting on my lap as we shared a funnel cake. Shit was going smooth between us until somebody started calling her name. It was this nigga. I watched her as she got up and went over to him. They exchanged a few words and he introduced her to whoever the fuck he was with. That nigga kept grilling me and I was about 2.5 seconds from punch that nigga in the face. He kissed her on the lips and in the back of my mind I was like how my dick taste you bitch ass nigga. She walked back over to me and I didn’t want to look upset so I just smiled at her. I don’t know why I decided on this arrangement it was killing me to see her with another nigga. I know if I keep pretending this shit is okay I’m going to explode at any minute which isn’t good. I didn’t want her to feel bad though.
" You okay " She asked me snapping me out of my thoughts.
" I’m trying " I sighed and looked away.
" I’m sorry " She told me.
" It’s fine " I told her. She moved my face towards her.
" Don’t be afraid to tell me how you feel Chris. You know I can tell when somethings bothering you " She sighed.
" I’m just trying to get use to this whole idea and I honestly just want this shit to be over already even though it just started " I said.
" A week " She said touching my hand.
" Okay that’s fair " I said " 6 days left " I said staring at her.
" Yes " She said eating some of the funnel cake.
I honestly just hope she picked me. Hopefully this week goes by fast because I don’t know how much of this sharing shit I can take.
It’s been like 5 days since Gabby told me about everything that happened between her and Chris. She told me about the voicemail, the kiss and the ultimatum he gave her. I was vexed about the whole situation and I knew this shit was coming. I knew she still loved him and I honestly knew I fucking loved her even though I never told her that. I knew getting into this situation wasn’t going to be easy. Why would I want to share someone I love ? fuck out of here. I haven’t really spoken to her only thing we been doing is texting. She would always tell me she was thinking. Think about what though ? I think we should be helping her make this decision. May the best man win. I want her to be happy and I honestly know I can make her happy. I made her happy when she had no one. I made her want to be herself again. I just knew all of this was going to happen once we got back to L.A. because she wasn’t over this nigga at all. I’m trying to win someones heart that loves someone else. I feel like I could make her fall in love with me though that’s why I’m willing to fight for this fucking relationship. All I been doing lately is texting her and grinding in the studio. Pouring all of my emotions into my music. We started school and shit. I had to figure out what I was going to do and how I was going to make Gabby choose me. I didn’t want to smuther her though. I wanted her to come to me. Last thing I am is a insecure nigga. I know I fucking got this.
I made my way over to her crib because I wanted to see her. I didn’t like this whole arrangement. I gotta share my girl with some nigga who wanted nothing to do with her till she makes up her fucking mind. Call me crazy but i’m going to do it but if this nigga says some dumb shit to me, I’m punching him dead in his face. I’m confident she’ll choose me I was there for her when he wasn’t. Fuck that nigga. I know how niggas like him operate so I’m play shit cool and not argue with her. He’s going to fuck up watch and they going to start arguing sooner rather then later. I stopped in front of her building in my Benz and she was walking towards her car so I beeped my horn and she made her way over to me.
" Hey " she smiling.
" Get in I’ll take you wherever you going ma " I told her as she got in my car. She was wearing these short ass Levi shorts and a see through tank top with sandals looking sexy as ever. I leaned in and kissed her for like 2 minutes and pulled back " where you going ? "
" To the girls house " I nodded my head and started driving.
" I thought you hated me " She said watching me as I drove.
" nah not at all. I just thought this whole situation was fucked up to be honest. I was there for you and my feelings are genuine but I’m willing to do whatever I have to do to show you I’m the right nigga for you " I told her.
" I’m sorry " she side and I rubbed her thigh.
" It’s cool babe I kind of expected this " I laughed a little.
" I missed you though " she sighed.
" I know but can I ask you something " I asked and she nodded her head " have you seen him since that party ?" I pulled up to a red light and looked at her.
" Honestly no I haven’t, I was just taking time to think about everything you know ? " she said watching my face.
" I just want you to promise to keep it real with me iight ? No matter what it is " I sighed.
" I promise " She said rubbing my face.
" So can we go out to dinner tomorrow " I asked.
" Yes " she said without hesitation " I feel like a hoe " She said shaking her head.
" Why ? " I already knew why though.
" I’m going to be shared between y’all " she said rolling her eyes.
" Just think of it as a dilemma " I laughed. I was trying to be calm about this situation but deep down I didn’t like it one bit but I wanted her and I was going to get her. I pulled up in front of the girls building and turned my car off " I’ll pick you up at like 7 tomorrow night " I said.
" Ok kirkoooo " She sang causing me to laugh.
" Come here " I said seductively. She smirked and climbed on top of my lap and I kissed her like I never kissed her before. Rough and passionate. I felt over her body as she bit my bottom lip. " have fun " I told her.
" Bye baby " she smiled and I opened the door. She climbed off my lap and fixed her shorts. She walked to the building and turned around and waved bye then I drove off.
I was chilling with the crew at the girls crib. It was like a little get together kind of. There was food, liquor, music and weed. It was just the crew though me, Mijo, Keeis, Tyga, Nino, Manda, autumn, nyeka and Laila. Everybody was chilling. Us niggas and Manda were already high and shit. Autumn and Nyeka were drinking. Laila couldn’t participate so she was drinking water and shit but she was still having a good time. Everybody knew what happened between Gabby and I. I told the niggas and these niggas told they bitches like always. I haven’t spoken to Gabby, I was still waiting for her to get back to me. I knew she already told that nigga about it because she told manda, manda told Keeis and Keeis told me. I just wanted to speak to her already. It took a lot in me to make this decision.
We was all just bopping our heads to the music and shit when someone knocked on the door. Laila got up to open it since none of us weren’t getting up. I looked back to see who it was and when she opened the door it was Gabby.
" You’re late bitch " Laila told her. Fuck she looked sexy.
" Shut up. I was on my way and got caught up " She laughed. I was staring at her and I licked my lips.
" Stop staring so hard nigga " Keeis laughed causing me to laugh.
" Fuck you nigga " I smirked. She said hi to everybody, got a drink then say down next to me.
" Hi " She said smiling at me. I looked at her and licked my lips.
" Sup " I smirked.
" Take this shot bitch " Autumn said handing her a shot and she took threw that shit straight back.
" You want to talk ? " I asked her and She nodded her head yes.
" Y’all can talk in my room " Manda said smiling mad hard causing me to laugh.
" You’re weird " I laughed. Gabby went in the room first and I locked the door behind us. I looked at her up and down as she stood there looking back at me. I was so ready to rip that see through shirt off of her but I handled myself.
" So … " She said sitting down and tapping the spot next to her I can sit.
" So what you been doing ? " I asked her sitting down beside her.
" Just thinking about stuff " I shrugged.
" Did you tell that bitch nigga everything " I said shaking my head.
" Why he gotta be a bitch nigga though ? and yes " She said. I clenched my jaw cause she was defending him.
" and ? " I asked her.
" He’s cool with it. He said he’s willing to fight for me till I figure out what I want " She said staring straight ahead.
" But are you cool with being put in this situation " I asked her.
" I guess " She sighed.
" You guess ? " I said as she looked at me.
" I don’t want to hurt nobody and I’ve already hurt you before Chris " She said staring into my eyes.
" Don’t even worry about that. You did fuck me up and I went months without speaking to anybody. I didn’t speak to my mom, my brother or anybody in the crew. They were all worried about me but I’m trying to move past that since I still love you and last thing I want to do is make you feel bad about anything. I did enough of that " I said rubbing my hand over my face.
" I really am sorry " She said playing with her fingers. She always did that shit when she was nervous. I could read her like a book. I knew exactly what she was feeling by looking at her face.
" I see that but shit with me isn’t going to be easy. I got so use to not being tied down but I’m willing to try just for you and if you choose him in the end then that’s on you " I sighed.
" I feel like I don’t deserve either of you " She said with her voice cracking " I feel like you two deserve way better than me and I deserve to be alone " She said closing her eyes as a tear fell.
" Don’t say that. You deserve to be happy. I may not have thought like that before but you made a mistake we all make mistakes " I said wiping the tears from her eyes. I didn’t want to see her cry. I got up and leaned against Mandas desk that she had in her room. I looked up at the ceiling as I heard Gabbys sniffles. Shit was crazy I was suppose to hate her but I found myself falling in love all over again. I feel like I’m setting myself up to get hurt again. Somethings telling me shit will be different now and shit will be better so I’m holding on. People can change and relationships can become better.
" Hug me " She told me. I looked at her and opened my arms. She walked to me and wrapped her arms around my neck. I hugged her tight and I honestly never wanted to let her go. Shit was crazy what happened to me not giving a fuck ? Fuck yo. I pulled from the hug a little bit and stared into her eyes. It was like we were having a deep as conversation with out eyes and her eyes were watery. After a while she leaned in and kissed me. Our lips meshed together perfectly. Kissing her was so different it was more passion to it. I guess since we haven’t been together for so long it was our way of saying we missed eachother. She caressed my face as my hands caressed her sides and shit. It was getting more and more intense so I had to stop myself.
" Let’s go back out there " I told her and she sighed " What’s wrong ? " I asked her.
" Nothing " She said heading towards the door.
" Tell me " I said.
" I was just thinking about all the good times we had and shit. I hate myself for fucking up and I hate myself for putting you in this situation. Both of you want me and it’s like I don’t know " She said with her back towards me. I went close behind her.
" I’m giving time to think about what you want but I won’t wait forever. Just go with the flow and follow your heart when the time comes " I whispered into her ear " Now smile and let’s enjoy ourselves with the crew " I said opening the door and pushing her out the room with my dick causing her to laugh.
They were both giving me time and I felt like I was in the notebook. Remember how at the end she had to choose between her first love and fiance, yeah that’s exactly what this shit felt like. I don’t know what direction I should go in and my heart doesn’t know either but my mind is telling me Jay. Time is what I need but not too much time. I know they both won’t share me forever. I have two great guys ready to fight for me but which one am I willing to fight for ? This whole situation sucked.
Me and Chris went back out to chill with the crew. Manda and Autumn knew I was stressing about this shit. They could read me better than anybody. I kept taking shots with Autumn so I didn’t have to think about it and at this point I was feeling beyond nice. Me and Manda were dancing in the middle of the living room while chris was just staring at me. Somebody knocked on the door and we all had no idea who it could be. I opened the door and surprise, surprise it was Chris stalker Yecenia. She was grilling the shit out of me.
" How may I be of some assistance ? " I said laughing. She was obviously pressed.
" Don’t you got a man to go home to ? " She said rolling her eyes.
" Maybe I do, Maybe I don’t " I laughed even harder.
" Chris your dog is here " Nyeka yelled at him.
" What the fuck ? " He said angrily. I was trying to hold in my laughter but Manda and Autumn started laughing OD hard.
" Hey baby I came to see if you want to you know " She said seductively. I was still holding the door open and he came up close behind me with his dick on my ass.
" Seriously ? So you’re stalking me now my nigga " He asked.
" No, I just …. " She started to say.
" This bitch is so desperate for dick " Nyeka laughed.
" Bitch fuck you " She yelled.
" Sorry I like dick maybe you can fuck a crackhead down the street " Nyeka said and I started laughing again. I leaned my head back on Chris as I looked up at him. He looked so cute when he was angry.
" Can you just leave me alone " He sighed.
" Yeah bitch leave my brother alone your pussy obviously ain’t that good " Mijo said.
" Shut the fuck up you weak ass nigga " Yecenia said to him.
" Bitch if I wasn’t pregnant I would beat your mother fucking ass " Laila said grilling the shit out of her. Chris wrapped his arms around my waist and she stared at him pissed.
" Can you just go ? " He asked her.
" No, not without you " She said looking like she was about to cry. I just shook my head and got out of Chris grip. I went to sit down next to Manda.
" Just leave man. You making yourself look dumb " He told her and just closed the door in her face.
" Chris can you take me home ? " I asked him.
" Where’s your car ? " he asked.
" I left it at my house " I told him.
" So how did you get here ? " He questioned.
" Um…. Jay drove me " I said and his whole facial reaction changed.
" Welp time to go lets go babe " Mijo said to Laila they got up and left with Nyeka and Nino. Keeis and Manda went to her room. Ty and Autumn went to her room also.
" You mean to tell me you was with that nigga before you came here ? " He asked me.
" He stopped me when I was leaving my house and he wanted to drive me so I let him " I sighed.
" Unbelieveable " He said clenching his jaw.
" Excuse me " I said confused.
" That shit is crazy how you was with him and then decided to come here like get the fuck out of here " He said loudly.
" Hold on this is what the fuck you want though. You want me to choose between both of y’all right so what the fuck you getting mad for nigga " I said annoyed but he didn’t say anything because I was right. We just started talking and this nigga trying to argue with me over something he decided " You know what I’m going to take a fucking cab " I said slamming the door. I went outside and that bitch Yecenia was standing there. I was texting Jay to see if he could pick me up since I didn’t know any cab numbers. He told me he was like 5 minutes away and shit since he was at the studio.
" Why did you have to come back bitch " She yelled " He was perfectly happy with me " She said stepping to me.
" I suggest you back the fuck up " I told her.
" Or what bitch ? You not about that life " She screamed in my face then slapped my phone out of my hand. I went to pick up my phone since it didn’t break and she kicked me to the ground. She got on top of me but I was to quick so I flipped her over and started fucking her up. At this point I was so mad. I punched her in her face so many times I lost count. I heard someone calling my name but I was clearly blacked out. I started pulling her hair and banging her head on the floor as she kept scratching the shit out of my arm. I was pulled off of her but I didn’t know by who until I actually looked. It was Jay. He had lifted me up and placed me next to his car.
" Baby what the fuck ? Calm down. Breathe " He told me shaking me a little.
" I could fucking kill that bitch " I yelled to him.
" Shhhh just relax " He said kissing my forehead. Chris came downstairs unaware of the situation. He saw Jay walking towards Yecenia.
" Yo what the fuck ? " He said with his eyes wide.
" I came and they were fighting " Jay told him as Yecenia tried to get up. Chris didn’t say anything though " I guess you can handle her " Jay shrugged.
" Yeah iight nigga " Chris said with an attitude as he stared at me. Jay looked between us and he could clearly see I was pissed.
" Day one of this whole thing that you wanted and you already fucking up " Jay laughed and shook his head. Chris started grilling him and getting angry by the minute. I just shook my head and got in Jay’s car " We’ll see who wins my nigga but I’m one up already " Jay said loudly as he walked back to his car. Chris was standing there pissed off and I was too mad because of that bitch to say anything to Chris. I just stared out the window as Jay drove off and let all these thoughts flood my mind.
Last night somebody called me and didn’t say anything. I had no idea who it was. I woke up at like 11:00am to get ready so I could meet up with Autumn. Jay had left early so he could go to work. My phone was off because I was charging it. I went in the bathroom to shower and shit. I came out the bathroom with my towel wrapped around me and sat on my bed. I turned on the phone and it said that I had a new voicemail. I decided to check it and it was it was him.
" Hey Gabby it’s me Chris. I feel dumb calling you right now to be honest. I know we haven’t had a chance to talk and that’s because you hurt me bad and I don’t know how to face you with out being angry. You fucked me up so bad. You don’t even understand what the fuck I’m feeling. I loved you with everything I fucking had and you fucked my best friend. That shit wasn’t even cool. All those times you would say this shit is too good to be true and you wanted to know when I was going to fuck up. The funny thing is you were the one that messed everything up, you not me. I don’t mean to sound like a bitch right now but you basically ripped my heart out and stomped on it. You think running away from your problems for two years and coming back was going to fix shit well it didn’t. I hate that I still love you, I hate you for what you did, I hate you for leaving, I hate you for making me feel empty. I fuck different bitches but it’s like no matter what I do I can’t get my mind off you. You got a new nigga but I bet you still think about me too, you still think about the times we had and the way I made you feel. I’m so drunk right now and I’ve been holding so much shit in and it’s just pouring out. Remember when I would fuck you and the way you use to scream my name " He laughed " Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to hold you in my arms again and what kissing you would be like after all this time but then I go back to hating you all over again. I’d be lying if I said I didn’t still love you but my pride won’t let me show it. Gabby I don’t know how you could just come back and just be moved on. I know you still love me and that’s not fair to that nigga at all. He could never be me so stop trying to make something happen that’s not for you. I’m not hating on the nigga but I feel like you keeping him around to hide the pain just like I keep these bitches around so I don’t have to think about you. I don’t even know if I’m ready to forgive you yet " The phone clicked off and I was left in tears.
He still loved me and that was honestly all I wanted to hear. I don’t know what to do. I honestly don’t even know if I’m in love with Jay yet. My tears kept flowing and it brought back all the pain and heart ache I felt when I first left to Europe. I cried for months over this boy and tried to reach out to him but not once did he respond. I couldn’t blame him he needed time he was fucking hurt and I was the one who caused all of it. I honestly didn’t even want to meet up with Autumn anymore, I wanted to crawl under my blanket and cry until I had nothing left. But I needed to resolve things with Autumn so I got dressed anyway. I washed my face before I left my house and drove to the place I was meeting her at. She was already sitting there look nervous and shit. Meanwhile all I could think about was that voicemail.
" Hey " I said sitting down and giving her a small smile.
" Hi " She said.
" Sorry if I made you wait " I said to her.
" No it’s ok I just got here " She told me. We got quite for a couple of minutes before she finally spoke.
" I’m going to talk but you have to promise me you’re going to listen and not interupt me " She said getting down to buisness.
" Ok " I sighed and prepared myself for whatever she was going to say.
" Gabby you hurt me so fucking bad you don’t understand. You were like a sister to me and you knew I was having trust issues with Ty, you knew he cheated on me before. I don’t care if you were drunk. It still happened and it ruined everything. What hurts the most is that you just left and ran away without facing the issues. I feel like you didn’t care so you just left and I know that’s not the case. You felt like everyone hated you and I honestly I did. You never even apologized to me. You were my best fucking friend who fucked the boy that I love. Do you get that. If you were in my position you would understand exactly how I’m feeling. I’m tired of hating you and not being able to hang out with you. I’m going to forgive you but don’t make me regret it please. Manda wants us all to be together again and deep down I want that to. I’m willing to take it day by day and just finally put all this bullshit behind us " She said wiping the tears from her face.
" I’m truly am sorry from the bottom of my heart. I know I left but it was what I felt was right at the time. I needed to face things on my own. I couldn’t stand the fact of everyone hating me. I dealt with it in my own way in europe. I can apologize a million times to you and still be mad at myself for hurting you the way I did. We grew up together and you didn’t deserve that al all. I’m so so so so so sorry and I will do anything to make this friendship go back to the way it was " I said as a tear fell from my eye.
" I forgive you Gabby after all this time I’m honestly ready to forgive you and just move on " She told me.
" I fucked everything up and I honestly never thought I would ever hear that from you " I said taking a deep breath.
" It took me a while trust me " She said smiling " Oh and I’m sorry I was rude to you the other day and thank you for helping me " She said drinking her water.
" Hug please ? I need one " I told her. We both got up and hugged eachother for what seemed liked forever. We ate mad food and she insisted that I go back with her to hang out with her, manda, nyeka and Laila. I drove behind her and when we got up there their eyes were on us.
" Please tell me y’all made up " Manda sighed looking at us.
" No fuck this bitch I hate her " Autumn said and we both started laughing.
" YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS " Laila yelled.
" Finally " Nyeka smiled.
" Laila calm your pregnant ass down " I told her then sat down next to Manda while Autumn sat next to me.
" The crew is back together these pregnancy hormones got me all emotional and shit. I think I’m about to cry " Laila said causing us all to laugh. After a while we stopped laughing and everyone noticed my discomfort.
" You ok Gabby ? " Nyeka asked me.
" No " I sighed.
" What’s wrong ? " Autumn asked me.
" Chris called me last night and left me a voicemail " I said my voice cracking.
" Oh my god " Manda said shocked.
" What did he say " Laila asked. I couldn’t even explain what he said so I played them the voicemail.
" WOW " Nyeka said when it ended.
" Damn " Manda said.
" What are you going to do ? " Autumn asked me.
" I don’t know " I said putting my face in my hands.
" I can see why your miserable. Your dating Jay but you still love your ex " Laila sighed.
" Are you going to tell Jay " Manda asked me.
" I feel like I should " I told her.
" Yeah keep it real with him " Autumn told me.
" You would think I would of been happy about him telling me he still loved me but I’m confused and the last thing I want to do is hurt Jay. He was there for me through everything and he accepted me at my worse " I sighed.
" Maybe you should wait it out " Nyeka said " Still tell Jay what happened you know " She told me.
" Yeah see how Chris acts and don’t just jump into shit with him " Manda told me and she was right. I needed to see him face to face and see where his head was at.
" But wait Gabby we didn’t tell you we fucked that bitch Yecenia up " Nyeka said.
" When ? " I asked confused.
" Yesterday at the basketball courts. She hit Nyeka when she wasn’t even paying attention that weak ass bitch but she still got her ass beat " Manda said.
" That bitch is fucking lame " I said shaking my head.
" Roll with us tonight though " Nyeka told me.
" Where ? " I asked.
" This party in downtown L.A " Laila said.
I went home to change for this party that the girls wanted me to go to with them. I was so happy I had my friends back. Jay couldn’t go because he was going to be in the studio all night. I was kind of glad because I wanted to see what Chris had to say and if he even remember leaving me that voicemail. I hope he’s not an asshole to me but knowing the new Chris I’ve heard about he just might. I knew I wanted to tell Jay everything but that was going to have to wait till I see him. I decided to wear a tight black floral dress that had pink and blue flowers on it. I made my way over to pick the girls up in my range rover since we were meeting the guys there.
" This car is dope " Manda said sitting in the passenger seat while Laila, Autumn and Nyeka went in the back.
" Blast some music bitch lets go " Autumn yelled and we started laughing. Stupid hoe by Nicki Minaj came on and we all started rapping and pretending to be Nicki. I seriously missed this. The party was like 20 minutes away and when we got there it was OD packed.
This party was crazy. We started school in like two days so we all wanted to go out with a bang. I remember what I did last night and I was honestly pissed at myself. I hope she didn’t think shit was cool between us because it’s not. Ty told me her and Autumn made up earlier and shit that was cool for them. I was dancing with some thick bitch she was grinding all over my dick. I spotted Yecenia somewhere in here but I don’t want to talk to her at all. I looked up and saw Gabby laughing with the crew. I was going to try to avoid her but knowing my luck shes going to find me and try to ” talk “. Don’t get me wrong the voicemail was everything I was feeling but I don’t know how to be civil around her you feel me ? So she can’t get mad at me if I’m a dick. I stopped dancing with the one girl and some other bitch insisted I dance with her so I said fuck it. I look up and stared at Gabby since she was right there. She was so beautiful everything about her and the way that dress fit her curves so perfectly. It took everything in me not to throw her against the wall and fuck the shit out of her in front of everyone at this party. She felt me looking and we stared at each other for what seemed like forever. I kept my face emotionless though but I knew she could see right through me. Mijo snapped her out of our staring contest and handed her a drink. I focused my attention back on the girl I was dancing with for a little while till I got tired of dancing with her and I was hot as fuck so I took off my shirt and went outside. I knew she would follow me. Fuck.
" Hey " she said. I turned around and just looked her up and down. I knew she was going to do this shit. " Chris " she said stepping closer to me.
" What Gabby ? " I gritted. She was staring at my chest and abs. I smirked " What do you want " I said causing her to look at my face.
" To talk " she sighed.
" About ? " I said pretending to be confused.
" The voicemail you left me " she said.
" I don’t know what you’re talking about " I said licking my lips.
" Stop lying " She said shaking her head.
" I don’t know what the fuck you talking about. What voicemail man ? " I said with an attitude
" Seriously ? You don’t remember leaving me a voicemail last night ? " She said biting on her bottom lip. Shit was sexy.
" I honestly don’t remember shit from last night " I told her " Fuck are you talking about " I said clenching my jaw.
" You playing games right now " she said annoyed.
" Fuck I gotta play games for ? You ain’t shit to me bitch " I laughed.
" Watch what you call me " She said rolling her eyes.
" You ain’t gon do shit " I said laughing even more. I could tell she was mad she sucked at hiding her fucking emotions.
" You know what Fine " she said. She was about walk away but I grabbed her without thinking and pulled her close our body only inches apart.
" What about the voicemail Gabby ? " I smirked.
" So you remember ? " She scoffed.
" Yes now what about it ? " I said. I was still holding her arm and shit.
" Did you mean it ? " She asked looking down.
" Why does it matter ? You have a man. " I said fucking with her.
" Just answer the question damn " she said grilling me and I started laughing at her " Shit isn’t funny " she said mad.
" It is though, it’s like you expecting me to just say everything is ok and it’s fucking not " I said dropping her arm.
" Chris " she said grabbing my face and making me look down at her. I just bit on my lip " for the 500th time i am so fucking sorry. I’m sorry for everything, I’m sorry for hurting you and I’m sorry for being stupid just please forgive me " She begged me.
" Forgiveness is earned ma " I said trying to look away from her. I felt my emotions coming out the way she was looking at me was too much man.
" I know but just know I really am sorry " she told me staring in my eyes. All this not giving a fuck shit went out the window. I started to lean in and our lips met. Just as I was about to deepen the kiss.
" Chris what the fuck are you doing " Yecenia yelled. I gave her the death glare and so did Gabby. " I knew you broke up with me because of this bitch " she screamed.
" Bitch go the fuck away " I yelled at her causing Gabby to flinch. She never seen me angry to this extent. This bitch needed to get it through her thick ass skull I’m fucking done with her.
" No Chris, I know you love me. Stop fighting it. She cheated on you remember and she has a fucking man " She yelled.
" Bitch shut the fuck up before I make you lose all your got damn teeth " Gabby said yelling at Yecenia. She was feistier and I liked it.
But Yecenia made me come back to reality. I look at Gabby and made her look at me. I studied her face and I could honestly see she was right where she wanted to be. I ignored Yecenia as she kept going on and on about the same bullshit. I grabbed Gabbys hand and ran with her into the bathroom as I locked the door. I sat down on the toilet as she stood in front of me.
" I can see you still love me " I told her. She didn’t say anything " I still love you but you got a man and he obviously makes you happy " I said.
" Chris I still love you but I don’t know what to do and how do I know this is what you want " she sighed.
" I honestly don’t give a fuck about nothing but being with you but I’m not the same nigga I was before and you gotta realize that " I said touching her hand " I’m willing to give you time though but you need to prove to me shit will be different ma. I refuse to be played for a fool. I’m going to let decide who you want. We haven’t seen each other in two years and it’s like we have to get to know each other again babe " I said.
" Your giving me time to choose between you and Jay " she asked confused
" Yeah I mean we need to discuss shit before we even think about getting back so while we doing that. We can both do us. I fuck with whoever I want and you have Jay for now but you should be honest with that nigga " I said watching her face.
" I don’t know " she sighed " either way I feel like I’m going to be hurting you guys even if y’all don’t show it " she told me.
" Just think about it " I said standing up " But one more thing " I grabbed her face and kissed her as our tongues explored each others mouths. All these feelings came rushing back as if she never left as if she never cheated. I stopped the kiss " When you decide what you want to do you know where to find me " I said against her lips. I backed up and walked out the bathroom.
I gave her that ultimatum because I’m not rushing shit this time and at the end of the day she does seem happy. I want her to decide who she wants. It’s either me or him but I’m not going to wait forever and if chooses him fuck it. I know that nigga not going down without a fight because I could tell he’s in way too deep just by the way he be all over her. I’m not letting her off the hook at all. She hurt me and when we do finally sit down and I explain everything she made me go through she’ll understand why my guard is up, why I’m a dick and why I’m not that same nigga. I may get hurt in the process all over again but shit I gotta try. I can’t just push her away, you should never push someone that you love away. I feel like fate brought her back for a reason.
We on an open road and there’s no telling where we going to end up.
It was like 2 o clock last night was crazy, I got my ass beat and right now everything was hurting, I had a bruise on my side and that shit was huge. I had scratches and shit all over me with a cut on my lip. Thank god I proctected my face because lord knows what I would of looked like. Manda was pissed at me and I couldn’t blame her. I knew she wanted everything back the way it was but she needs to realize that shits not going to happen right away. I was a complete asshole to Gabby last night and I felt bad. She was right, she didn’t have to help me but she did and I was greatful deep down inside. I was just pissed about everything that went down and I shouldn’t have took it out on her. I just had built up frustration towards her for hurting me the way she did and how she ran away from the situation. Everyone was right if I could forgive Ty then I could forgive Gabby. I just don’t know how I should go about it like what if I get mad and start yelling at her, what if we start fighting, what if it becomes bigger than what it needs to be. What if …
I walked out of my room and walked slowly to the kitchen to make a sandwhich. Bad enough I had to breathe slow and shit. Manda and Nyeka were watching tv. I guess they were going somewhere since they were dressed and shit. I finished making my sandwhich and sat down on the couch next to Manda. I saw her flex her jaw and I knew she was still mad.
" How you feeling " Nyeka asked me.
" In pain " I shrugged.
" payback is going to be a bitch for that sloppy hoe " Nyeka said. It was silent and Manda was talking to Nyeka like I wasn’t there. It hurt not speaking to Gabby and I don’t want to lose Manda too " Manda " I sighed.
" What ? " She asked rudely.
" I’m sorry " I told her.
" I bet you are and I’m not the one you should be apologizing to. I’m sick of this being divided and being put in the middle of my two best friends " She told me.
" I know and I’m going to try and fix everything " I said. Truth is I really did miss Gabby and I knew we just needed to talk shit out.
" Don’t say that if you not going to do it " Manda said.
" I promise, I’m going to try " I said biting into my sandwhich " But you act like I’m not suppose to be mad about everything that happened. You don’t know what it feels like " I said chewing on my food.
" I get that " She sighed " I just want us all to be together again, that’s all I want " She told me.
" Me too " Nyeka said.
" I’ll call her later, y’all have my word " I told them " Where y’all going " I asked them.
" The boys house, you want to come ? " Manda asked me while she got up. They had on sweatpants and everything. So did I, so I got up and put my shit in the sink. I knew what they were planning and I wanted to be there.
The girls wanted to come over but me, Ty, Mijo and Laila waited for them downstairs. We wanted to play ball with Chris so that was what we were going to do. They came downstairs in sweatpants and tank tops. I shook my head cause these bitches is always fighting. I knew some shit was going to pop off because Chris bitch was going to be there. Chris didn’t even know what happened, we never got the chance to tell him. I was holding Mandas hand as we walk to the courts and suprisingly Chris was there by himself just shooting around and shit. He looked at all of us and saw Autumn limping.
" Fuck happened to you " He said raising his eyebrow.
" Why don’t you go ask your bitch " She said with an attitude.
" What ? " He asked confused.
" Your girl got Autumn jumped last night by her two friends " Ty said to him. Chris eyes got wide.
" She got you jumped " He said repeating what we already said.
" Yes that bitch got her jumped damn nigga you deaf " Nyeka snapped.
" Calm that shit down b " He said to her.
" That’s not all of it though " Manda told him.
" What you mean ? " He asked her.
" She was getting jumped but Gabby was there so she helped her " I told him.
" You forgave her ? " He asked autumn.
" No she didn’t " Laila said rolling her eyes.
" She was by herself " He asked us.
" Nah, she was with Jay " Mijo told him.
" Who ? " He said playing dumb.
" Her man nigga " Laila laughed. He looked to the side and didn’t say anything for a couple of seconds.
" My bad Autumn I didn’t know she was going to do that " He said to her.
" Karmas a bitch so I don’t even care " Autumn shrugged.
" Can we play ball now ? " Mijo said annoyed. The girls went to sit down and watch us play ball. Laila was over there being a little cheerleader for her man and shit. Eventually Yecenia came with one of her friends and the bitch had a black eye because I heard Gabby went in on her face.
" That’s the bitch Gabby fucked up OD " Ty said laughing. Chris just stared at Yecenia with anger in his eyes.
" Hey baby " She said getting on her tippy toes trying to kiss him on the lips but he turned his face so she got his cheek.
" You know you fucked up right ? " He said clenching his jaw.
" What are you talking about ? " She asked then looked at Autumn who was sitting on the bench. I saw Nyeka wrapping her hair and shit.
" You got Autumn jumped bitch " He snapped.
" She fucking deserved it " She yelled.
" My girl ain’t deserve shit shut the fuck up " Tyga said to her. Next thing I knew I saw Nyeka and Manda walking towards us.
" Chris move " Nyeka told him and he moved to the side. She went in Yecenias face " You fucked with the wrong bitch " She said through her teeth. We all backed up. I honestly was going to let them fight. I didn’t give a fuck.
" Get out my face " Yecenia said mushing Nyeka. Manda just decked her friend once and that bitch collapsed. Nyeka started laughing and took her focus off Yecenia which was the wrong move because Yecenia punched her dead in her jaw. Manda snatched that bitch by her hair though and threw her down on the floor. Nyeka started kicking her hard and Manda spit on her. Ty stopped Nyeka because we heard sirens and shit. Yecenias friend helped her up and they both ran off like punks.
" I need to break up with this bitch man " Chris said with his hands on top of his head.
" Fuck you with her for anyway " Mijo said shaking his head.
" To take his mind off shit I bet " I said.
" Man fuck y’all I’m out " He said walking off.
" You can’t keep running away from your problems nigga " Ty told him and he just stuck up his middle finger and kept walking. That was when it started raining so we all left the park.
I was layed up with Jay at my house since it was raining outside and shit. We were cuddling and watching movies. I was thinking about how rude Autumn was to me last night and I honestly understood why she was like that. I never gave her a reason to forgive me. Jay said I shouldn’t think about it like that but it was true. I ran away, Ty stayed so that’s why he was forgiven before I was. I held so much shit in and I just wanted to let it all out. The main person I held shit in about was Chris but I knew we would probably never speak, he hated me and I somewhat think it’s beyond repair. Don’t get me wrong I’m happy with Jay. He makes me so happy but sometimes I feel like I shouldn’t even be this happy because of what I did. I don’t deserve to be happy. I was always overthinking about everything and it sucked.
" You good ? " Jay asked me.
" Mmmhm " I said cuddling into his neck.
" Don’t start yo " He said licking his lips.
" Was I wrong for speaking to Autumn like that last night ? " I asked him.
" I knew you were thinking about that and yeah kind of. I mean I feel like you both were wrong. You could of went about it differently and she could of thanked you because like you said you didn’t have to help her " He told me honestly.
" Everythings so fucked up and it’s all my fault " I sighed.
" I think you niggas is going to make up sooner than you think babe " He said.
" What makes you so sure " I asked.
" She may be mad but she wouldn’t be mad for this long if she didn’t care about you " He said and I guess he was right.
" Sorry for bringing you into my problems " I said sitting on top him.
" It’s cool " He said rubbing on my thighs as I leaned down to kiss him. Eventually we started making out and shit. I loved kissing him, the way our lips moved together and the way our tongues massaged against eachother. Our kissing was always passionate never rough and quick. It was like everytime we kissed he was showing me how he felt. He was just what my heart needed right now. I don’t even know if there’s hope for me and Chris. I just want him to be happy even if it’s not with me. My phone beeped so we stopped kissing and Jay handed me my phone.
New text message.
Autumn: I think it’s time that we talked and listened to eachother. No fighting or yelling.
Me: Ok …
Autumn: Tomorrow for lunch like around 1 at tart. Is that cool ?
Me: Ok ill be there.
" What’s wrong " Jay asked concerned.
" It was Autumn she wants to sit down and talk " I said staring at him.
" Everything is going work out babe " He said smiling at me.
" I hope so. This can either be a good thing or a really bad thing " I sighed.
" Be positive ma. Now where were we " He said pulling me back down and kissing me again. He flipped me over and got on top of me as our kissing got deeper. He trailed his kisses down to my neck and lifted up my little pajama dress as he pulled it off. I started feeling on his chest since all he had on was his boxers. His kisses went lower and lower till his face was facing my pussy. He looked up at my face and smirked at me. He placed my legs on his shoulders and his tongue began circling on my clit. I arched my back and my breatheing got heavy. I lived for this shit and he knew it. I loved getting head especially when it was done right. He made his tongue vibrate against my clit and my legs began to shake. He started sucking on my clit till I came. He layed down next to and took off his boxers then put a condom on his dick. He loved when I rode him. I remember when we first had sex he was so into it and said " Damn marry me " shit was hilarious. I climb on top of him and slid down onto his dick. I started riding back and forth on his dick slow as his hands caressed my breast. I began picking up my pace and started grinding and rolling my hips as his hands gripped my ass. I stopped riding him and turned so I could ride him from the back. My moans were loud. " Fuck just like that baby " He grunted as I bounced on his dick. I felt his dick twitching inside me and I knew he was ready to cum. So I had his dick deep in me as I just grinded slow causing him to cum.
" You liked that shit baby " I said laying down next to him and placing my head on his chest.
" You know I did " He said slapping my ass.
" Cause I got it like that " I laughed and he kissed my forehead.
" You’re beautiful " He said staring at my face. I instantly got butterflies.
" Thank you " I blushed and hugged him tighter as we both fell asleep.
I hate when these mother fuckers would say I’m hiding my pain. I’m not hiding shit and if I wanted her back I could fucking have her but fuck her yo. I felt like they brought her up on purpose and now she’s back and I know I’m going to be forced to see her. She with this new nigga like I give a fuck. I will never admit that I miss her. She don’t deserve me. Yeah I still have feelings for that’s the main reason why I’m trying to avoid the chick. She could have me caught up all over again. I don’t need that right now. She fucked up but why is she happy and I’m fucking miserable. Most of the time I would just drink my pain away or smoke. It made me numb and it made me forget even if it was only for a little while. I can’t control the way my heart feels. Sometimes I want to know what the fuck she’s thinking and how the fuck she feels but I stop myself. If I could time travel I would go back to the way things were before she fucked everything up. I don’t regret being with her at all. I’m just at the point where I don’t want to even think about her anymore. Everything reminds me of her. The only person that knows how I really feel is my mom. I feel like I’m on an open road and I don’t know where I’m going to end up.
I was on my way to the bar and I saw Yecenia. Her face was fucked up and everything. I didn’t have time for this bitch and I knew I wanted to end it. I got my own problems and I don’t need a chick thats just going to make shit worse.
" You mad at me " She asked me trying to look sad.
" I honestly don’t give a fuck " I said staring past her.
" What don’t you give a fuck about " She asked.
" You or this relationship. I’m done, you cause way too much problems " I said clenching my jaw.
" You don’t mean that " She said causing me to look at her. She looked like she was about to cry.
" I’m sorry but it’s not working. I got shit I’m dealing with and you only adding more problems " I said walking away. I heard her calling my name but I just got in my car and drove off. I felt bad but it was for the best. I fucked with her head and she fucked with my homies. I should of never made it official with her, it was a mistake. I’m not stable enough to be in a relationship when I’m still holding this grudge against Gabby. The funny part is everytime I see Gabby I turn my feelings off. I only seen her twice but it’s a habit. All these angry emotions just come back to me. She didn’t go through shit because she left. I would of loved to see how hurt she was. If she was hurting like I was but that didn’t happen.
I was at the bar just drinking trying to numb all these feelings. I didn’t want to think about shit but these shots that I was taking. The liquor actually made it worse though, I was all up in my fucking feelings. I started scrolling through my contacts and stopped at her name. I wanted to hear her voice. I needed to hear it. I had changed my number so I knew she didn’t have it. Next thing I know I pressed the call button. It rang twice and she picked up.
" Hello " She said sleepily but I didn’t say anything, I just listened. " Hello, who is this ? " She said again. When I didn’t answer she just hung up. I took like 3 more shots and called again after like 20 minutes. It rang once and I got the voicemal.
" Hey you reached Gabby sorry I couldn’t answer your call but leave me a message and I’ll try to get back to you as soon as I can " She said before it beeped.
That chapter was hype af. And I don't know but ... (Can't believe I'm gonna say this) I like Kirko & Gabby together! EEEP. Like .. I like it when she was with Chris but.. I like the change. Only thing is Gabby found someone decent & is doing good with the break up and Chris is over here messing with dumb bitches that dont mean shit.
I was kicking back with Autumn at my place since all the girls were hanging out and she didn’t want to go because Gabby was with them. If you ask me she was being petty, like let that shit go already. I get that she’s upset and sometimes she still brings it up but you can’t hold on to shit that makes you angry. We both fucked up I get it, trust me but staying mad and having hatred towards someone takes up too much energy. I missed the old crew yo and I knew it was my fault for being dumb and doing what I did. I felt bad that Gabby left, I feel like she got it worse than me. Maybe if she wouldn’t have left everything would of been resolved by now but she did what she felt was right. I had to put in work to get Autumn back she didn’t make shit easy. She hated my guts. When it first happened and I would come around and try to talking to her she would ignore me and sometimes curse me out. Shit was crazy. Eventually she forgave since she could see how sorry I was. Shit with Chris went to the extreme, everytime that nigga would see me he would try to fight me. We faught so many times and shit was out of hand. He would always bullshit and get crazy. That nigga hated me and everybody fucking knew it. Eventually he forgave me too after we had a long ass talk. Chris changed for the worst though me and the niggas seen him fuck with so many girls and then kick them to the curve. It was like he was trying to hide his pain and he was trying not to think about Gabby. I guess eventually we will see what happens but right now they don’t even look like they’ll get back together.
I was just laying on Autumn’s lap and we were watching movies and shit. Occasionally I would stare at her and she would smile down at me. It took me a while to earn her trust. I know its not completely there but I know she knows I’m trying. We were in the middle of watching transformers and Chris girl came walking through the door like a crazy person. Chris didn’t want to see her though so he told us to tell her he wasn’t there even though he was locked up in his room. I don’t know why he even bothered getting involved with this bitch.
" Where ‘s Chris " She asked yelling " Where the fuck is he ? " She yelled again.
" You need to calm down he is not here " I said with an attitude. I don’t know who the fuck she think she talking to.
" I know he’s here. Don’t fucking lie " She said angry.
" He’s not so leave " I said again.
" Why didn’t he pick up my calls like what the fuck. Where the fuck did he go ? " She asked with an attitude. Stank ass bitch.
" Do I look like his fucking keeper " I said giving her the side eye.
" You whatever your fucking name is, where’s Chris " She asked Autumn.
" I don’t fucking know " Autumn said through her teeth.
" Y’all are fucking lying " She screamed.
" Bitch go away " Autumn said with an attitude.
" What the fuck did you say " Yecenia said grilling Autumn.
" You heard me, he obviously doesn’t want to see you so just leave damn " Autumn said rolling her eyes. Chris finally decided to come out the room and he spazzed.
" Didn’t I tell you I was fucking busy tonight ? " He said clenching his jaw.
" I know baby but . . . " She stopped because Autumn started laughing " Fuck is so funny bitch " She yelled.
" You’re pathetic " Autumn said laughing harder.
" I’m pathetic bitch. You took a nigga back that cheated on you twice and once with your best friend but I’m fucking pathetic. Get the fuck out of here bitch " Yecenia said smiling. Now we were all grilling her.
" Chris get your bitch " I told him.
" Yo Yecenia shut the fuck up " Chris yelled at her.
" Quite now right bitch that’s what I thought " She smirked. Autumn started charging for her and Grabbed her by the hair and threw her into the wall.
" What the fuck did you say " Autumn said pissed.
" Babe chill " I said pulling her back.
" You’re going to regret doing that " She threatened.
" Bitch please " Autumn laughed.
" Get the fuck in the room yo " Chris said pushing her into his room " My bad y’all don’t even worry about this bitch man " He told us before walking into the room as soon as he closed the door he started yelling at her and cursing her out.
Truth is none of us liked her we just tolerated her because was with Chris. She was slick with her fucking mouth and got into it with all the girls already. Nyeka hated her fucking guts. Her and Nyeka always argued. Everytime they would argue all the girls would get involved and shit would get out of control. They were malicious towards eachother. One time she disrepsected Mijo and Laila wasn’t haven’t that shit so she threw a pot at her head. That shit was hilarious too. Yecenia had a big ass knot on her forehead after.
It was like 7 at night and I was in the studio just working on my music and shit. I had called Gabby to come through so she could listen to my song and she was on her way. She was so fucking honest with me about everything that’s why I loved her feedback. She supported me and that’s why I liked her. She wasn’t easy to get either. I met her when she was broken and shit. I tried everything to mend her heart. I listen to her, watched her cry and gave her advice. I did it because I knew she was special. I know she still got feelings for that nigga but I’m not going down without a fight. I care about this girl way too much to just give her up. Regardless if she still loves him or not, I know she has feelings for me. When I first met Gabby it was at orientation for the study abroad program and she looked so miserable so I sat down next to her. I tried to make conversation but she would just give me one word answers. I had never seen her on the USC campus though. She was beautiful so I kept trying until she gave in. We started off friends and shit but I liked her since day one. She was funny, freaky, cool, sweet and feisty at the same time. I don’t care about her past though that shit has nothing to do with me. I just want to be in her present and future.
I was putting the finishing touches on one of my songs when Gabby came in looking extra happy. I knew she was happy to be around her friends again. She always talked about them and that Autumn girl. Eventhough they weren’t talking I knew she missed her. She sucked at hiding her emotions.
" Hey baby " She said sitting on my lap and kissing me.
" Somebodies happy " I said against her lips.
" Well today was a good day " She smiled.
" You had fun ? " I asked her.
" Yeah it felt good hanging out with my girls again " She said.
" That’s wassup " I said rubbing her thigh.
" So rap this song to me baby " She smirked " I rushed over here for this " She laughed.
" Ight it’s called drank in my cup " I told her " Remember to be honest with me ma " I said.
" Always " She said kissing me on the cheek.
" Ight I’ma rap the first verse and the chorus babe " I said and she got ready to listen.
I done came down, hold up, grip the grain, roll up
And your girlfriend want a nigga like me
'cause I ain't trying to control her
She call me when she wants a change
Black diamond, my pinky ring
And she know you weak and we ain’t the same
You hit the scene, I make the scene
I’m in her head like Maybelline
H-town so I made to lean
I’m in her soul, I make her scream
I don’t ride the toll, don’t pay the change
I’m easy tag like peter pan
She want a man, don’t need a man
I’m flying down your boulevard
She cooking dinner with your pans
Draped up, dripped out,
Your bitch know what I’m taking ‘bout
Pulls up, pull out
We get it poppin’ in the parking lot
She like to do it with the lights on
Don’t matter to me if it’s dark or not
I’m g’d up, east up
Fossil pants, I’m hard as rock
Girl I know how much you really want somebody
Want somebody that don’t really need you
Girl I know how much you really want somebody
Want somebody that ain’t trying to keep
You heard what I said, that could put you to bed
That ain’t trying to love you baby, just fuck you instead
And don’t tell ‘em nothing baby, you know that I’m coming baby
Just hit up my phone whenever you need you some company
Got this drank in my cup
I got this drank in my cup
I got this drank in my cup
" I love it " She said smiling wide " It’s kinda freaky, me gusta papi " She laughed.
" Forreal ? " I asked her.
" Yessssssssss " She yelled.
" Thanks babe " I smirked.
Yecenia was riding my dick while I was watching the basketball game and shit. She always wanted to fuck and I wasn’t complaining at all. I had to teach her a couple of things because at first the sex was wack as fuck. She would say stupid shit like I bet your ex can’t do it like me and on the inside I would laugh because gabby could do it better, way better. I didn’t have to teach Gabby nothing. The thing about Yecenia, her body was bad and she was confident as fuck. Nobody in the crew likes her but I don’t give a fuck what they think it’s what I want. She’s been disrespectful plenty of times but she knows better than to try that shit with me. The girls would be like she using you nigga but how ? If every time she asked me for shit I say no. I’m not a dumb nigga. Yecenia was getting annoying lately though like kind of clingy in a way. I would tell her to stop that shit but she didn’t wanna listen. It was becoming irritating and I planned on cutting her ass off soon I just needed a good excuse.
” you like this shit ” she said bouncing on my dick.
” shoot the fucking ball nigga ” I said ignoring her and shouting at the tv.
” Chris ” she moaned.
” oh my bad ” I said laughing ” keep doing that shit, just like that ” I said pretending I was enjoying it. She started riding my dick all sloppy and shit. Turning me off even more.
” I’m about to cummmm ” she squealed.
” You done ? ” I asked her.
” No you didn’t cum yet ” she said putting my dick in her mouth. Now this is what I enjoyed. Kind of. She didn’t deep throat she would always just suck the tip.
” damn ” I said taking my eyes off the tv and I looked down at her. She made her tongue swirl on my dick while she jerked it. She went back to sucking it and I felt my dick twitch. I came in her mouth and she swallowed it.
” That was fun ” she said trying to cuddle with me but I pushed her away gently.
” You need to go I got shit to do ” I said. Truth is I didn’t have nothing to do, I just didn’t want to be around her.
” where did autumn go ? ” she asked me.
” She went to the bowling alley with Ty, why ? ” I asked confused
” just curious ” she said texting on her phone.
She grabbed her shit and left. That shit was weird she never asks about autumn but whatever. I continued watching the game and smoked a blunt.
After the studio me and Jay went to the bowling alley so we could have fun. It was like 11pm and this shit was packed. We hadn’t had a date night since we got back from Europe so we decided to have one today. Girls were looking at Jay and shit but he wasn’t paying them no mind. He was a sexy ass nigga with nice ass lips he was around 6 feet tall and shit. I loved tall guys. We sat down and put our names into the computer. I was flirting with him and bend over all slow and shit as I released the ball so it could hit the pins. His eyes were glued to my ass and he had a smirk on his face while he licked his lips. We kept playing and flirting. He must of had enough of me teasing him after a while because he came up behind me while I bent over.
” I’ll fuck the shit out of you in this bowling alley ma ” he said causing me to drop the bowling ball.
” oh really ” I blushed.
” girl don’t tempt me ” he said as I wrapped my arms around his neck.
” I love it when you get aggressive ” I said smirking at him.
” I want to ride my tongue all night ” he whispered into my ear causing me to shiver.
” damn ” I said kissing him. I totally forgot where we were for a minute his hands were caressing my face and neck. While I grabbed his dick.
” Freaky ass ” he said against my lips and pushing me back.
" You love it when I’m freaky baby " I said kissing his neck.
" We can get it popping in the parked lot " He winked.
I shrugged and he laughed. I looked around the bowling alley and I saw Ty with Autumn. He saw me and waved from were he was and I waved back. Me and Jay played like 2 more games before we started getting tired. Ty stopped me while I was walking out.
” Yo you seen Autumn ” he asked me and Jay.
” Nah I haven’t ” I said.
” She went outside with two girls but that was like 20 minutes ago ” he said concerned.
” I’m sure she’s fine I’ll see you later ok ? ” I said hugging him and then he dapped Jay.
We went outside and there was a girl screaming and shit. Two girls were punching and kicking her but the girl was protecting her face. I got closer and noticed it was Autumn. I didn’t know if I should help her I mean she wasn’t fucking with me. We weren’t even friends right now. She hated my guts but them bitches were oding on her. I told Jay to go get Ty and he looked at me carefully before going. I had enough so I grabbed one of them bitch and threw them head first into the car. The other girl charged at me but I was to fast and I moved out the way causing her to fall. I got on top of her an started punching her and shit. I had so much aggression built up inside of me and it was being released on this bitch. Jay and Ty eventually ran out. Both of them had to pull me off the girl and she was leaking. I went to help Ty with Autumn but she slapped my hand away.
" I didn’t need your help you bitch " She yelled holding her side.
" Excuse me " I said getting pissed.
" You fucking heard me I could of fucking beat they ass myself " She screamed, I looked at her and laughed.
" Yo babe chill out " Ty told her.
" That’s fucking hilarious because they were beating the shit out of you when I came out here. So when exactly were you going to beat they ass " I said saracastically.
" Fuck you bitch " She said angrily. That’s when I got eye level with her.
" Next time I’ll let you get your ass beat and send you a get well soon card in the fucking hospital you ungrateful bitch. I get it you hate me but be fucking thankful I actually cared enough to help you, you dumbass bitch " I said before walking away. She had nothing to say, She could be mad at me all she wanted but she knew I was fucking right. Her fucking mouth and nose was bleeding. I’m pretty sure her rib was bruised. Bitch was on the floor screaming. I should have just walked away but I’m not like that. Next time I know not to get involved.
Me, Nyeka, Laila, Mijo and Keeis were sitting at home watching scary movies and eating. We hung out all day. Mijo was sitting there playing with Lailas stomach and shit. They were too fucking cute. She had a certain glow to her and whenever they would be around us we would all be happy as fuck. They started arguing about whether it was going to be a girl or boy and what they were going to name it.
" Barry king the third babe, That shit fly as fuck " He said smiling.
" Fuck out of here its going to be a girl and all I know is her name is going to be Aaliyah " She said touching her stomach.
We were all laughing at them as they went back and forth. That was until ty came through the door holding Autumn up. I got up and went to help him bring her to the couch. All of our eyes were wide and shit.
" What the fuck happened " I yelled.
" I got jumped " She said holding her side.
" What the fuck you mean " Nyeka said angrily.
" I went outside to get some air with these two girls I knew from school and shit but they were Yecenias friends. Me and Yecenia had got into it earlier. She told them to come to the bowling alley and to beat my ass so they did. Gabby was there and she helped me " She said in pain.
" Then where the fuck is Gabby " Laila asked her.
" I yelled at her because I was mad, I told her I didn’t want her fucking help " She sighed.
" Are you fucking dumb from where I stand you obviously needed that shit " I yelled at her.
" Babe calm down " Keeis told me.
" Nah fuck that she walking around here like she don’t want to forgive Gabby when she fucking does. She playing fucking games because if I was Gabby I would of let you get your mother fucking ass beat. You hating her for no fucking reason meanwhile you could forgive Ty. It takes two people to fuck my nigga. You fucking tripping. We were all best fucking friends and the only person that ruined it is you. You know she’s sorry we all fucking knowing it " I said crossing my arms.
" You should of thanked her yo " Mijo said.
" Whatever " Autumn said looking away. She knew I was fucking right. I had so much anger built up and she was making it worse. I want my fucking best friends back to the way they were. Fuck this bullshit. Shit happened two years ago.
" Wait till I see that Yencia bitch though. I don’t give a fuck if she’s dating Chris I’m going to beat her ass. She got bitches fighting battles for her. She not about this life and I’m going to show her she fucked with the wrong people " Nyeka said balling her fist. I just got up and went to my room. I was too angry to even look at Autumn right now.
I was finally back in L.A after two years of being in Europe. I was finally happy again. It took me awhile to be back to myself after well you know. I was miserable for about a year, I even went into a depression stage because I felt like I had no one. I kept in touch with Nyeka and Laila because they wrote me letters telling me no matter what they were still my friend since the situation had nothing to do with them. I was greatful because I thought everyone hated me and shit. After about 6 months of me being in Europe, Manda finally got in contact with me and told me why she was mad. Basically she was mad that I didn’t say bye not because of what I did. She’s my best friend so I understood everything she was saying and we continued to keep in touch. Ty even wrote me letters telling me he still wanted to be my friend and I was cool with it. I knew that Autumn forgave Ty after a year of him begging her and shit. I just found it crazy how she could forgive him but not me. I was her best friend, I knew her better than anyone but what could I do. I’m pretty sure she knew I was sorry. I met this boy and his name was Jay. He was the first person I met in Europe. So I basically depended on him to be there for me and he was. I told him everything that happened between me and Chris. He listened and gave me advice. I didn’t catch feelings for him like he did right away but eventually after about a year I did. We started dating about 6 months ago. We took it slow and that was something I didn’t do with Chris. Deep down I knew I still loved Chris and Jay knew it too. Nobody knew I was back yet and I wasn’t sure when I was going to let it be known. I was 21 now and I didn’t want to have to deal with the bullshit from two years ago but I knew I would have to since I didn’t really catch the after math. I actually left before it could even start.
When I got back to L.A I had found myself an apartment since I would be living by myself. It was a condo in downtown L.A. It was huge and I loved it. Classes didn’t started for like a week. Jay was helping me buy furniture and shit. We were out shopping and holding hands. That’s when I saw Autumn by herself at starbucks, her eyes got wide when she saw me it was like she saw a ghost. She looked at me and then looked at Jay. She grabbed her shit and just left without saying anything to me. Jay wasn’t even paying attention so I just continued walking into one of the furniture stores with him.
" What color you want your furniture to be ma ? " Jay asked me as I looked around.
" Pink " I smiled and he laughed.
" Why everything gotta be pink " He laughed shaking his head.
" I’m kidding. I kind of want black and white since the kitchen is pink and shit " I told him.
" And you getting that king sized bed right " He smirked and Kissed me.
" Freak " I said against his lips.
We picked out everything and Tomorrow it was going to be shipped to my house so I was staying in Jay’s house tonight. My mom had bought me a new white range rover for doing so well in Europe. I was happy about it. It was my dream car after all. Jay would tease me all the time and tell me I was spoiled but he couldn’t talk his family was rich as fuck.
There was a end of summer party happening tonight and Jay really wanted to go so I decided to go with him. We went back to his house though since it was early and just hung out. Sometimes Jay remind me of Chris because of some of the things he did. His head game was good but his dick game could never be close to Chris. My mind would always travel back to Chris and I would always wonder what if ? I started drawing and painting, it was more than just fashion. The art helped me release what I was feeling emotionally. Jay had one of the paintings I painted for him on his wall. I was just staring at it.
" Remember when you gave me that ? " He said hugging me from behind.
" When I told you I liked you " I smiled and he turned me around.
" Look I know you’re worried about being back here because of all the shit that happen but you got me iight " He said holding my waist.
" I know " I told him and kissed him. Jay wanted to be a rapper. He was in school for music. He was really good at it, I loved when he would randomly rap shit to me. Sometimes it would be corny and sometimes it would be sexy. He had a gift and I wanted him to do well. His stage name was Kirko Bangz. He made a whole bunch of mixtapes in europe and they did well over there " That’s a big ass hickey on your neck " I laughed.
" Yeah. my girl is a vampire " He said pushing me against the wall and kissing me deeply.
When I saw Gabby I was so fucking shocked. I don’t know if I was still mad at her or if it was just that I wasn’t ready to talk to her. She was with a new boy which was shocking as well. I would of never thought she would get over Chris like I never got over Ty. She hurt me deep, She was suppose to be my best friend and She should of known better. Ty and Manda kept telling me she was drunk but it didn’t change how I felt at the time. I hated her so much but yet I missed her at the same time. Our friendship was never suppose to end. I look back now and I could only imagine how she felt. Nobody was talking to her but eventually Manda, Nyeka and Laila did. I wasn’t mad at them for it. I would just get annoyed when they brought her name up. I knew I would forgive her when the time was right. I really did miss her as a friend and if I could forgive Ty and take him back. Why can’t I forgive her ?
I walked back into the apartment. Nyeka had moved into Gabby’s old bedroom since they figured I wanted nothing to do with Gabby which was true at one point. Chris, his new girl Yecenia, Mijo, Laila, Ty, Keeis, Nyeka, Nino and Manda were all in the living room. Chris had been dating this girl for a month. He went through a stage were he would just fuck bitches and thats it. I was actually surprised he made it official with her to be honest. She kind of had a rep for using niggas and shit but we’ll see. I put my stuff down and sat next to Ty. I was thinking hard and they all noticed.
" What’s wrong with you " Manda asked me.
" Nothing " I lied.
" Why you lying for " Keeis said.
" It’s nothing " I said.
" Spit it out nigga " Nyeka told me.
" I saw Gabby " As soon as I said their eyes got wide and then they all looked at Chris.
" Word ? She’s back ? " Mijo asked.
" I guess. I didn’t speak to her though I just left " I sighed.
" That bitch ain’t tell me she was back " Laila said.
" Did she tell you Manda ? " I asked.
" Nah " She said shaking her head.
" Who’s Gabby " Yecenia asked all of us. We all stood quite.
" Chris ex girl " Keeis said and I could see Chris clench his jaw. We all knew deep down he still loved her. He wasn’t fooling nobody. He still had that tattoo they got too.
" Yeah keep it cute " Nyeka told her.
" I didn’t even say anything " She said rolling her eyes.
" Good " Laila said.
" Babe you going to let them talk to me like that " She asked Chris but he looked like he was to deep into his thoughts to even pay attention to her.
" She was holding hands with some guy. I guess he was her new man or something " I shrugged.
" That must be Jay " Manda smirked and that’s when Chris finally looked up. His face was emotionless. One thing about that nigga he became a complete asshole since everything happened and he was good at hiding his emotions.
" Wait, What ? She got a new man " Mijo asked.
" Yup " Laila said.
" Just like Chris got a new girl. Is there a problem " Nyeka said rolling her eyes.
" Shut your ass up babe. It’s just shocking that’s all " Nino told her.
" Yo I’m out, I’ll meet up with y’all later for the party " Chris said getting up and leaving with Yecenia.
" Lets go call Gabby and curse that bitch out on speaker " Manda said walking into her room with Nyeka and Laila.
" She didn’t tell you she was back either ? " I asked Ty.
" All she told me was that she’ll be back sooner than I think " He told me and I nodded my head. I knew they were friends and I wasn’t mad about it, at first I was because I was insecure but I learned to trust him again.
" Are you going to forgive her ? " Keeis asked me.
" We can tell you miss her when the girls talk about her and shit " Mijo said.
" You forgave me then you can forgive her too yo " Ty told me.
" I think I will eventually " I sighed.
I heard Gabby’s voice on the phone when I walked passed Manda’s room. She seemed happy and they were all laughing. I missed having girl talk with just her and Manda, going places and giving eachother advice. I knew I wanted to forgive her but I just didn’t know how to go about it. I knew things would never be the same though but I would just have to take it day by day.
She was back and she had new nigga according to Autumn. I didn’t give a fuck about no new nigga to be honest. Everything was different now from my attitude to me having someone new also. I just started dating the chick but she was cool. She gave me my space, Last thing I needed was some bitch on my dick. She knew what it was. Me and Ty are friends again, I eventually forgave him because he was my boy and I hated him for way too long. I was thinking about what would happen when I see Gabby like how would I act towards her. One thing thats for sure is my guard will be up. She cheated on me and fucked everything up. I honestly think we would’ve still been together. She fucked me over and I never expected that from her. I didn’t tell Yecenia about her because there was no fucking point and when she kept asking me after we left the girls house I told her to drop it. My mom told me to forgive her and just be her friend but I said no. The thing is I could forgive if I wanted to but I could never forget and I’m not making shit easy for her at all. She wrote me letters and shit for like 6 months but I never wrote back to her. I would just read them and get pissed all over again. I still had the letters locked up in my safe along with the pictures we took, the charm braclet, promise ring, sex tape and that picture I drew of her. I don’t know why I didn’t throw them away every now and then I would look at the stuff and just think of all the good times we had. The good times did out way the bad but that one incident fucked everything up. I didn’t trust her at all. I doubt we could even go back to the way we were. Thinking about her made me overthink all the fucking time. So I tried to keep my mind off of her, you feel me ? Whether it was fucking bitches or playing basketball. She changed me.
Me and the boys were getting ready for the party. I decided to wear a jean button up shirt, khaki pants, vans and my snapback. It was some end of summer party that one of our peoples was throwing. We meet up with the girls downstairs. Yecenia was meeting me there. We made our way to the party and the music was low as fuck. I guess we were too early. Yecenia came up to me and kissed me. I was having a convo with Mijo and Ty.
" You good bro ? " Mijo asked me.
" Yeah I’m chilling nigga " I smiled.
" We just making sure " Ty said.
" Y’all good ? Y’all ready to get faded " I said lighting a blunt. I started smoking weed here and there since I was stressed out about her. Weed calmed me down. I knew once I started playing ball again this shit would have to stop completely though.
" That’s what I’m talking about " Keeis said coming out of no where and lighting his blunt.
" How you feel about Gabby being back though nigga ? Mijo asked me.
" It is what it is " I said inhaling the blunt.
" There this nigga go with his guard up " Keeis laughed.
" You know eventually you going to see her right ? " Ty said to me
" I don’t gotta talk to her though " I said not caring.
I scanned the room and looked around. Niggas was maccin hard at this party. There was a girl standing all up on some dude and he had his hand her ass. She had a tight sexy ass hot pink dress on. Her hair was like a blondeish reddish color. From what I could see her booty was super thick. Her body was banging and she looked spanish. When she turned around I started choking and shit. It was her. She got thicker and she was still beautiful. That dress was fitting her curves perfectly. She must of felt me staring cause we made eye contact for like 5 seconds before she looked away. When our eyes connected I had all these feelings rush back to me love, lust, hate, and hurt.
" Here nigga drink this " Mijo said giving me a cup of liquor and laughing.
" Fuck is wrong with you nigga " Keeis laughed.
" She’s here " I said and I nodded my head in her direction.
" Oh shit " Mijo said " Damn she look good " He said with his eyes wide.
" The fuck are you talking about " Laila said slapping him upside the head.
" Your homegirl is here " Mijo told her and she looked.
" Oh my god " She squealed.
Laila grabbed Nyeka and Manda. They made their way over to Gabby and started screaming. They hugged eachother and started talking shit. I saw Ty get up and make his was over there and she hugged him. She introduced all of them to her new man and shit. I couldn’t keep my eyes off of her and she would glance in my direction thinking I didn’t see her but I did. I wasn’t tripping though. Yeah she looked good but I was a pro at this shit. She got another thing coming if she thinks I let what she did to me go.
" So that’s your ex girl " Yecenia asked snapping me out of my thoughts.
" Yeah " I said looking down at her.
" So why don’t you go say hi " She said with an attitude.
" Nah, I’m going to stay right here with you " I said smirking then kissing her.
After the kiss I looked up to see if Gabby was looking but she wasn’t. I was trying to make her jealous but it didn’t work. I knew I would see her eventually but I didn’t think it would be this soon. Ty eventually went back to Autumn and shit. Dude she was with looked weak, yeah I was judging him I don’t give a fuck. I’m not hating though but I know that nigga probably can’t handle her.
I was at the party with Jay and he was being all touchy feely. He had his hand on my ass while he drank. I was looking sexy tonight and I knew he loved what I had on. He was whispering shit in my ear and I felt someones eyes on me. So I turned around to see who it was and it was Chris. When our eyes connected it was like everyone in the room just vanished and it was only me and him left. I broke the eye contact because I couldn’t handle it. I really wish I could of went up to him and just kissed him. Jay’s a good guy and I don’t want to hurt him. Autumn was sitting down and she didn’t come over with Ty to say hi to me. I could tell she was still mad at me. Ty and her was back together which was good. We made a mistake, he may have a had a little crush on me but his love for her was real.
" Girl he’s cuter than you let on " Manda said to me in front of Jay and he started to laugh.
" He’s iight " I said grabbing his hand.
" Word ? " He said pulling me to him.
" I was like this bitch back and didn’t say anything " Laila said to me.
" I was going to call you guys tomorrow I swear " I said.
" She really was. She not lying " Jay said.
" What up Gabby " Keeis said walking over with Mijo.
" Hey " I said.
" No hug ? damn " Keeis said hurt.
" I thought y’all hated me " I sighed.
" Nah not at all, I was just mad. You can’t blame me " Mijo told me. It was true Chris was his brother so he had every right to be mad. I hugged both of them and smiled.
" This is my boyfriend Jay, Jay this is Keeis and Mijo " I said introducing them.
" What up " He said dapping them.
" Nice to meet you " Keeis said.
" Well we just wanted to say wassup " Mijo and Keeis smiled.
" Yeah Gabby we gonna get back to the party. Call me so we can hang out tomorrow " Nyeka told me.
" Ok I will " I told them and watched them walk away.
" So that’s Chris ? " Jay said looking at Chris who has his tongue down that girls throat.
" Um yeah " I said trying not to let it get to me.
" He been looking over here all night " Jay laughed and I just shrugged " That dress is fucking sexy " He told me trying to get my mind off things and I started to laugh.
" Oh yeah what you like about it " I said flirting with him.
" This " He said pulling me close to him and grabbing my ass. We started making out and I let my mind focus on Jay at the moment. The kissing was getting intense so we stopped. I started grinding on him slow to the music. Eventually we got tired of partying. I walked past Chris when we left and I could see him smirk when Jay grabbed my hand. It was like he didn’t care. He seemed different and not in a good way.
The next day I went to my apartment mad early to help fix everything up and when I was done I went to pick up Laila, Nyeka and Manda so that we could hangout and catch up. I was there and Manda insisted that I go upstairs so I parked my car. She told me everyone was up there even Chris. I was trying to avoid him but she wasn’t even ready yet. I took a deep breath before knocking on the door and thank god Nyeka opened it. I looked around and the first I saw was Chris with his little girlfriend on his lap. I quickly looked away before he could see me looking.
" Hey bitch " Laila said to me.
" Hey boo " I smiled sitting down next to her.
" Damn Gabby you got more tattoos " Ty said. It was true I had like 10 tattoos now.
" Yeah I did. I wanna be tatted like a mexi " I laughed.
" I’m Yecenia Chris girlfriend " She said out of nowhere with a dumbass smirk on her face.
" Nice to meet you " I said giving her a fake smile while Chris just laughed to himself.
" Anyways Manda needs to hurry the fuck up " Nyeka yelled.
" Bitch I’m coming " She yelled back. Chris hasn’t looked at me once since I got in here and neither has Autumn. His little girlfriend kept grilling me though. Awkward ass tension.
" Where you niggas going " Mijo asked being nosey.
" Out " Laila said to him.
" I’m taking them to the strip club with me " I said laughing.
" Yeah iight I’ll fuck all y’all little asses up " Keeis said to me.
" You ain’t about that life " Manda said coming out the room.
" Why y’all half naked though. Gabby where the rest of your clothes " Ty said to me. I got up and hugged Manda. That’s when Chris finally looked at me.
" It’s hot as fuck outside shut up dad " I said rolling my eyes and Ty just laughed.
" Ok we out don’t miss us too much " Nyeka said and we all walked out the door.
Gabby was back and I wanted to keep my friendship in tact with her. I wasn’t there for her when she needed me most. I was put in the middle of this situation and it sucked. I wish we could all be friends and hang out again but Autumn was making it difficult. It was like she wanted to forgive Gabby but she held back because she was still hurt. She should honestly just tell Gabby how she fucking feels and stop moping around. I have faith that one day they’ll talk since Gabby is going to be around now and shit.
Me and the girls went to pink taco to eat. We sat down and started talking about random shit.
" So how was Europe bitch " Laila asked Gabby.
" At first it was bad and then when I started going out and shit so it became cool " She told us.
" I want to know if you and Jay fucked yet though ? " I asked her and everybody started laughing.
" Yes girl we want details " Nyeka said.
" Well yeah we have " Gabby said laughing.
" Is it good ? " Laila asked her.
" Good enough " She smirked " So what’s the deal with Chris new chick ? " She asked us.
" You jealous ? You miss him ? " Laila asked and Gabby just stood quite
" He basically fucked her the first night he met her and shit. He was basically her booty call for a while and we were all surprised he mad it official with her. They been dating like a month " Nyeka told Gabby.
" He seems different " Gabby said eating her food.
" That’s because he is. You fucked him up, he’s a complete asshole now " I told her.
" What about you and Autumn though ? Do you plan on talking to her ? " Laila asked Gabby.
" I don’t want to make an effort if she’s not going to respond or get smart and cause a argument. So I’ll just go with the flow " Gabby sighed.
" You plan on talking to Chris ? " Nyeka asked.
" He hates me whats the point" She said looking down at her plate.
" Me and Keeis still routing for you niggas " I laughed.
" We all are to be honest " Nyeka said.
" If it’s meant to be it will happen don’t even trip " Laila told her.
" I’m happy with Jay though but Chris still has my heart you know " She said leaning back in her chair.
" It be like that sometimes " I told her.
" Do you love Jay ? " Laila asked her.
" I like him a lot he was there for you know and the feelings are there " She shrugged and then changed the subject " How’s everything with you guys though ? " She asked us.
" Me and Keeis have been great. Everythings good between, we have little arguments but it’s good " I told her.
" Me and Nino straight. We took a break for a little while but everythings cool now " Nyeka said.
" As for me well I’m three months pregnant " Laila said excitedly. We all knew already even Mijo he was so excited about becoming a father. She wasn’t showing yet but soon she will be.
" Oh my fucking god I’m so happy for you " Gabby squealed.
At least there was something to be excited about before all this fuckery unfolded.
I'm Sooooo Addicted!! I Absolutely Love Your Fanfic. I Feel For Gabby, But Then Again That Was Some Fucked Up Shit. && Why Is Ty Tryna Get With Gabby 30 Seconds After The Whole Ordeal? I Understand You Like Her But DAMN! What About Autumn? Gabby Needs To Man Up To Her Actions, Don't Run Away To Europe Because Those Problems Are Still Going To Be There When You Get Back. *Le Sigh* But I Can't Wait For The Update!